Is He Reliable?

 Great Nairalanders,
I have a boyfriend who happened to be a playboy! This guy was a ladies man and he had way more than his own share of the ladies in school! Despite all these, he loves me! Yes he loves me but I mistakenly cheated on him once & lied to him about two times. He found no problem in forgiven me! He is abit older than me, so i really do respect him but our relationship was 100% perfect other than the fact that he womanizes but he still so much respected me & I was soo happy with him!
He left the country after about 3years that we've been dating & unfortunately i cheated on him in less than six months after travelling & he got to know! I made the mistake & i know it because their is no money or material thing any sugar daddy can give me like he does! Since then its been fighting now & then! But i don't know because i feel like killing myself. I cry myself to bed night after night so please help me!

@bola
u are d cause of ur troubles oh!, i can't sympathise with you on this one. because u have done it before and he chose to FORGIVE out of love, or whatever. he forgave u and gave u another chance.

Chances are it probably gotto him this more, because in the 6months, he has probably been missing u and wishing u were with him, he ha probably fought temptation, and u just give 'it' away freely

sha me i say, LEAVE D POOR GUY ALONE, AND GET OVER IT. if u loved him in d first instance u wouldnt have cheated let alone more than once!!

Haha, my people I accept my fault ooo! But we are all human beings and please try to understand me! I'm just so scared because I have begged & begged. He's always telling me he loves me & that I'm forgiven but the relationship is not just thesame! I feel bad everytime because he has contributed to my life, studies & even family & he hasn't stopped despite my dids! But he's not the person I used to know, we aren't as close as we were & its going to a year now! He is one of this big boys that appears bad to the whole world but he is very intelligent, simple and cool! I know he isn't happy but I'm so scared 'because people that don't talk like that could be dangerous but he never stop spending on me! I appear to the world rich but if not because of him I am nothing! please advice me, I know i have done wrong.

@Bola
the only thing i will tell u, is to give the guy space. LEAVE HIM, him sef don tyr for u, habaaaaa, e be like say na babes like una dey make guys maltreat their next girlfriend.
Leave him, give him time to clear his mind, sounds to me like he has put up with more than a lot of other guys will. give him the respect to sort out his mind. If it is now you are realising his worth in ur life, too bad, just pray he comes back. if he is urs, he will miss you and come back to you, Then u will have the chance to right your wrongs. You will know his being with u is by his choice not by ur begging him to. If you stay there, he will transfer all his surpressed anger from before. Leave d guy my dear. If he is urs he will come back to you for another chance.

A cat will always find its way home