Ma World Of Worries

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she gone out again. so where was I?

Cant seem 2 remember, bt something jst came up. I can't seem to understand y i jst atimes i feel like am nt going tru things d rite way? y i think a lot about everything n mostly nothing in particular,

Okay, d usual things i thing about,  ma work(career), ma studies(which is giving mi a tough tyme), and ma future (that is where d relationship thing comes up).

I'l take it one after d oda.

ma work?
I worry about this because i jst ave 2. can u imagin working in a place with like 5 turnova in 2months? man,  is that not so discomforting,  i work ma ass out everyday n get home so late am entirely wasted,  n den 4 wot?
Mayb if d pay was that worth it sef, i wldnt complain as much,  bt compared 2 what ma mates earn,  believe mi, i ave no say in it,  n den dey say this , nt everyone on suit is happie,  ever heard that,  u believe it with your whole heart.
I want to change work, bt again, i worry ova d text i'D be subjected 2,  truthfully, am a B student, atleast when i was in skol,  so wot is ma problem i'D ask maself,  don't know!
bt i knw i will change work,  i get a better place without no daddy's help(by d way, he got mi this one) n am grateful,  bt like oliver twist,  i need more dan this.

Den, wot kind of work do a person like mi want,
funnie, i like 2 rite, bt i do better oonly under deadline n pressure,  o, o 4got, i studied mass communication in d university n wanted 2 become a broadcaster.

that is ma 1st love,  2 b on tv, talk, smile n be seen,  bt realy if u asked mi, i'D say d realy reason(so i figured out  much lata) is because i want 2 b seen, heard, kknwn, n famous! who says been beyonce was easy, 

am tried,  and sumwhere in ma head, am confused! when i figure it out,
be sure i'l put it down,

Its month end n i tot 2 maself,  y nt give mi a treat? hum, good idea i tot, until it hits mi in d face that dere's this woman wel, sum boss i help sell some things. wel, i did sell aiight bt didnt gather all d money in bulk,

ma problem ehn is that i hate 2 bra sumone 4 mi,  amn, in ma life, 2 ask even ma dad 4 money is a big issue that expect i don't ave another choice i don't go. now, i sell sum things dey say, i get u d money, i'l give u d balance, bt up til now,  nothin!!! i had 2  use ma money earlier 2 do sum bridge finance,  n now am afraid that ma proposed treat might jst not take place again,  n God knws i need it,

so this again is ma worry! where do i get d next bridge finance from? who would give mi that,  bt at least before dere is a giving, drer must b asking,  n mi, nah,  can't jst do it!

now i can only savour d beautiful feel of water under ma feet as they go in 4 treatment,  d feel of water in ma hair has it receives attention n care n wash,  n scent of hair spray, as its done once its made,  i can go on and on,  bt its unfortunate that ma pride would not like mi b,  has i ave 2 once again, pay d debts of sum nonsense people.

now, that is ma worry!