Kazna69:


I'll say my problem has always been letting go & finding acceptance in myself & who I am. I'm beginning to understand that concept & slowly not holding on to people's opinions of me. But when it comes to life's purpose, how do I find "the answer" what am I looking for?

Nubian113:


Its not that hard. There's no single answer all of life's experience is packed with answer if only you'd quieten down the mind and give it room and space so that New information could come in. Will Smith said the universe is like water never solid, this means it moves and works around you instead of locking you in. The problem with transmission is that we clog up nerve ends and systems so that nothing new comes in. Stop feeding your demons with more negative reasons because they the demon's won't go and you'll literally drown in misery.

Kazna69:


... Water? So did Bruce Lee, best philosophy quotes ever. I'll try to break out of it, keep my spirits up. Thanks for taking the time, I appreciate this.

Nubian113:


Its cool sweetie, thank you. Go on YouTube. I watched videos on "the law of attraction" it really changed me. If you're not religious or spiritual this theory will answer some questions for you. Listen to Oprah, will smith, and many others who use this theory as their salvation. It's not a religious theory it's more self help theory lol

Kazna69:


Haha oh I'm familiar with The Secret. I have a couple pdf docs by Rhonda Byrne, saw a Oprah video about using it to find your soul mate some weeks back cos I can't put YouTube down. Oh there's Alan Watts, Eckhart Tolle, Tony Robbins. As regards religion, I have my views about it. I guess it's because of my non-conformist nature to not be like the sheep society tries to make one into. I just believe science & the spiritual (religion as ppl call it) are interwoven. I don't stick to a monotheist, "God being" theory because no human on this planet can explain or describe with mortal knowledge however I do believe there are higher, more powerful, larger, faster beings or entities out there. It's a deep topic. This was awesome, you & everybody who took the time to share knowledge with me are all awesome, thank you!

Nubian113:
It's sooo easy hun, I swear

Step one: Smile! From within
Step Two: protect your thoughts from negativity
Step Three: see step one

Nice chatting with you dude

Kazna69:

Seriously why am I blushing & having a giggle fit? The "smiling is contagious" theory holds true. Science is uh-maaay-zeeen!

Nubian113:

Science
Maybe that's where your calling lays who knows... But you.

It's so much easier to laff smile and catch joke in comparison to thinking, worrying, thinking some more, then something new to worry about! I was worried about my worries like wtf

Kazna69:


Science? nawh, degree wise it's not for me. Crashed Computer Science. Took me 5 years to discover that about myself. I'm best suited to the Arts. All that doodling in high school was a telling sign but I just ignored it mainly cos my Dad discouraged my artistic trait. Saw me do some drawings & a lil comic in JS1 & said something that just left a meteor sized crater inside me. I'd take getting shot with a rail gun point blank than that. I like the general knowledge about science as a whole, I'm just not left-brained, I'm right-brained with a high visual IQ. I hope I don't sound delusional when I say I "see shapes". I could stare at a wall or sky or ceiling & somehow see overlapping shapes forming an image & show someone & they're like "how you do that?"

Nubian113:
Wow. Sounds like you've always known. You are not your father's opinion hell you ain't even your own opinion of yourself. So get to know you... Make your head a nice place to be in. I like you already so you can't be that bad. Stop dancing to other people's music and jam on your own for awhile. Really make you happy because you deserve happiness. Happiness and all the good stuff are from within. There's nothing worthy in the external. You'll be in my prayers. Holla soon let's see if you need a moan still

Kazna69:


You are like a guru ya know. I actually tend to "live in my head" quite a lot. Taurus, Melancholy, Introverted, individualistic, aloof, right-brained, lover/poet under KWML, 38/11 life path, artsy-nerd type, sensitive, 6th chakra ability etc to nth term of the unknown = I'm exhausted!

