I've Decided To Forgive White People.

Well, God rebuked me quite a bit through my son and so I decided to agree with God. It is to painful to go against what God says, for me.

I actually have been on sabbatical from talking about any Black subjects that might rile up the beast in me.

I had/have  demonized white people.  God forced me to see a white person through my eyes. As a person who just woke up the same as me. The same forgiveness I give myself for not being able to have stopped our pain, is the same forgiveness I have to extend to white people.

I fully expect that white people will continue to be just as horrible as I expect. Yet I am going to have to do like Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. and hope for the best to be brought out in them and the best to be brought out in me.

I had let hope in me die. God wants my hope to be revived. I have to trust God and what his plans are for others.

God was able to create the earth, God is able to destroy the beast.

I like to think Nigerians countless hours of trying to convince me not to hate whites, went a long way towards helping me come to this decision. This heart change. So thank you.

We will see what the future holds.

sisimose,

Why the dissapointed face?

For I was envious at the foolish, when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. For there are no bands in their death: but their strength is firm. They are not in trouble as other men; neither are they plagued like other men. Therefore pride compasseth them about as a chain; violence covereth them as a garment. Their eyes stand out with fatness: they have more than heart could wish. They are corrupt, and speak wickedly concerning oppression: they speak loftily. They set their mouth against the heavens, and their tongue walketh through the earth. (bible)

TOH,

God gave my son a dream about me. Except my son did not know it. I knew it when my son told me the dream. The dream was crystal clear. (God gives me the interpretation of lots of dreams, always has.) 

When I told my son the meaning of the dream, he and my sister and every one around me agreed with it's interpretation that it was an open rebuke of me and my sinful ways in the area of "blackstuff".

wish you would go in depth about the dream but ok 

wow, how old is your son?

That's nice 

jeez Dru, I didnt know you were that oooold though 

TOH,

Not that you care but I have to brag as a parent. The son I was just speaking of just came home late from his graduation and they surprised him by giving him the highest award that one can achieve and moving his rank up even higher and it comes with a new medal. These are real army things and uniforms. He actually got to meet the 4 Star general today who opened the school.

It was a surprise with many awards graduation for him today.  They really love him in that Military Academy.

This son is surely the reason God made me repent. He is going to be big one day in this country.

Dru
it is not a disappointed face i had back there lol. it was an ''undecided face'' meaning i will only watch the space. you know how it is, life , people, words, Christianity(very skeptical about this word), promises, changes, etc.
Anyway it seem like you going through a life change and things have happened that you are not saying, either way do your best

Dru
yeah true there.

Donzman,

Don't ever let my mother here you calling her white. Every time I say she is white, she goes off. She does not hate white mind you, she just believes that she is Spanish, so therefore that is not white. She likes to brag about the fact that her dad had nappy hair.

As I like to tell people, I am descended from some blacks on my white side (who left my grandfather with nappy hair, at least) and I am descended from some whites and Indians on my blackside.

Being a mixed black person can sometimes be more complicated than it looks.

Most of the mediterranean people don't really see themselves as white, even our family Spanish friend confirms this, is it not ironic that Italians see themselves as Italian Americans while other people of European descent other than Mediterraneans see themselves as white Americans or just  Americans.

You still do not understand what your mum means by denying she's white.
Have you actually ever taken time to look at people's skins? I mean really take time to examine the pigmentation of various individuals' skins? None is black and none is white. Back in the ancient times when the Europeans thought they were the only humans on earth, there was just man. But when they came to Africa and saw us, they didn't believe we were the same species. It took several years of different early scientists carrying out various experiments, including the infamous vicious scrubbing in which they tried to scrub away the dirt from our skin to reveal our underlying black skin (this was done under the premise that our skin was same as theirs but dirtiness had made us look different). Anyway, after the experiments finally proved that we were not the same as them but we still were men, the look for adjectives to describe us and since we were primitive, uncivilised, savage, irreligious and dirty compared to them, the only negative word they could come up with to sum all of this up is BLACK! And since we had been certified as black men, the rechristened themselves WHITE! White simply represents good, pure and holy. So that's why a lot of right thinking people reject colorcoding. That's why it's now African American rather than black American.        

Denex,

I'm sorry but I do not think that is how it went down in history. Europeans usually went out first as explorers of other lands.

Here are just some of the comments about what they found:

CONGO

"The indigenous peoples of the Congo," he wrote, "are all black in color, some more so, some less so. Many are to be seen who are the color of chestnut and some tend to be more olive-colored. But the one who is of the deepest black in color is held by them to be the most beautiful. Some are born somewhat light-skinned, but as they grow older they become darker and darker. This occurs because their mothers make use of the artifice of an ointment, with which they anoint their infants, exposing them once they have been anointed, to the rays of the sun, then leaving them there for long periods, and repeating this action over and over, There are some children who although their parents are black, are born white skinned and although they anoint them and use all manners of artifice they can never be transformed into blackskinned people. And these are regarded by the Congolese as monsters. They have the same features and the same tightly curled hair as the black Congolese, but their skin is white and they are short-sighted, As a result, children in those areas, where a white has never been seen before, would become terrified, fleeing in horror from us, no less than our children here are terrified by the sight of a black also fleeing in horror for them.[Teruel, Antonio de, Narrative Description of, the Kingdom of the Congo (1663-1664) Ms. 3533:3574/National Library, Madrid, Spain]

SOUTH INDIA

"It is a fact that in this country when a child is born they anoint him once a week with oil of sesame, and this makes him grow much darker than when he was born. For I assure you that the darkest man is here the most highly esteemed and considered better than the others who are not so dark. Let me add that in very truth these people portray and depict their gods and their idols black their devils white as snow. For they say the God and all the saints are black and the devils are all white. That is why they portray them as I have described. And similarly they make the images of their idols all black."[Marco Polo, The Travels, translated and with an Introduction by Ronald Latham, Middlesex: Penguin Books, 1958]

SOUTHEAST ASIA

"For the complexion of men,they consider black the most beautiful. In all the kingdoms of the southern region, it is the same."[Nan Ts'i Chou, quoted by Rene Gaston Georges Maspero, The Kingdom of Champa. New Haven: Yale University Press, 1949]

@ drusilla i'm proud of u 

Omogenaija et al,

Thank you. I hope I can keep myself balanced on a fine line of what is the truth and what is demonization of white folks. I want to keep their humanity before me at all times.