My Feelings And Emotions

Ok, today I feel embarassed about yesterday's 'feelings'.  When you are feeling bad, you want to tell the whole world but by the time you are feeling good, you feel embarrassed about what you said the day before.  Anyway, I have my billing address now and it's a US-based one but Google Adwords still refuses to accept the card.  They just don't want me as a customer and I feel very bad about that.  I want to participate in the world of PPC!

Dear dairy,

I feel so bad today.  No matter what I do or what I make as income, the nature of the power relationship between me and my parents remains exactly  the same.  If my work is not going to rescue me from this sick state of affairs, then it's not worth doing.  No one told me I would need to jump through so many hoops just to open a domiciliary account.

Seun.

When I'm having a bad day, it affects my work.  Sometimes I may be unproductive for a week due to the emotional implications of problems with an acquaintance.  It may affect my forum posts and moderation choices.  If I want to succeed in my movie business, I need to have a stable emotional foundation to build on.  Unfortunately, I don't have people I can trust and feel comfortable with all the time.  Except myself.  And for some reason, myself seems not to be enough.  I'm losing productivity due to this, and that's so sad.  If it was possible to be completely lonely but happy, that's what I'd choose.  Everyone else is unreliable and busy.  Hence, the problem is not solved.  I think it's better to remain alone than to allow someone to disrespect me.