Cyber Sex/Relationships

Wow, where do I start from. While chatting with a friend and telling him about all my online suitors, he suggested that I start a journal. He compared what was happening, to moths and light. He talked about how moths see light and they automatically fly closer and closer, until they get burnt and die. Not that, that is what I am doing, but oh well, it sometimes happen like that.

Welcome to My Journal. I will try and update it daily or thrice in a week. The only place I'll be when I come here is this journal. I'll probably not post anywhere else. If after reading you feel like dropping a line or two, you can always mail me. My email will be on my profile.

Happy reading. Believe me, some days you'll feel like killling me, some days, you'll think it is you writing and other days you'll just be cracking up big time.

Life is fun!

Did not go to bed until around 4am. Was working on something for Nigeria Moth 1 aka NM1. He is a very intelligent, bright guy. Quite smart for his age. He had not seen me online for a couple of days and was wondering what was going on. We definitely click on a alot of things. He is married though, so I really can't say he is one of the online suitors. Got two lovely kids. But we kick it really good.

I remember when he first told me he was married. I immediately took down my picture on my display. He was wondering why, and I told him, that I don't want some Nigerian woman, taking my picture to some babalawo. He just cracked up big time. Yes o, I gats to watch out for jealous wives. I ain't about to die.

NM1 is acting funny. I reside alone so I walk around my house in my birthday suit. Told him this much and he just can't get over it. Anyway, last night, we were chatting and actually discussing something important, he then asked for my webcam. Told him, I was in my usual state and he insisted on putting it on. I repeatedly said no to his request, which he kept on asking anyway. I was just been lazy to go get a top or something. After much persuasion, I stood up to get my wrapper, like those mushin women, and put the cam on for him. Then, he was wondering why I was wrapped up. I was like, hello man, you are married. Even if you are not, I'll not be showing you my statistics online. Long story short, I had to threaten him, before he let go. Hmmm, Nigerian Men.

I really think I will start charging. Was just counting my online suitors and I found out I have about ten now. Wow, seems to increase every passing day. I am sure at the end of the day, I can only marry one. May the best man win!

Back to the main topic, phone sex. What is with men? Can't they just go jack off on some porn or something? Actually, half of the time, I am working around doing something else and they assume I am touching myself, yeah right.

Oh well, some of them happen to be really good, know the right things to say, how to say it, when to say it. Some you can just sum them up, that when back hit bed, they got nothing to offer. I am a sexual being, so if you don't match up, I will most def. kick you aside.

A lot has happened between the last time I posted and today. I will find time to update.

Happy reading!

Nigeria/US Moth 1. Married guy. A very good friend. Gives sound and good advices. Smart, wow, seems I really have a lot of smart people around me.

Why won't you let me be?
Why do you keep coming after me?
Why are you mad, when I don't miss you?
Why do you always want to know how I feel about you?
Why can't you just see that, this is not going to go the way you want it to?
Why do you find it difficult to stay with the choice you made? The last time I checked, no one pointed a gun at your head to marry her.
Why can't you just believe it, that you are not the best thing to happen to me?
Why, why, why?
Why do you have to ruin this perfect friendship by having an affair?

Life, I believe it is what you make it to be, that it will be. I am in a position right now that I don't like, but I will have to deal with it and solve the problems along the way.

Why do people jump into conclusions? Why don't they think before they talk or act? Why must it always be someone else's fault? Why can't people just take responsible for their actions?

Oh well, I guess, most people don't know that they have the right to choose and decide how they want and intend to live their lifes.

Got two stories to tell and I sure will find time to complete both of them. Been a little busy of late, but I will find time to complete them.

Story one:
I love to chat. I guess that is one reason why I have a lot of online suitors and relationships. I don't have any problem with online dating or relationships. As a matter fact, I have dated two guys and even met them. Both actually turned out great.
Met America Moth 1 aka AM1 in a chat room. We actually did not talk to each other for a long time. He had been coming to the room for quite a while, but I paid him no attention. I just did not like him for some odd reason. I was always in the chat room with my friends. Ok, not like my friends that I have known for ever, but friends I met in the chat room as well. One of the friends, I actually met with her twice. She is alright, but not really a true friend. I guess, if I was picking a friend, I might not pick her. She is cool and crazy, but I just don't feel relax around her, like my other friends. This friend, we'll call, Variable. The other friend I met in this same chat room, we'll call Unstable. Unstable and myself, became good friends so easily. I am a couple of years older than her, so I gave her advices and all. She is smart, intelligent and funny. We could just sit in the chat room and crack people up. I most definitely like people with a good sense of humor. We became so close, after chatting for like a day or two, we exchanged numbers and started talking on the phone. I was even willing to help her out, because she was in need of things. I was willing to have her move into my house and help her with her education and life. She has a son. Very cute son if I might add. In short, myself and Unstable, started calling ourselves, BFF, best friend forever.

After like two weeks of constant chatting and talking with Unstable, she started telling me about AM1. She would go on and on and on and on. I did not discourage her, but I let her know that I just did not like him. He sounded like a player to me. He told her how he had dated several girls from different places, how girls just love him and blah blah blah. From what Unstable told me, I could deduce, he liked talking about himself and how much girls just fall over themselves to be with him. He sounded for a minute, a collector of girls.

One day, I can't really remember what happened, Unstable told me to call him on her behalf. Now, I really wish I remember why she did. Anyway, I called him and we talked for a while. Hmmm, maybe I should rewind. In the chat room, myself and AM1 started talking on the Private Message box. Just regular talks, nothing much. Though, I did not tell Unstable, because really, there was nothing to it. Hmmm, wait a minute. I think I have it back ward. I think we started chatting on the PM after I made that call for Unstable. Oh well, I can't remember now. It's been a while. Almost a year sef. Can't believe it, time does run fast nowadays. Anyho, AM1 and myself started chatting and talking. When Unstable, start to tell me what transpired between herself and AM1, I just sit and listen. Now, I really don't say much anymore, because, it sounded like a replay to me. I was getting the gist from both of them.

AM1 did the same with me. The first night we talked, he told me all about his girls and blah blah blah. I think, I remember asking him, why he is telling me all that. Like I care, if you have been with all the races in the world. Wetin concern me with all that jibberish. If I start to talk about all the guys I have been with, I am sure he would have ran. Don't know what the talk is supposed to do to me. Anyway, I let him talk about his girls, since I reckon he liked doing that. We probably had our first phone sex the first time we spoke, or maybe not. No, we did not. I think it was the next week, after we had been talking frequently. All these, if I might add, Unstable did not know about. For some reason, AM1 did not want to tell her. Me, I was fine with her knowing. It was not like I was taking him from her. Afterall, we were all online friends, nothing to it. If only I knew,  Story continues later.

The second visit story will have to wait.

London Moth 3, LM3 is getting on my nerves. I blocked him for some time, but he did register with another id and was online with me. I don't get it, when people just don't get it. I said it in plain words, I don't want to talk to you for a while. Ok, maybe not so plain words, because I hate hurting people, but I said it clear enough for him to get it. I guess, I'll keep telling him I am sleepy and I have a headache and I am tired over and over, maybe he'll get the picture. There is no way in hell, I will get with him. Not in this life time or the next.

Though, cybersex with him is always good. He just know how to say the right things and at the right time, but I can't keep encouraging him. He is not one of the ones to be considered for the position sef.

Wow, it has been a minute since I have been here. Lots has happened, a lot is still happening and much more will happen sef.

Might be getting married. No, not to a moth. Do I really want to get married? I know a lot of moths that don't want me to get married.

Flying to meet a moth in about 10 days. Kinda excited in the beginning. Not so anymore.