Things In My Life

04 May 2006 19:16:51 +0100

today i am starting this journal to talk about things happening in my life.
this is just the first page so like i am going to introduce myself.
I am just a girl trying to make it in this world and struggling to be happy, i like making friends and i like adventure.so i will be talking more about my escapadesand the things i am about,

things in my life that can be confusing

05 May 2006 19:36:44 +0100

when i woke up today i thot it was going to be one of those days when i will get lonely again then i will start thinking about my lost love but guess what i got adventurous today
Ask what i did?Don't worry i will confess.
You see natural i have a boyfriend and we have bin in a relationship for 5 years now but really i just remembered one of my friends that i had to talk to about something. I called him(which i haven't done before) and i fell in love instantly on the phone. i remembered the sound of his voice and his looks, his approach to things and the way he is generally,then i had to think twice that am i doing the right thing
[font=Lucida Sans Unicode][/font]this is quite danagerous because i am already engaged to this first guy and i am thinking seriously about someone i haven't in years, he melted myheart and i felt i have bin alone. i felt i needed him more than ever.i had to confess to him that i feel some thing for him.I didn't mean to say it,it just came out like that and guess what he has bin feeling the same way and couldn't tell me that is why he calls evry now and then.
i asked him what we were going to do about it and he said,we will work things out.
he has called me three times today already and i feel like i am betraying someones love.

Dear journal i can't help this feeling, i can't help not talking to this guy again, its not that he is rich or because he is a uk citizen NO??? i am just lost at this point.i think i love him
REALLY I KNOW SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

it is getting dangerous,help

15 May 2006 18:17:23 +0100

this is getting dangerous and delirious.HELP me
i have not bin here for some time because i had to think seriously about things,MY LOVE LIFE and i ask myself WHY IS THIS HAPPENING NOW?
In the past few weeks i have cried,wept and moody.my work is not going the way it is purpose to be. i drag everything like a snail and every other thing seem unintresting. i just need to see this guy and talk to him, ask him if he is serious about this.But he is the uk and i am here in nigeria.he said it to the extent that he is willing to go all the way that he is willing to fight with his last .

"i will fight will my last breath,look i love u alot and i wouldn't allow you to get into problem with this.What about u coming down to the uk with me?This is between us vickky,"

this were his words.What am i going to do?

I AM AT IT AGAIN

12 Jun 2006 14:47:00 +0100

Here am i again with the love affair problem i have got myself into. For all the times i have not bin here i have bin talking with this guy and we agreed to see and talk seriously. he still stands on the ground that i am not going to get into problem about this but i think otherwise because when it comes to love u can go crazy and care less about other things some times, but then i have to use my senses be alert DON'T LOVE WITH UR HEAART UNDER UR FEET LOVE WITH UR HEAD.
but guess what he is back and i have bin avoiding him because i am afraid of what i will say or do,he called me all day yesterday and i didn't recieve most of his calls. WHY WHY WHY vickky are u doing this to yourself?

WAitin, got to go i have to see to and emergency call , WILL GIST YOU ABOUT IT LATER,