I have repented many times to God and apologised.

Does that mean God does not forgive?

When I was younger I was a fairly good person, however I did talk carelessly.

When my uncle had terminal cancer, I was going through a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics and I would say "I want him to die" when arguing with my dad. Eventually he died. But I did not mean it, I was mad.

I also said to my mum "I want you to have cancer and die", a few years later she has now been diagnosed as "terminally ill".

I have said to the following people KR, TC, RF that I am happy that their parent (2 were father, 1 grandmother) is dead during an argument/frustration of what they did to be/what I thought that they did to me.

I said to another girl RD, in an argument/angry because of what she did to me, I said to her "you will die young" because she has sickle cell. Also, I told another female (during my period of madness) that her mother will die young.

I was age 19 - 20 when all of this happened, I am 23 now and would NEVER say anything like that under the age of 19 or over the age of 20 - I was going through a mental health breakdown and although it is no excuse I was mad and did not really mean it.
I have done so many "good" things and was always known as a good person, just that I had a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics / going to a psychiatric hospital and that is when I said those things.

I repent to GOD and to you my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Can God forgive me? Because now my one and only mother has terminal cancer, and my life in general is just struggle.

Help me please.

TheBlessedMAN:

Guy get sense na, at least if you don't have anything reasonable to say you shouldn't comment or is that too hard for you to do?

igbolondon93:
I have repented many times to God and apologised.

Does that mean God does not forgive?

Have you considered maybe you have been Praying to the Wrong God? av noticed most Nigeria are praying to either a Jewish or Arabian God to solve their problems I wonder what consign those foreign Gods with Nigeria o