20K on pills, I am flexing
Hopefully I'd wake up with direction
These seeds in my mouth, I feel no tension
An easy way to go, thank you, don't mention
A letter to my mother, she been guessing
I told her it's no goodbye, I'm just messing
I just did my best on my dressing
It pays to look nice, I've learnt my lesson
Maybe I'd tell Tee how I'm feeling
Hoping she won't find that I'm a villain
My smoking have blackened up my ceiling
With nameless girls I have took to chilling
I'm just being nice on this cold night
Looking for one friend I'd hold tight
My bad habits done chased them all away
I'd go soon, but I'm not going today

A gangsta's delight first
Before I self destruct

I just made some money from my betting
I called up one of my ex and we're sexting
Told her I'd give her the whole money
If she'd come and we'd had sex till the morning
When we dated, she told me no touching
Now I'm talking money, she saying she'd suck me
I pray she comes over, before I turned sober
Else, she'd go home with nothing
Money over everything, we lean on it
Screw staying holy, I'd sin for it
Gospel singers are funny, they sing for it
Church bells are no better, they ring for it
It's my last days, I drink to it
Going out dope has a nice ring to it
A gangster going out to make the world pay
They're thinking they've won, but not today

A gangsta's delight first
Before I self destruct

I went back to my street, to my area
This teen was aching for my Instruments
Her family is close enough to be mine
I won't betray family for one night
Her chest got nothing to write on at all
Her six is the size of two basketballs
She'd hold my hand and put it on her backside
And ask me: "it is soft, you want a ride?"
Oh, sweetheart, I've been dodging you for too long
It's my last days, I can't do wrong
Taking her to the river side seems right
To give her my wax, so she could make light
She became an aged woman while I'm balling
She stood bent and a rod kept her from falling
"Brother miguor!" She kept saying. Inside I say
I'll leave soon, but I'm not going today

A gangsta's delight first
Before I self destruct


My little boy held my hand, he wouldn't let go
Told his mom if he still crying she should let me know
My seed looking at me, his eyes questioning
Why is daddy avoiding my eyes? Don't mention it
Little boy, your daddy failed you
He's weak, he's trying to bail too
It's either that, suicide or jail too
Anyhow he ends, he has failed you
I hope you live a different youth
Maybe stay in a different hood
Maybe have a wealthy guardian
And study without bearing hunger
Grow far away from hood wrongs
Where gunshots sounds like songs
But I have to make these things right
I'd leave soon, but not until your future is bright



- Jigs