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My Suicide Note by Nobody: 9:49pm On Jun 16, 2012
by sept this year,i would be 30years old.i got nothing to show for those 30years of existence on earth.true,i have a Bsc,but of wot use is it if it cant fetch me nothing?i dont have a job at my age,no single investment no NOTHING!
my whole life has been a Lie,a big joke-a sinister joke.people see me on the outside and think i am doing well.when i cry for help,people laugh thinking am only kidding or just complaining unnecesarily-But i do need help!igot my Bsc 8years ago...8years and i have been carrying that crazy document around...now begging for a job.NOMORE-am gonna burn that certificate up just before i do that which am about to do.
how do you think i survived all this while.am i not old enuf to raise a family?am smart and intelligent or am i just so dull i cant get a job?am i the dullest nigerian alive?i think not.
what happened to all my dreams as a child of building my house,driving a fancy car and raising a handsome family?how can i do all of this when i live from hand to mouth?
they say "All men make mistakes but only a great man realises his mistakes and corects it"(or some fancy shyte like that)my whole life is a mistake and am about to correct it...by ending it..am certain about that,what i am undecided yet is the means.
my whole life has been a waste,my mind is so bleeped up i dont even know what shyte is anymore.
they say "suiciders" are cowards,i say they are brave and courageous...the truth is am tired...fed up.infact am done,INFINITO.gud byre crazy world...Bleep you all
KABOOOM
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 10:33pm On Jun 16, 2012
Whats your regular Nairaland ID? Lets start from there. I wanna talk to you, please
Re: My Suicide Note by agabaI23(m): 10:45pm On Jun 16, 2012
Send me an email. Even if I cannot change your mind, I can help you do the thing. Do it fast. I am waiting.
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 11:20pm On Jun 16, 2012
So far you're thinking of committing suicide, that's great... infact, Fantastic... you may just eish to read what i've gotten for you...
incase you wish not to change your mind, please, say me well to my great grannies and... oh... a friend of mine died recently... please, check him out for me... i dunno think he really made it to heaven, the two of you might probably be sharing a flat in hell... dunno forget to pagr me from hell too...

1. your life story is a real nollywood movie, don't you think... make some researches and or search for some contacts... you'll get people willing to buy your story...

2. There are sites that'll pay you for writing articles... you'll make some cool cash..

3. If you dunno mind, you might wish to go i to adult film, it'll pay you bunch...

4. Sell on ebay...
There are people willing to buy that your new Aba made sneakers you bought for 1500 naira at around €50..., you can sell beads too...

5. if you dunno mind relocating, working as a bus driver in another state might help...

6. Fashion designing might be very cool if you can ply your trade where you are not known..

7. and oh... you get money being gay, some spots are open in Abj..

Good Bye guy...
Try printing your Obituary posters now... it migjt encourage some other people to join you...
and oh...
are you poisoning yourself or trying the rope thingy
i'll advise the rope thingy coz of the adventure...
Adieu!!!


If you decide to choose any, just point it out and i'll be more than willing to expansiate and help.

Adieu once again.
Re: My Suicide Note by Seun(m): 11:57pm On Jun 16, 2012
You're suffering from a killer disease known as depression, which makes you feel that your life is full of doom and gloom, but it's a treatable disease. If you can present yourself to a doctor or psychiatrist, they will prescribe a drug that will make you feel better almost instantly. Many people don't have half of what you have, and they don't feel depressed because depression is a disease. It makes you life seem bleak and hopeless, but those feelings are not real. They are just symptoms of the disease called depression

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Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 12:00am On Jun 17, 2012
hi there, please don't! please.
the world is a bleeped up world. i agree.. the fact that you are living a bleeped up life does not mean that you should end it. we are all living a bleeped up life. but please, have faith and have hope. you are still a young guy and things can change for the better. my brother, please have hope.
Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 12:02am On Jun 17, 2012
V_Official®:
So far you're thinking of committing suicide, that's great... infact, Fantastic... you may just eish to read what i've gotten for you...
incase you wish not to change your mind, please, say me well to my great grannies and... oh... a friend of mine died recently... please, check him out for me... i dunno think he really made it to heaven, the two of you might probably be sharing a flat in hell... dunno forget to pagr me from hell too...

