I am unhappy with my life because I am not happy with the way I look (I even posted photographs online of my body here and all I got was insults about how bad it looks) I have no money, I am on government welfare and unemployed – I have started a job but have not yet started working. I am unhappy with who I am, not close with my family, a university drop out which is why at age 23 I am trying to do my best to try and start university when most of my friends have already finished masters. My brother is disabled, I worry about his future. I had family problems to the extent my parents burnt my baby photographs, and we were always in physical fights and altercations that police were involved. I said a lot of awful things including wishing my mother would get cancer and die, however that was all spoken out of anger because I know when she got ill I begged and begged God for her healing, and I truly did not mean what I said because what I said was out of anger and passing comment, but I begged God everyday for her healing doing the absolute most – going to different churches, speaking to different pastors, using anointing all etc and if there is power in the tongue that made her die why was the power of the tongue not effective when I wished her healing? I have also made so many mistakes and wonder if because of bad things I have done in the past to others is the reason why my life is such a mess today.

The two biggest mistakes:

1. I was bullied as a teen by some girls, and therefore some years later I made a fake account and sent them a message insulting them and even mentioned one of the girls dead parents. Another guy was awful to me when I would not sleep with him, and I said to him I am happy his father is dead so he doesn’t have to see his horrible son today

2. I cyberbullied a popular online celebrity, I harassed her to the point she had to get the police involved – I did this because I truly believed that if we went to the same school she would have bullied me, and I thought it was her karma. One of the things I said was that ‘her mother will die young’

My adulthood so far has been fine, but when I was 20 my mother was diagnosed with cancer that spread and was therefore terminal. She died when I was 23. She suffered like a criminal and in the end she died. This is the only thing that I cannot rectify and change. Everything else, I can rectify and change but my mum? She is dead, and gone forever. I have now lost my faith and I am now an atheist because I believe I gave my ALL to God- from age 15 I was evangelising, praying, fasting, going to church, living a true Christian life and there are people who live a less ‘christian’ life than me and there mothers are still alive and healthy. I have lost my faith in God because there is nothing that we did not do, we went from church to church, we gave money to many pastors, we went to see a traditional herbalist, we prayed, we fasted, everyone was praying and yet she still died.

I truly do not know why I am alive anymore, I don't see the point in my life and I feel like if there is a God he hates me - I put on a brave face but everyday I want to cry, I am reminded of what I have lost and the big mess I have made of my life.. every single day.

Please do not judge, just give me advice.

It is called karma What you sow is what you reap sorry

My dear life will not give you what you want but what you need you have to be strong we have all tested the good and bad side of life so yours is not an exception pls don't give on God every thing has a purpose and it works together for good kindly contact me on 08161127336 Whatssap let talk .

Don't beat yourself over your mistakes, fix them. Forget about what you did in the past, and start being a better person. I don't think there's any human without a problem. There's someone out there going through worse than you're right now.

@23, you've got time. What would you say of those in their 30s and are still trying to get a B.Sc? You could go back to school if you want.

Obviously you were born, bred and living in Uk/US where you'd have access to therapists and psychologists, have you considered seeing one?

This sounds like a fake story. You are all over the place in different locations in the world at once. Any way, just forgive yourself and your mum.

@op.

You seem fascinated with evil curses and death. Why not take a legitimate job as an undertaker?

No one can fix your life for you
You need to fix it yourself

You simply worry a lot

You need to take actions now...Go back to school...get over your past...stop over thinking and don't ever compare yourself to anybody

Prettyigbochick:
I am unhappy with my life because I am not happy with the way I look (I even posted photographs online of my body here and all I got was insults about how bad it looks) I have no money, I am on government welfare and unemployed – I have started a job but have not yet started working. I am unhappy with who I am, not close with my family, a university drop out which is why at age 23 I am trying to do my best to try and start university when most of my friends have already finished masters. My brother is disabled, I worry about his future. I had family problems to the extent my parents burnt my baby photographs, and we were always in physical fights and altercations that police were involved. I said a lot of awful things including wishing my mother would get cancer and die, however that was all spoken out of anger because I know when she got ill I begged and begged God for her healing, and I truly did not mean what I said because what I said was out of anger and passing comment, but I begged God everyday for her healing doing the absolute most – going to different churches, speaking to different pastors, using anointing all etc and if there is power in the tongue that made her die why was the power of the tongue not effective when I wished her healing? I have also made so many mistakes and wonder if because of bad things I have done in the past to others is the reason why my life is such a mess today.

