If u do not understand d way upon which u are walking it is very much easy 2 be confused or at best move in a continuous cycle.D journey of xtianity is a voyage that needs 2 be understood otherwise one will be unnecessarily long in d slum with chain of poverty while d misery may seem complex &unbreakable.As brethren we need 2 know dat there is a period of personal training by God,such period is not negotiable it is fixed,example is d case of Joseph who saw a vision when he was 17yrs Gen 37:2/5,&needed 13yrs of training with God such that at 30yrs he was made a king in Egypt Gen 41:46,king David's period was 12yrs anointed 18yrs became king at 30yrs,Moses period 40yrs ran frm Egypt at 40 returned at 80,our Lord Jesus period was 18yrs,first seen in d temple at 12 started at 30,apostle Paul period 3yrs Gal 1:18,failure 2 recognise this sacrificial period wil result in misery &regret it wil turn out fighting against God,u are not automatic xtian but trained(manual)type,after born again submit 2 training