1. your life story is a real nollywood movie, don't you think... make some researches and or search for some contacts... you'll get people willing to buy your story...

2. There are sites that'll pay you for writing articles... you'll make some cool cash..

3. If you dunno mind, you might wish to go i to adult film, it'll pay you bunch...

4. Sell on ebay...
There are people willing to buy that your new Aba made sneakers you bought for 1500 naira at around €50..., you can sell beads too...

5. if you dunno mind relocating, working as a bus driver in another state might help...

6. Fashion designing might be very cool if you can ply your trade where you are not known..

7. and oh... you get money being gay, some spots are open in Abj..

Good Bye guy...
Try printing your Obituary posters now... it migjt encourage some other people to join you...
and oh...
are you poisoning yourself or trying the rope thingy
i'll advise the rope thingy coz of the adventure...
Adieu!!!


If you decide to choose any, just point it out and i'll be more than willing to expansiate and help.

Adieu once again.


guy, if u got nothing good to say why not SHUT THE FUC.K UP!!!!!
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 12:19am On Jun 17, 2012
rafhell:


guy, if u got nothing good to say why not SHUT THE FUC.K UP!!!!!

you actually think i'm in support of his disastrous decision??
if you ever get close to the real world, you'll know that (if truely what he wrote is what he feels) you can not change his mind by mere advise (do your research and disprove me), you can either change his mind by saving him while carrying out the act or immediatrly after carrying out the act... you can't talk him out unless he SEEES AND FEELS what he's heading to... you should really learn to use the F-word in public places...

In case you feel like being so loose with your words again, you might want to wish you're in the poster's shoe.

BE REASONABLE, YOUNG MAN... DO YOU THINK BEGGING HIM WILL CAJOLE HIM FROM NOT THINKING ABOUT HIS MISERABLE 30 YEARS IF YOU'VE EVER HAD SOME ENGLISH LESSONS YOU'LL KNOW THAT WHAT I WROTE IS NOT TO YOU OR ANY OTHER READER AT ALL BUT DIRECTLY TO THE POSTER

Get him a good job that pays great now and see if he wont laugh over this thread on monday..

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Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 12:45am On Jun 17, 2012
Seun: You're suffering from a killer disease known as depression, which makes you feel that your life is full of doom and gloom, but it's a treatable disease. If you can present yourself to a doctor or psychiatrist, they will prescribe a drug that will make you feel better almost instantly. Many people don't have half of what you have, and they don't feel depressed because depression is a disease. It makes you life seem bleak and hopeless, but those feelings are not real. They are just symptoms of the disease called depression

Mr. Seun.
You can help this young lost man. He may never open this account again but i'm sure you can know other accounts he has opened from the device he used in opening this. Scan through all his post in case he has put his personal phone number on any. Call him on our behalf and probably give him a temporary job (that spam cleaner job might not be bad). His email might also help.
Thanks.
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 7:15am On Jun 17, 2012
Thats true, Seun. Please 'invade' his privacy lets save a life. Please
Re: My Suicide Note by jaybee3(m): 7:28am On Jun 17, 2012
V_Official®:


Mr. Seun.
You can help this young lost man. He may never open this account again but i'm sure you can know other accounts he has opened from the device he used in opening this. Scan through all his post in case he has put his personal phone number on any. Call him on our behalf and probably give him a temporary job (that spam cleaner job might not be bad). His email might also help.
Thanks.
Makes sense to investigate further if indeed he does have another Id on nairaland. He needs serious help and giving him a temporary/permanent job ain't necessarily going to solve his problems.
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 8:57am On Jun 17, 2012
Ofcourse he has another ID. I doubt he'd have registered solely to pass this 'note'
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 9:02am On Jun 17, 2012
i just hope it's not too late sad
Re: My Suicide Note by jaybee3(m): 9:08am On Jun 17, 2012
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 9:46am On Jun 17, 2012
Please, nobody should spoil my day o.
@Seun, please if you can, track him.
This has already started affecting me badly
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 9:54am On Jun 17, 2012
Odunnu: Please, nobody should spoil my day o.
@Seun, please if you can, track him.
This has already started affecting me badly

