I Just Had To Do The Most Terrible Thing

okay. i posted previously about my ex. (we broke up 2 years ago, he started seeing someone last year, we still get together frequently) the last time i posted, it was because we had been argueing a lot and for the first time he asked for a break. I had always asked in the past and would always end up calling after a week. so this time i was determined that i wouldnt and i went for a month wit no contact and was so proud of myself when he texted and started callin. however i was being very careful and trying to make a clean break from him, but something i had being doing previously came back to haunt me.
anyways to cut a long story short, i previously used to go into his airline account to see when he was travellling because he wasnt telling me again and sometime when i would be mad at him, i would make changes to the ticket and one time i even cancelled a ticket he had bought to go see his new girlfriend. I did this by accessing his AOLaccount which he had cancelled. so he didnt know all this and was getting charged for the AOL.  but i did not know he was getting charged

then  i found out he has changed the password and i went to his house to ask him why and we get into a huge fight and he tells me to leave his house. and i know i did a really horrible thing and i called, texted, sent cards. he wouldnt listen. i felt really bad about what i had done and it was  something that i had done a while ago and i never knew it would turn out like that. on thursday i waited outside his house for 5 hours for him so i could apologize and he said apology accepted. i was in tears and then spent the night because it was like 3 in the morning, but nothing happened. he left for work the next morning without waking me and then i knew he was still mad because he always wakes me. he comes back in the evening and i am trying to explain to him why i did what i did and he says he never wants to discuss it and he is having company coming over and i have to leave. once more am crying and he is just being so cold and unemotional and i try to talk to him and he says there is nuthing to talk about and then he gathers all my stuff that was in his house and tells me to leave. he says anything i want to say i can email or text me.
i feel really bad about what i did, but at the same time, i am fearful that he has had it with all my deeds when i am upset and he will never talk to me again. I am really apologetic, but feel like i have apologized enough. i bought him an apology gift.  i just want him to forgive me and speak to me again.

Na wa o . . . this handshake passed the elbow long time ago. Even an extremely patient fellow will find it difficult just forgiving and speaking to you again. For 2 years you were busy accessing his private account and causing him financial trouble while you both were supposed to be separated. . .

haba . . . my dear, you don beg enough. Gather the shards of your pride left and leave my bros alone. That he allowed you to stay overnight in his house sef is a miracle. You are an example of the type of woman to keep at arms length.

I guess u betrayed his trust and he finds it difficult to remain with u any longer. Now that he's found someone else I can't see him wanting to come back to u. Just forget about the relationship. It has ended.

My dear, what i'l advise is u shuld just give him a break,  since ure very apologetic, try to stay away from him 4 a while. he is still very mad at u( anybody should be). All he needs is time to get over the annoyance. He is a very gentle man 4 allowin u stay in his house and even answerin u. give him sometime (like a month) and then try to apologise again. he must have been calm again. I guess u've learned a lot from this experience? My guess is u love him very much,but u shuld try to control ur emotions,  If ure attracted 2 someone else,try and get into a relationship,it'l help u get over it a little bit, 

Hey girlie, wake up, its a new day!

Well said dear, very well said.

This na the type wey we for  pray say instead make trouble burst, make rain fall, 

Leave this guy alone ok. There are many guys out there. You are obsessed, its not love anymore ok. You have crossed the line. Get help please!

that dude na complete gentleman
otherewise you for de general hospital now de regret

  :oGirlfriend instead of obsessing over getting him to forgive u or talk to u i think u need to get a life, new friends, new hobbies whatever it takes to keep u busy all the time and just forget about him. u're hanging on to a man that obviously doesn't love u and hurting yourself in the process. From ur recent posts i get the idea that your self esteem must be in shreds by now. Get strong for God's sake u're a grown woman and getting independent is long long overdue for you.
Please leave the poor guy alone he has a right to move on with his life and come to think of it, so do u!
@title, u didn't HAVE to do anything, u chose to. a very poor decision if i may add.

WORD and well said

madam,the earlier you start thinking about what you are going to do with your life the better.someone that wants to leave you initially,then u now gave him a very sweet reason to fulfil his calling.stay clear and catch your fun.best of luck.