sadguy:

You seem kind of rude. Funny enough I derive greater pleasure when thinking about strangling rude and proud ladies

DBestDoc:


Young man, how can i take you seriously when you wrote this^^^^

It means you' re either proud of your mental/psychologic status or you are just raising a false alarm here.
Like i wrote in my previous post, if you really have a problem, i can tell.

DBestDoc:


Young man, how can i take you seriously when you wrote this^^^^

It means you' re either proud of your mental/psychologic status or you are just raising a false alarm here.
Like i wrote in my previous post, if you really have a problem, i can tell.

zeb04:
So you only get attention when you see a lady stabbed,wounded etc but am pretty sure you dnt get these attention when your mom or sisters are in harms way rubbish.

I seriouly think you should be put in a cage or just locked away from normal people.

On a flip side, everyone has their demons they have to overcome everyday I think I might get an "attention" if I see you mobbed btw where do you live? I might just be of help.

sadguy:

You seem kind of rude. Funny enough I derive greater pleasure when thinking about strangling rude and proud ladies

sadguy:

So how can you tell, doctor
And one question. How much do you know about this kind of stuff anyway?

taryour:


Like seriously,please don't tell me you taking this lazy boy serious. Lol

DBestDoc:



Not at all, from his first post i knew he was bored

taryour:


Yea right, funny enough I almost believed he was real o from his first post and I was like wow and was silently praying to God to please save the females coming close to this guy and cure him o.

But the yeye lazy AsS kept coming back and typing rubbish. You know na,a lot of secondary kids awaiting waec result on nairaland. I don tey small for this life na, no be today.

sadguy:

Download the about 3 videos and watch them. These are the only type of videos I can get pleasure from watching

taryour:


Only the likes of you watch videos like that. So catch your fun while it last. Pele sogbo, waec go soon release your result and I pray you pass oo so you will get busy rather that run around imaging stUpiD things.

sadguy:

So you think I just made this up. I admit that some of my earlier comments were kind of immature but I guess I just wanted to be interesting at least for once. Why would I just imagine what I posted first. Come to think of it wouldn't it be me placing unnecessary causes on myself. This is the reason I have never told anyone because they won't believe anyway. I think that's the difference between nigeria and countries like US.

sadguy:

So you think I just made this up. I admit that some of my earlier comments were kind of immature but I guess I just wanted to be interesting at least for once. Why would I just imagine what I posted first. Come to think of it wouldn't it be me placing unnecessary causes on myself. This is the reason I have never told anyone because they won't believe anyway. I think that's the difference between nigeria and countries like US.
And one more thing, if you noticed I deleted my post (the one you quoted) referring to that site. Pls delete the quote from your post, I just posted it to prove a point to you alone. I don't want someone falling prey to such things. I know how such has affected me. Even if you don't believe me, which I don't actually care about, I believe you should have at least the slightest bit of wisdom to do the right thing

taryour:




Hmmmmm come to think of it,what the hell are you still doing here if you story is TRUE

On a more serious note,if you are REAL log out now and waste no more time in getting help. Do you have an uncle you can talk to? Or a friend? There should be a grown up matured person you can open up to. Do so ontime and be free.


THAT'S IF YOUR STORY IS REAL ooo.

sadguy:

I see you have finally subjected to the fact that what I posted might actually be true. But most importantly just delete that quote.
Although you have insulted me in most of your comments you seem kind of intelligent, I would give that to you. I normally have this believe that most ladies are unintelligent but I guess you are an exception. The thing is I am not the best of talkers so whenever I write I just kind of overdo it a little.

Naledi14:
I think you should research more on your condition at least try to put a name to it I am pretty sure there should be a name for what you have. Then seek medical and psychological attention asap!!! You do not want to deal with the consequences of you not dealing with this while there is still the opportunity. Lastly and most important pray seek Gods guidance.

taryour:


Hmmmmm not really,just calmed and having a second thought giving you a benefit of doubt.

sadguy:
The world we live in is kind of interesting as well as annoying. Its kind of funny how people think they know and understand when in truth, they don't . Things happen and a lot of people just come to wrong and biased conclusions fueled by belief systems built upon religion and culture.
A young boy of 5years deriving joy from seeing a lady get stabbed to death in a movie seems odd doesn't it. I didn't understand why I felt that way then. It was just the same feeling I felt when my dad bought me a new game console or when I came first in my class.
That quiet cute kid in primary five who was shy to talk in public and to his classmates and yet could answer almost all questions in Ugo C Ugo.
Growing up was a bit awkward because I was always asking myself lot of questions. Questions like why don't I have many friends like my siblings?, why do I hate parties?, why am i shy to talk to girls?, why do I feel uncomfortable in social environments? Anyway I grew up in a average christian family. Forced to go to church, attend mid-week services, read the bible and so on. I had a strict father who would not spare the rod and emotionally abusive words if I erred.
My parents normally always quarreled and had fights which often made me sad and cry. I blamed everything on my dad.
As I approached puberty my weird fetish kind of found its way into my sexual construction.
As a teenage I was a bit more outgoing and more talkative but I was still shy in social situations. I remember one time in jss1, we were watching a school drama where a girl who was poisoned fell down and died, just by seeing her die I had an erection immediately. I was surprised at this but didn't let it bother me. I consequently discovered that I had erections whenever I saw a lady die in any movie whether foreign or Nigerian. Funny enough due to the pleasant sexual feeling I experienced I started watching such movies where I knew a lady would die and I watched them over and over. The older I grew the more I wanted more, I didn't just want more, I wanted it to be better.
I watched porn once and I almost puked. It looked so irritating to me. The idea of sex alone doesn't interest me at all. Up till now I have never had sex, I don't know if its because I am not interested in it or because I don't have a girl friend. I have had female friends but never had anyone so close I would call my girlfriend.
When I turned 17 around the time I finished secondary school, my sexual orientation took another dimension. I started fantasizing about me killing a female. I couldn't get an arousal except it involved the actual thought of killing normally by strangling. Its something I just can't explain.
Thanks to the internet and my above average mind I found lot of sites that had the kind of videos I wanted. I downloaded most of them of had pleasurable experiences. The older I grow the worse it becomes. Whenever I see a beautiful girl those thoughts of killing flood my mind and wipe away any sort of religious and moral sanity. The thought of my hands round her neck and her struggling for breath as life fades from her eyes as I watch her finally give up as her eyes stare blankly is second to non. This has become a huge part of my psychology and I think it can only get worse. I have also become cold as in lacking some normal feelings such as love,pity and guilt
I posted this here on nairaland because I express my feelings better in writing and since I haven't told anyone yet about my little secret I just felt I should share it.
Do I need help?

soonest:
Please go to any psychiatric hosp close to you. They not only handle schizophrenia but other forms of mental disorders. They also have clinical psychologists there. For the mean time stop going to those sites. Pls act fast

sadguy:

Thanks for removing the post. By the way,you make nice cake
For you and those clamoring for me to seek help. You might assist me by dropping the address of any good psychologist you know of. This is Nigeria,Its not like I would just walk up to a random person.

sadguy:

I don't have schizophrenia

taryour:


Remain strong man. And for all the insults,I take them back.

sadguy:

I don't have schizophrenia

dinachi:
He was born that way! I am sure those who claim homosexuality is natural will understand. Rubbish! O boy go to a very strong deliverance pastor. You are possessed!