Dunno let this affect you dear.... just tryna help everybody you meet out there (only when u're opportuned). Life is unfair, we should just hope we are found in the fairer side of life when adversities come...
Get some wine (apple juice also sounds good) and tune in to your favorite channel, slot in your fav. dvd or pick up your fav. novel... This life doesnt worth killing ourselves on, we help when we are opportuned... it's not like you have any power to change this...
A short prayer might also help if you believe in it sha..
Take care.
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 9:58am On Jun 17, 2012
Thank you and yes I have prayed but there's still a nagging fear.
I wish I could do more.
Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 10:03am On Jun 17, 2012
@poster, i feel you man, i feel you.
Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 1:08pm On Jun 17, 2012
Poster if you are still alive and you are for real, paste your email here. Help is around the corner
Re: My Suicide Note by violent(m): 3:45pm On Jun 17, 2012
@OP.

If you are reading this, then it may be the case that you are having several thoughts racing through your mind and voices arguing in your head. I'd implore you to listen to that voice that is telling you why this is a stupid idea and how there's still so much hope for the future.

Here's what will happen once you commit suicide:

Your parents lives will be changed forever. Their world will become empty. They will wonder why you've brought them so much pain by taking your own life. They will be so angry that you gave up on yourself and on life. You'd take their hopes, dreams, and happiness with you once you are gone. Their eyes will remain wide open, they may never find sleep again. Your memories will haunt them forever, they will wonder why you were so cruel to them.

Your siblings, if you have any will have their days filled with looms of shadows. Life for them will never remain the same. They will cry their eyes to sleep and mutter your name from their sleep. They will wonder why you chose the easy cowardly way out even though life is tough on everyone. Memories of the places you've been to together will haunt them, memories of your growing up together will haunt them!!


Here's what could happen if you change your mind now:

You could find a good Job tomorrow!...that may sound a little too optimistic considering the fact that you've been looking for one for over 8 years. But seriously, why give up after fighting for 8 years? doesn't seem very reasonable to me!...why work hard all your life, only to give up now simply because you are turning 30?

What you must realize is that you aren't in this alone. I know folks in their early 30s who are scrubbing toilets in the UK even after paying so much for their MBAs. These folks spend half of their earnings paying rent and the other half on feeding and transportation. Life is probably easier on you than it is on them. But they are not giving up their hustle!

I'd encourage you to open another thread, probably with a new username and ask for help with Jobs. Their are over 500,000 real and active users on Nairaland, and their are good chances that someone may know of a Job opening for you.

Suicide never works!...a fighting spirit is always worth it in the end!

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Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 4:14pm On Jun 17, 2012
I love you Vee!
Re: My Suicide Note by agabaI23(m): 5:06pm On Jun 17, 2012
Beautiful Violent. OP I am still waiting for your email.
Re: My Suicide Note by Sanjanets(f): 9:11pm On Jun 17, 2012
Seun: You're suffering from a killer disease known as depression, which makes you feel that your life is full of doom and gloom, but it's a treatable disease. If you can present yourself to a doctor or psychiatrist, they will prescribe a drug that will make you feel better almost instantly. Many people don't have half of what you have, and they don't feel depressed because depression is a disease. It makes you life seem bleak and hopeless, but those feelings are not real. They are just symptoms of the disease called depression
Can drugs cure depression? If yes,pls tell me d name & where to buy it.Pls,send to sanjanets@yahoo.com.Tanx in anticipation!
Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 9:27pm On Jun 17, 2012
hi guys thanks alot for the kind words most especially to odunnu-jeez,i dint know anyone cared so much about somone they have neva met..thanks alot God would bless you so much.your evry day would be crowned with success for you kind heart.thanks also to violent,i find your words quite encouraging..God would reward your every effort..agaba thanks also to you.
i feel beta just knowing somone out there cares...thanks agn odunnu
later folks i got a life to live.... cool

