A New Day

We chatted late last night till about 3am this morning. I had to log off because I was sure he wanted to go to bed. I then called him and he said he wanted to carry on the chat, but I told him we should continue this morning. This morning, I woke up with a warm glow and I sent him a text. He sent me a very sweet reply. I felt so good. I am feeling good about myself for the first time in a long time. I've only known this guy for about a week and we just got on like a house on fire. We've exchanged pictures and I can tell he's sincere. And he's really really good looking to boot. Not my usual type because he's tall, dark and handsome, boyish looking, really fresh faced. I'd always gone for the rugged type, but I said to myself, what the heck, I'll take my chances. After reading T.D Jakes new book Reposition Yourself, I just felt it was time to move on after the D.

Meanwhile, he( ex) sent me a Christmas greeting. I was so surprised I didn't even miss him. My family was very worried about me over the holidays. I could see all the looks in their eyes, especially when they went out without me on Tuesday. My sis even called to find out how I was doing. I was in a dream world with this guy. And then my brother in law too, who normally is so taciturn, asked if I was ok. I was just smiling to myself. If only they knew what was going on inside me.

Bobbie came on Tuesday night. We went out for a drink. But I felt less enthusiastic about him because of his marital status. He wanted me to pass the night with him and I politely turned him down. I sent him some texts yesterday to tell him I wanted him to leave me to try and find real love with someone else; he's in the way. I didn't  expect to see him again this year, though, because I knew he would be busy with his lady. He wants to have his cake and eat it. I just have to have a firm resolve and stop seeing him. No matter how many times I say no, he just turns up at the door now and then. I like him, but he's taken. I will not compromise my standards.

New love, what a wonderful feeling to just be in that position to experience new things again and to move on.