Your Thoughts ,my Thoughts,our Thoughts.

Nice. I wish it was longer - ended too soon. If you were a writer, I would like to read your book .

@ maedan; Thanks,U think it's 2 short? It was actually far longer but I thought it was 2 long,so dis is d abridged version.If I ever get 2 writing a book,I'll definitely come looking 4 u.


@ Chiogo: Thanks 2,think,think. . . I'd like 2 read your thoughts.Wat re U doin so far from d rap/games section?

i don't be on?  see has hrap has corruphted hah brain
ghetto fab

LOL see this loser. I wrote it on purpose for people like you and you fell into the trap.
It's nairaland duh. who am I trying to impress? lmfao.

@Raven, iight. . .I'll do that later. LOL @ big bad world.

LOL abeg share your thoughts.

Okk, lemme share mine. It's similar to yours, Raven. lol

Growing up, I was always the 'smart child'. I used to read a lot, I read a couple James Hadley Chase and Sidney Sheldon even before I turned 10. My parents would always tell me, "those books are not for your age" and tell me to put them away. I would but later go back to them. Yeah, stubbornness was one of my traits, still is. My parents have always been proud of me likewise my older siblings, I remember my dad bought me a writing board when I was little and I would sit on his lap, write and read out loud. It's funny how things change 'cause now I get so occupied with stuff that I don't even read as much. Not to mention sitting on my father's lap, he's lucky if I even give him a hug,  I'm now a 'big girl'. Ok, I'm not but I've gone through a lot of changes. I remember when I was 6 or 7 and my crew(3 girls) would be mad at me for some reason and when it was time for a quiz, they would all wanna peep my answers, I remember making them all kiss my ass, not literally of course. I would say, "say you're sorry" and they would and I'll be like, "I didn't hear that, say it again'. Gosh, was I a bully!

I've always been a shy person for some reason but not quiet. Don't confuse the two. Like my calculus teacher put it, I don't talk much but when I do "I say a lot" Now that's true. Moving here made me realize being smart is not all that matters. I mean I was never a geek or nerd(except big-time nerds like C2 say so), I had lots of friends growing up. I was always popular among the males and females in every school I went to for some reason, even schools I only spent a year in. I had crushes like every normal girl but naija parents want to believe you've never so that's what you make them believe. Anywayz, I moved here with my stubborn self and figured, "Ah this is a piece of cake". Not. high school here is like a movie lol drama everywhere but as a correct naija chick, I don't get bullied. Ignorance abound ranging from people asking you if there are cities in "Africa", which is supposedly a country to people asking if we watch TV to if we speak english. hello!!!  I kinda isolated myself till Sophomore year did I start being a bit more acceptable of these people "who did not acknowledge my beautiful country for what it was". I realized that many things we hold dear to our hearts mean little to some people. I didn't necessarily have to try to prove myself to anyone. I came to an epiphany of how much self-confidence matters not just being smart. And also how pertinent it is to be street smart such as knowing wrong from right and making your own decisions, which are right. I stopped judging people so harshly and started making friends, though wary of some. My mom would say, "show me your friends, why don't you invite them?" I looked at her like, "ok, if I invite them and one of 'em starts puffing some joint, don't be mad" I worked hard in school like I've always done and sooner than later I was getting comments like, "Nigerians are very smart, I wish I was a genius like you". Emphasis on 'Nigerians'. *wink wink*.

Junior year of high school came and I figured, "Hmm, I'm almost done with these people even though I've come to like some of them". I was still in full gear, not much competition as far as I was aware of then. But competition was around the corner, I just didn't see it yet. As the end of junior year approached, I started hearing all this talk about Valedictorian. I knew what it meant but I never really worried about it. But hey, I should. For crying out loud the valedictorian is the #1 ranked student graduating from a high school, s(he) gets to make a speech. People began to speculate on whether I would be the valedictorian or another girl S******* who I had just begun to be friends with. They left it at the fact that either one of us was going to be either the valedictorian or the salutatorian. Eww, I thought. I ain't tryna be no salutatorian(in my ghetto tongue)  One day the issue came up again in the cafeteria and this girl said to me, "the white girl is going to be the valedictorian duh, you ain't no valedictorian". By the way S********* is actually hispanic/latina but looks more white/pale like most people from PR look. I replied the girl, "too bad 'cause I'm already the valedictorian". Was that over-confidence or what? meanwhile, I wasn't sure of my statement but I was sure of what to do. I knew I couldn't start slacking since it's senior year like I previously envisioned. I always knew I did better than S******** in Calculus and we do about the same in other classes. That was a little plus for me. 

Long story short, my thought now is the way the girl who made the comment in the cafeteria was staring at me as I gave my speech on the D-day and the way everyone was chanting my name as I received my diploma. I so had my few minutes of fame. And yeah, I'm trying to read more now. Currently reading Dean Koontz' The Good guy. As for college preparation, I'd be back to give the current gists on that. And of course I missed some other fun moments in high school, will relay them soon as well. Oh yeah, how I got into rap 

what a little Puke.  when did you start writing

Thanks for loving my 'essay'.
Haha, this is his first book I'm reading, heard about him a lot though. who's the author of The lonely guy?

@ Chi: Don't mind me O,d guy's pretty good O,just not a fan of his. The Lonely guy's very old,1984 or so,written by Bruce Jay Friedman,it's a satire on how 2 be d perfect lonely guy.Hope I don't turn out like dat.



@ Aslan:Guess most of us went thru d 'special' stage huh?