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Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 10:08pm On Jun 17, 2012
I am happy you realise theres a life to live.
What state do you live in? What is your specialisation. Somebody, a NLdr may be able to fix you up somewhere. Be strong, Okay?
Re: My Suicide Note by violent(m): 10:20pm On Jun 17, 2012
iroko23: hi guys thanks alot for the kind words most especially to odunnu-jeez,i dint know anyone cared so much about somone they have neva met..thanks alot God would bless you so much.your evry day would be crowned with success for you kind heart.thanks also to violent,i find your words quite encouraging..God would reward your every effort..agaba thanks also to you.
i feel beta just knowing somone out there cares...thanks agn odunnu
later folks i got a life to live.... cool


Good to know you are finding enough strength within you. Give me a shout through email. I can't promise you a Job, but i can listen to your stories and I can show you from my own experience that life takes a shot at everyone most of the time. You should also seriously consider opening a thread and asking members to link you up with Job offers, i have seen it work here two or three times already!...Your's could be the fourth and you've got nothing to lose by trying!


Odunnu: I love you Vee!

phew!! God knows how long I've been waiting to hear this!
Re: My Suicide Note by Nobody: 10:48pm On Jun 17, 2012
thanks
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 11:24pm On Jun 17, 2012
Sanjanets: Can drugs cure depression? If yes,pls tell me d name & where to buy it.Pls,send to sanjanets@yahoo.com.Tanx in anticipation!
I am not Seun but i can help...
You must first know the category you fall into:

1. Tricyclic antidepressants (TCAs) are some of the first antidepressants used to treat depression. They primarily affect the levels of two chemical messengers (neurotransmitters), norepinephrine and serotonin, in the brain. Although these drugs are effective in treating depression, they have more side effects, so they usually aren't the first drugs used. e.g Anafranil, Adapin, Aventyl, Elavil, Endep and Norpramin
Down side:
Dry mouth, blurred vision, increased fatigue and sleepiness, weight gain, muscle twitching (tremors), constipation, bladder problems such as urine retention, dizziness, daytime drowsiness, increased heart rate, sexual problems.

2. Monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs) are another early form of antidepressant. These drugs are most effective in people with depression who do not respond to other treatments. Substances in certain foods, like cheese, beverages like wine, and medications can interact with an MAOI, so these people taking this medication must adhere to strict dietary restrictions. For this reason these antidepressants also aren't usually the first drugs used e.g Emsam, Eldepryl, Nardil, Marplan, Parnate and Zelapa.
Down Side:

3. Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) are a newer form of antidepressant. These drugs work by altering the amount of a chemical in the brain called serotonin e.g. Celexa, Lexapro, Luvox, Paxil, Pexeva, Prozac, Sarafem and Zoloft
Down Side:
Must avoid certain foods and medications to avoid dangerous interactions* Serious side effects may include: headache, heart racing, chest pain, neck stiffness, nausea and vomiting. If you experience any of these symptoms, seek medical care immediately.

4. Serotonin and norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) are another newer form of antidepressant medicine. They treat depression by increasing availability of the brain chemicals serotonin and norepinephrine.
I don't have examples for this...

After knowing where you belong, you can get a list and start checking phamarcy stores around you.
Hope it's useful?
Re: My Suicide Note by Odunnu: 8:37am On Jun 18, 2012
Those drugs are not supposed to be sold over the counter. Go get a prescription and dont kill yourself.
@Violent: ko serious. Lol
Re: My Suicide Note by VOfficialR(m): 10:02am On Jun 18, 2012
Odunnu: Those drugs are not supposed to be sold over the counter. Go get a prescription and dont kill yourself.
u meet a pharmacist in a pharmacy store. I dunno how it is around here buh all you need is a certified physician.
Re: My Suicide Note by agabaI23(m): 11:20am On Jun 18, 2012
iroko23: hi guys thanks alot for the kind words most especially to odunnu-jeez,i dint know anyone cared so much about somone they have neva met..thanks alot God would bless you so much.your evry day would be crowned with success for you kind heart.thanks also to violent,i find your words quite encouraging..God would reward your every effort..agaba thanks also to you.
i feel beta just knowing somone out there cares...thanks agn odunnu
later folks i got a life to live.... cool

That's so sweet to hear. I am glad you changed your mind. You have everything to live for. You can still email me all the same
Re: My Suicide Note by Michky: 12:24pm On Jun 18, 2012
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