The two biggest mistakes:

1. I was bullied as a teen by some girls, and therefore some years later I made a fake account and sent them a message insulting them and even mentioned one of the girls dead parents. Another guy was awful to me when I would not sleep with him, and I said to him I am happy his father is dead so he doesn’t have to see his horrible son today

2. I cyberbullied a popular online celebrity, I harassed her to the point she had to get the police involved – I did this because I truly believed that if we went to the same school she would have bullied me, and I thought it was her karma. One of the things I said was that ‘her mother will die young’

My adulthood so far has been fine, but when I was 20 my mother was diagnosed with cancer that spread and was therefore terminal. She died when I was 23. She suffered like a criminal and in the end she died. This is the only thing that I cannot rectify and change. Everything else, I can rectify and change but my mum? She is dead, and gone forever. I have now lost my faith and I am now an atheist because I believe I gave my ALL to God- from age 15 I was evangelising, praying, fasting, going to church, living a true Christian life and there are people who live a less ‘christian’ life than me and there mothers are still alive and healthy. I have lost my faith in God because there is nothing that we did not do, we went from church to church, we gave money to many pastors, we went to see a traditional herbalist, we prayed, we fasted, everyone was praying and yet she still died.

I truly do not know why I am alive anymore, I don't see the point in my life and I feel like if there is a God he hates me - I put on a brave face but everyday I want to cry, I am reminded of what I have lost and the big mess I have made of my life.. every single day.

Please do not judge, just give me advice.

How should they help you fix your life?

Its only you that can fix your life by yourself. Life gives you back what you throw at it. Meanwhile God exists o. If you die now without Him in your life, you go straight to hell.

I don't think i am good at giving advice, but pick yourself up and move on. The ability to continue living through the pain is what makes life beautiful. In the end, you'll find fulfilment.

You've not really done anything wrong dear, it's a phase it will pass

so now its to be posting SATANIC pics of a breast that is not yours on your thread abi.... and u think its fun.... YOUR HELPER has left your destiny to rot

Prettyigbochick:
I am unhappy with my life because I am not happy with the way I look (I even posted photographs online of my body here and all I got was insults about how bad it looks) I have no money, I am on government welfare and unemployed – I have started a job but have not yet started working. I am unhappy with who I am, not close with my family, a university drop out which is why at age 23 I am trying to do my best to try and start university when most of my friends have already finished masters. My brother is disabled, I worry about his future. I had family problems to the extent my parents burnt my baby photographs, and we were always in physical fights and altercations that police were involved. I said a lot of awful things including wishing my mother would get cancer and die, however that was all spoken out of anger because I know when she got ill I begged and begged God for her healing, and I truly did not mean what I said because what I said was out of anger and passing comment, but I begged God everyday for her healing doing the absolute most – going to different churches, speaking to different pastors, using anointing all etc and if there is power in the tongue that made her die why was the power of the tongue not effective when I wished her healing? I have also made so many mistakes and wonder if because of bad things I have done in the past to others is the reason why my life is such a mess today.

The two biggest mistakes:

1. I was bullied as a teen by some girls, and therefore some years later I made a fake account and sent them a message insulting them and even mentioned one of the girls dead parents. Another guy was awful to me when I would not sleep with him, and I said to him I am happy his father is dead so he doesn’t have to see his horrible son today

2. I cyberbullied a popular online celebrity, I harassed her to the point she had to get the police involved – I did this because I truly believed that if we went to the same school she would have bullied me, and I thought it was her karma. One of the things I said was that ‘her mother will die young’

My adulthood so far has been fine, but when I was 20 my mother was diagnosed with cancer that spread and was therefore terminal. She died when I was 23. She suffered like a criminal and in the end she died. This is the only thing that I cannot rectify and change. Everything else, I can rectify and change but my mum? She is dead, and gone forever. I have now lost my faith and I am now an atheist because I believe I gave my ALL to God- from age 15 I was evangelising, praying, fasting, going to church, living a true Christian life and there are people who live a less ‘christian’ life than me and there mothers are still alive and healthy. I have lost my faith in God because there is nothing that we did not do, we went from church to church, we gave money to many pastors, we went to see a traditional herbalist, we prayed, we fasted, everyone was praying and yet she still died.

I truly do not know why I am alive anymore, I don't see the point in my life and I feel like if there is a God he hates me - I put on a brave face but everyday I want to cry, I am reminded of what I have lost and the big mess I have made of my life.. every single day.

Please do not judge, just give me advice.

My question. To you is'1. Have you realised your mistakes? 2. Are you ready to rededicate your self back for the greater cause?3. What are the steps you have taken so far in ensuring you reconcile your self back to your creator?.we all have challenges on earth,some self inflicted,others. By accident .but which ever the case might be, we all have opportunities to make good turns and get the roads finer and smoother ahead of us all.we are solely reponsible for how we intend to go about it.we must always acknowledge the fact that there is a supreme being up there who is ever ready to guide us and see us through in case we realize our very many errors and are ready to return to him.

My dear just believe in God, there is nothing God cannot do

You spoke too much negativity into your life and family and people around you and then you turn around and blame God.
Try to be positive henceforth. Look at the bright side of life always. You have too much drama around you.
And please stop this atheist mumbo jumbo. It is getting really stale...people turning atheists because they were disappointed by God. God is bigger than you. He can raise stones to replace you.