How Do U Feel Collecting Borrowed Money From Your Bf/gf

Hello house, i was just wondering how one feels when u lend money to your boyfriend or girlfriend. I know is okey, but am wondering do u collect d money back from he or she when it is needed back. For me, i find it difficult collecting borrowed money from my girlfriend, i just let her have it out of love, i feel awkward whenever she returns money to me, she even complains at times dat she is scared of collecting money from me under the pretence of borrowing cos i always refuse collecting it back.

She is playing you like an out of tune guitar - at least she is honest about it (collecting, but pretending to borrow), and u also know it, as your own words suggest