For Gays & Lesbians Alone - When Did You First Know?

@Handell:
You're brave, its people like u I look up to. My best friends and sisters over here know about my sexuality, some friends know and others suspect. I don't know when I will come out to my parents (if I ever) because I am afraid, I won't deny that fact. I am afraid to lose my family (extended & nuclear); I sometimes joke about hiring a bodyguard when I tell my parents to protect me but its easier said than done.
Thanks for your story and take care of yourself.

Just beautiful and well said.

@ huxley : thanks

@handell:
My friend!  It has, indeed, been a long time since last we encountered one another here!  I trust that you have been in good health. 

So, what else have you been up to?

@drrionelli - hey dude. yeah its bin awhile and its great to hear from u. i trust your also doing well. what av i been up to?hmmnn now thats a long story. but i can assure u that my life has changed so much. does that mean that am suddenly straight? i guess  not but then i am now able to deal with my fears and embrace my hope.

like i said, my story continues and hopefully in time, the chapters will be filled up. am currently getting ready to leave d country for a foreign degree and am exicted about it.

well, i finally nurtured the courage to tell Ozzy the truth about me, i had always thot i would never survive that day should it eva come but life is full of surprises. i sent him a msg asking if i culd trust him completely because i needed to tell him something important, his response was "yes" so we met @ his place one weekend and i told him everything. i was virtually crying through out because i guess i was ashamed and felt undeserving of his friendship,  i couldnt even look him in the eye. apart frm him being straight,  i knew him to be very religious but surprisingly, i didnt get the "holier than thou" sermon from him. yes, he was silent  but then he told he had always suspected but never allowed it get in the way of our friendship because he believed we met for a purpose. now i was shocked. yeah, he asked me tons of questions but it was great to know instead of the apt repulsion i expected he still extended his hand of friendship. he invited me to church n i started attending again. its funny how the supposed " guy of my dreams" became my true friend & my confidant. whenever i have my "low" days, i call him and we talk, even joke n i feel alot lighter . his words always assure me that its going to get better. lookin back now, i guess my attraction towards him was in the least sexual,he was just an amazin person within and thats  what i was more drawn to.he was the only person i had eva felt that way about and i feel blessed to have him as a friend

i still try to get along with my parents even though its not been easy, because i see the disappointment in the corner of their eyes sometimes when they look @ me, can't blame them though its been hard for them too and i know a times they feel like they failed. but i know God aint given up on me and i have the support and love of people that matter d most to me and for now that carries me through each day.

i guess this is my story so far,--------------thanx for being a friend.

@bluespice -  thanks alot, it means so much comin from you. for a longtime av blamed God, myself and everything else for the way i am. my fear about my sexuality as never been because of what people would say  or how they would look @ me, but more about how i felt about myself and the plans i had for my life. this guy that i thot was the one was actually the one, not as a lover but as hand to hold through the storm. now i know why they say "men are God's hands"

just like lots of closeted gay people, for a long time i refused to deal with my internal convictions about who i was  but now though i realize it may not be in my power to change the way i feel sexually, i still have the choice to decide the kind of life i wanted to live. the truth is i don't av it all figured out, but hopefully i will get better, stronger,wiser and maybe someday my change will come.

am grateful for the strength i needed to open up to the people i cared about.

@bluespice - i said that because i know ur straight and even though u mite never know what a day in the life of a gay man can be like, ur still able to  open ur heart and understand my words.

First of all let me make it clear that i'm straight
Second of all i think all gay people should attempt to become straight
However, from reading a lot of the posts on this thread i get the feeling that many gay people harbour a lot of guilt. thats crap. if you re religious i guess you ll feel better to learn that in the sight of God , you re no worse of than a heterosexual person who indulges in masturbation and/or pre-marital sex. Just open up to god and try n change your orientation.
 And forget that crap the I was born that way crap, .

Keep your Jesus off my privates
Keep your bible off my balls
Keep your prayers out of my ears
And your crosses off my walls
You can keep the virgin mother
And the resurrection too
Keep your Jesus off my privates
I'll keep my privates off of you

Well I'm frickin' sick and tired
Of turning on the news
And seeing the religious right's
Ungodly fight to take our right to choose
When to bear our children
Who to love and how
Education and protection
If we're just practicing for now
So dubya look obey a book
If that's what works for you
But I don't tell you how to pray
So don't tell me how to screw

I am not anti-Christian
Before you grab a rope
There is beauty in religion
And joy and love and hope
We're all looking for an answer
Some colossal cosmic cause
But who the mess are you
To turn your views into my laws?
It's just believers in the bible
That would have abortion banned
Anti-choice agnostics?
I could count'em on one hand
And as for killing babies
I have but one retort
If someone raped your daughter George
You'd beg her to abort

And if some young girl from your church
Shows up with child or some infection
`because you taught her what a horrid sin
It was to use protection
One day you'll face the pearly gates
And whatchu going to say
When that long-haired Jewish peacenick
Sends your ass the other way sayin'

Keep your Jesus off my privates
Keep your bible off my balls
Keep your prayers out of my ears
And your crosses off my walls
I've had it up to here
With all the biblibile you spew
Keep your Jesus off my privates
(at least that's what I would do)
Keep your Jesus off my privates
I'll keep my privates off of you
That's if'n you want me to

i had always admired guys since i was very young. i was what guys in my school called a playboy because i was always around girls my best friends were girls but i never had feelings for them. the guys always teased me "you like girls too much" of course i liked girls but not the way they thought. then i usde to play this childish games with my them gay friends we wuold take turns to lie on each other. when i think back it felt stupid but then it was fun. then when i got to sec school there were so many cute guys that i admired but i just kept to myself because it was a misionary schl and the puishment for homosexuality if uare caught was expulsion. so i stayed all by myself and i never wanked because i didn't like it then i didn't start wanking until recently. so in my ss1 the social prefect became unnecessarily friendly and i didn't mind because i had admired him in the past he was very cute and had a lovely body.then the big day came when he invited me to his room to copy a note he missed in class. before i could say jack robinson he was all over me. kissing, romancing and then he was in my mouth. it was a new xperience for me and i enjoyed it. i took him whole in my mouht and then he was inside my ass very painfull at first but i soon adjusted.we had it a couple of times before he left the schl and no one caught us. i'm not sure i should av posted the intimate parts of my xperience but i don't mind sharing it.
to those who have a problem with gay poeple go put a suck in it
@ gamine
u are very insultive. i won't be surprised if u're the greatest closet lesbian. i don't like u at all though i don't know u. just imagine a filthy sinner like u preaching about god. i go to church and i know the bible but i won't discriminate because i know what i am doing is wrong. and ebumowa said for gays and lesbians only so if u are not a lesbian what are u doing here. u are such a lying bitch. u can report me to the moderator if u like but i've gien u a piece of my mind about u.
@ moderato if i am to be banned
i don't mind being banned i know i can open another account but i just had to that fucking idiot str8. i'm very sure if u're like me u'd share the same views with me
@ebumowa
nice thread it has been a real eye opener. keep it up. don't mind gamine she's just being bitchy
@G2g if u see this
i'd like to meet u personally please send me a mail of ur phone no to buttercopcoll@yahoo.com. anybody can also relay this message to him. and by the way nice post

I'm sorry Buttercop

But what you say to me and about me dosnt matter.

The Truth is all that Matters.

Your case

Tragic tragic.

 

Yes because if you believe in what the bible teaches you, God is ever forgiving 

So if he exists or not, it is the same thing