Love Letters And Expired Condoms [unedited] (18)

I fall asleep, awakened by my dad prodding me in my side telling me to get up "oh why!" I open my eyes "If you went to your bed at night then you wouldn’t feel so bad waking up get up!" I get up and walk down stairs do the daily routine jump in the shower, brush my teeth, do my hair, put on my uniform and collect my lunch money from dad. I leave the house zombiefied meeting up with my friends at the bus stop"wha gwan girls" not a word is said about the night I’ve had,  I never ever told anyone was my secret.

Leaving the house in uniform only to attend during registration, Natalie and me running out the school gates to any unknown destination, jumping on the train getting off at any station that looked good, "ok you go through with that man" we learnt new skills to bypass the underground with no ticket, slide through barriers, hide in the toilets, u name it.
The notorious estates where waste men stood drinking, gambling and smoking "oi come here" they looked at our young ripe bodies with lust in there eyes,  whole  three months, only to attend registration, trains rides, running from lustful men, all ended with a few phone calls to our parents to disclosing our silly miss doings.


The routine of sneaking out after my parents were sleeping was becoming a regular thing, catching up on sleep in class was also becoming regular. Texting Deneal arranging what time we would meet that night. My reply “babes wear the thongs I like the black ones" I smile and carry on talking to my girlfriend sitting beside me in math’s class. We meet everyday apart from the odd Saturdays and Friday nights for 6 months. I want to get married have kids already, AND THEN!, unanswered calls, Voicemail constantly, no reply to my texts, nothing "what the mess!" what was going on, the rumors started as they always do” you know Deneal and Kaysha are fucking init" "Yes I heard she gives him head" jealously from girls is so appalling, dumb and stupid. I was used to it anyway in a girl’s school that’s all we knew as if we had lessons in that subject. Bitch! mess GCSE in math’s and science, GCSE bitching A* GCSE fucking up another girls life A* GSCE chatting shit AAA****. We linked now and then but wasn’t like before, I suspected there was other girls, in fact I knew!, there was no foreplay anymore, we used to just get straight into the making love, making love wasn’t even in the equation anymore in fact, we fucked! Not that I was complaining,

Love letters, expired condoms and bad spelling was the next reason for this mad sick crazy love affair if I can call it that. Craig 18, American, 5’7 dark skin, short hair pinkish full lips, athletic body.

The letter wrote "Oh Craig, I love the way you lick your lips, I masturbate every night thinking of you. From_________. Xxx" we posted it not even contemplating whose hands it may fall into. Never anticipated what would happen after that. The buffest set of men on the block Lawrence (hmmmm) 16, Tyrone 18, Craig 18(nickname cherry lips) Miles 17, Wayne 18 and Troy 19. I lived on a road where everyone passed in order to get to there house, I loved it! So much happened, saw everyone. Sitting out the front after school after just changing out of uniform he walked by "oh yea so you wrote that letter?” "what letter" I replied "that mad letter with all the bad spelling and the fucking expired condom” he laughed as he spoke and I began to laugh, tears ran down my face as I laughed "your a joker" we spoke after that I had the biggest crush on him. . . .  .started to speak to a few of the boys, It felt so good talking to boys, like a nerd being accepted into the popular group at school, everyone knew them, plus they was older. They wouldn’t act dumb, plus they are boys they don’t chat shit. That’s girl stuff!


Wow so I thought! Stupid rumor went round bout Craig “yea and I heard that Craig went down on that nasty girl that lives in your estate" Craig came to me "what the mess! why u chatting my name" I was shocked "what you talking about!" he pushed me, I pushed him back, he hit me again and we began to scuffle,  he walked off  angry calling me names, we didn’t speak again for a month, as I sat outside my house he passed "what u saying Lou" he said" what u saying Craig u cool babe" I said kind of shocked he spoke to me an opposite sex thing I guess they don’t hold the grudge for years like us girls. He came and sat next me on the door step, started to look at me funny, started touching my thigh, "Craig what u doing" he shushed me "you know I like u init Kaysha?" I was in love, the boy I have had a crush on for the past couple months, I had liked this boy for so long and now all of a sudden he was looking at me in another light, "can we link" he said looking into my eyes "well boy I don’t no you know because where we going to go and what time"


I know I had a certain time to be in the house by, where was I going! I was never aloud no where after a certain time "ill come to your house tonight you can sneak me in init" wow sneak him in?, Sneaking out was mad enough but sneak a boy in, I mean suppose mum or dad woke and saw him there that would be lashes for everyone "kaysha come on! After you was chatting shit about me! The least you can do is make it up for it else" I felt threatened but at the same time my feelings for him made me go ahead,  "ok come at mine around 1" (damn hormones) he came that night, he sneaked out of his house, came to mine, I made him climb up onto the garage and through my bedroom window, we kissed and he laid me on the bed, he took off my night dress, sucked my nipples softly, ringing his tongue round the nipple and slid his privates inside me (no condom, damn hormones) we made love all night and he left the way he came from. I was in love, this went on continuously for a year. He was my man in my eyes, know one knew apart from us, he told me not to tell anyone, not even to say anything when I see him, a slight nod of the head as he passed me on the street when he was with his boys, I hated it, was I not good enough for anyone to know me and him was seeing each other? He made me feel so wasted,  but as soon as he came through that window and entered me it was all forgotten,