Starting Over

Nairaland is major part of life right now, so it’s only fitting that I do this here.

New beginnings are very hard; they are exciting and full of possibilities and yet daunting and full of uncertainty. For the first time in over 12weeks I woke feeling like I could face the world and I did. I have taken solid steps (some of them pretty wobbly) towards my decision and it feels good. I still catch myself trembling now and again but I soon warm up and I can smile in anticipation. The week ahead is a major determinant in shaping the rest of my life, in my relationships, my family and my career. I have set myself a challenge and for the first time in so long I feel like I can.
My heart still aches at ruined relationships, I like to hope they can be saved but that’s all I can do at the moment.  I’m in not yet able to rebuild the bridges, I really want to but I have to be patient. Doesn’t stop it from hurting