Now d next of my thoughts I'm about 2 write down should actually be titled my feelings,cos it's more of how I feel.Wrote it on Sunday,in church if U can imagine.I think I'm goin thru a religious crisis right now,my pastor tells me d world is black n white;Us and dem,but I see a lot of grey in between. . .wonder if I'm alone on dis.



The Thoughts of A Reformed Reprobate: How I feel



Tried to kick a gospel verse 2day but it fell flat
And if u'd asked me aforehand I'da predicted that
Cos from the abundance of my heart does my mouth speak
I can't preach salvation when of sin my soul reeks
When I don't have peace how can I be giving it
Can't be professing d God-life since I ain't living it
Atimes I'v wondered if dis salvation truly exists
Cos I'v taken it's drugs but still these symptoms persist;
The sin-loving,the mean mugging,the God-wronging
I'm in church but for d world I'm still longing
Sometimes I cry for forgiveness,sometimes I don't want it
Wrote a prayer of repentance,changed my mind and burnt it
But now I'm back here,down on my knees once again
Tryna see God's light thru d darkness and d d pain
A sick man in need of some spiritual therapy;
A heavenly compass 2 show me just where I be,


Sorry,4got 2 add dat it's not in prose form.Hope y'all still get d gist sha .

@Raven, I got the gist oo. Me sef, I'm going through a religious or should I call it a spiritual crisis.

LOL you speak your mind. But ehn charity begins at home. 

Which reminds me of my argument with an 'ignoramus' here on nairaland. These are my thoughts on poverty/lack of a privileged life vs opulence in Nigeria:

  I feel that many poor people especially Nigerians tend to resent the rich, even those who acquired theirs in a legal manner. Granted, one should be frustrated with the financial state of things in Nigeria. This state can be mostly attributed to the corrupt government. Kidnapping seems to be the status quo now. Like I'll always say, "show me one affluent Nigerian and I'll show you a thousand poor relatives of that person". Is it now fair for hard workers such as lawyers, doctors, engineers, pilots, etc to be victims of kidnap and extortion due to the fact that they were fortunate?". Fine. many people work hard but not everyone is lucky enough to make it in Nigeria. Take the Pete Edochie kidnap case into consideration. Yes, he paid them #10m but that still doesn't solve the problem. That money cannot save all the under-privileged in Nigeria.
   Before the less fortunate are quick to castigate the rich as 'selfish and greedy', also remember that the rich also have poor family members. It's not rocket science. And yes, charity does begin at home. If you're going to kidnap, do focus on the politicians especially the ones extorting the country's economy. It might sound funny that I'm encouraging kidnapping but limiting it to politicians. Yes, since the world we live in leaves us with very few choices, you might as well carry out necessary actions with the actual perpetrators in mind not just any well-to-do person. Pheww, I can't put this in a more concise manner for folks to understand. It really bothers me because I do have family back in Nigeria and anybody who knows my family history would know how hard my family has worked from the beginning of time. Now, I do have wealthy family back home who literally worked their butt off to get to the stage they're currently in, should my little cousins now be kidnapped because their father is wealthy? I don't think so. That leaves people with no option other than to move their families abroad and contrary to popular belief, life abroad is not the best. In a twinkling of an eye, Nigeria would constitute of foreigners rather than its indigenous people. I want to be a hero for my country but I'm nothing but a teenager. Time would tell.

LOL you're not serious, he's not even in naija now so too bad. what does LIMM stand for? 

I thought this thread was dead 'cause nobody was sharing. I'll be back with more thoughts. 

Hehe, Evolution. . .Well, I do believe in the whole fossil thing in Gibraltar but I'm also very religious, sometimes  I don't think things just came into place outta absolutely nowhere. umm, kinda doesn't make sense so yeah, I don't believe the big bang theory.

Aww, how cute!!!  I wish my brother would bake me a cake. LIMM.

The packing is going good, I guess. Could be confusing too, not knowing what you really need. I feel like taking everything I have at home with me. haha.
deviant tendencies? I dunno about that 

He didn't run oo, he's on vaca. . .

what's a gap year?  forgive my ignorance.

Oh yeah, definitely no gap year. I need to get medicine over and done with as soon as possible and do other things. lol

And I don't know how the prom thing goes in naija but over here, it's done before graduation for the most part. Mine was in May.

Teenage drinking? Well as a young person I'm nt averse 2 teenage drinking,I personally took my 1st beer at d age of 11 n slept thru dt day n d next.Most teens start drinking nt cos dey rily like it but cos dey dn't wanna be seen as being uncool,no thanks 2 all d pressure we get frm TV.D only problem with it is dat most tyms dey get carried away with d drinkin n don't stop til dey get wasted,n it's situations lyk dese dt make parents freak out.As a Dad I wouldn't lyk 2 see my son or daughter plasterd out on d floor,puke next 2 his head,nd 2 forestall dis I'd ban'em frm drinkin at all. I think it's all a question of trust in your kid's self control sha. Wasap,U n your parents havin shakking restriction prblms?

your college's known as a party school? Hmm. .  .nice,what's d name? I took my 1st beer at 11 cos I went 2 a federal skool,was a boarder,n had dis really bad guy as a schoolfather,so it's really nt my fault. I'm nt dt big a fan of alcohol either,but I'v bin known 2 go on drinkin binges 2 celebr8 stuff,my bad.I'l be back very soon with sum of my thoughts,lemme see if I can marshal'em first.

LOL say no to spamming.

Umm, it's a state school(University of Massachusetts, amherst) dunno if you're familiar with it. But do you know what binging does to you??  I'm so serious, ya better quit it. I do drink wine - sparkling cider mostly, bailey's (yummy) to celebrate stuff too. My mom even let me drink some nasty red wine on my graduation. eww. I forgot the name lol.