I'll be 18 soon,my parents got divourced when i was one,it wrecked my childhood completely.i longed for fatherly love but never got any cause we are quiet estranged.i feel like i would've been a better person with a father figure.

OP It is sad you are estranged from your dad however I don't think he has control on who or what you turn out to be but since you believe it does. . .what stops you from reaching out and changing the situation?

You use of BETTER PERSON reminds me of a this quote

Every day that you wake, there are endless opportunities awaiting you. It is up to you to fulfill your potential and become a better person than you were yesterday. Leave the negative baggage in the past and welcome more prosperity in your future. You have what it takes to become a kingdom. May the New Year bring you peace & better tomorrows!

Sorry, don't know what else to tell you.

@OP Take those words in red seriously, there are many people who were once in the same shoes as you but still weNt on to live exceptional lives so I see no reason you. Can't besides your experience should be a lesson for you to be a better parent because you know first hand what it feels like to neglect a child.

Very understandable.
But you see. . .when fate subtracts from your life. . .YOU ADD TO IT AND ENRICH IT!
Divorce is a terrible wound that robs parents the joy of being with their children because THEY CAN'T BE AMICABLE WITH THEIR SPOUSES.

You can't turn back the hand of time.
Only a parent that truly cares will put his or her child FIRST. . . instead of being selfish.
You are right. A father's love is PRICELESS!
But in the absence of that. . .you learn to LOVE YOURSELF.

Tanx for your candid advice.i will be my best this year.