Nubian113:


Omg are you my twin? Me: Taurus, Melancholy and another one I forget now lol , I'm intro because my extro is extreme. Life path 1,9,5 I think I'll have to recheck cause it's been awhile. Erm... I'm creative but I haven't found my field of creativity just yet (I'm working on that now ) I cry all the time, advertisements, movie, crime shows like CBS reality (America is full of sick ppl) You'll be my guru to understand chakra cause this was the point where I fell ill. I was trying to open my chakras through guided meditation every night. My 3rd Eye nearly sent me mad! Lol! It was so scary. So I'm not playing with things I know nothing about, that was my vow if I got better from depression and anxiety attacks. Btw do you know how anxiety attacks happen and why?

Kazna69:


Blushing & Omigoshing & I dunno why. Seriously? Well hey twin you get your life path number by adding up the number in your birth date. Say Aug 16 1996 is 8+1+6+1+9+9+6=40 > 4+0= 4 Life path number See? You're right about American shows. I think that's why I suddenly "detached" from wanting to watch Movies or TV shows. I don't even go to the mall to watch movies or download them. Hollywood is brainwashing the populace. About Chakras well you could start at www.playbuzz.com search Chakras & do the one that might help you id which one's your most dominant. Mine's 6th/3rd Eye for Intuition, thinking. True, don't play with fire unless you want to learn matter manipulation

I've never really experienced any heavy anxiety attacks like that. I just somehow aware that I get nervous in social environments with tons of people, loud distracting chaotic noises. Mine is mostly social anxiety like talking to people & holding long conversations or initiating one using icebreakers. I guess it's the traits some people are born with, a combination of traits, social circle & family influence from an early age & conditioning. So yeah

Nubian113:


= 32 3+2=5 so this is my Life path. Then there was one for my name and I'm sure that was 9... My downfall was 1... It said that 1's over indulge in food, drink, and that i had an excessive substance abuse potentials... Numerology blew my mind! I'm watchful because of it. Lol... Hmmm chakrs ok I'll give it a go. As for anxiety we all have some healthy social anxieties especially the whole breaking the ice stuff.. It can be debilitating especially when it was time to go to work and deal with a bunch of angry imps because I was used as the shield of the company. The first point of contact. More like the person everyone dumps on


But I left and it's over now so... On and up we go

thorpido:
Nubian113 and kazna69,I like how you both are getting along.
Kazna69,you see it's not so bad afteral.

Kazna69:


Learn about 5 life path number on YouTube & sites. It may hold some truth. I actually watched a couple 11 path numbers last night & my jaw dropped. It's no wonder I feel things more intensely. It's like I'm being bombarded & overloaded being an 11. Yea organisations & hierarchical places are like that. They just need someone to crap on that's why there's a "chain of command" or Pyramid type mindset. Bosses at the top level, subordinates below. It's brave of you to have left, admirable even. I'm so gonna do some designs with 11. Trade secret 11 looks like a T-Shirt if you flip the right one horizontally. .

Nubian113:


Oya you acting toooo nyc for me now huh

Kazna69:


Hmm... ok. Got your mail, server couldn't send the reply, dunno why.

Nubian113:


So my question?... Yes or no... Only.

RoyalRoy:



Okay....okay....Okay....Nubian113 and Kazna69, glad you guys are getting along now after the initial altercation. But its time for you both to use the mails.

Let's allow this thread to remain for peeps who seek help to overcome their emotional struggles and all.


Cheers to you guys.

FullOfShame:




Thanks to you two. I'll proceed to tell them.

anna5:
ur right it goes way back, to wen I didn't get admission, stayed at home for 2years and he frustrated my life. Mum has been helping with wt she can

Kazna69:

OK don't take this the wrong way but I don't really hear voices in my head, ever. So I don't know how my purpose is supposed to be revealed. I don't feel anything, hear anything or see anything. I'm simply not "tuned in" to spiritual matters.

Hi there
Good Afternoon.

Hi Daretoddiffer Thank you for drawing my attention to this.

You don't need to pressure yourself to feel or hear.
Just let go.

Ask God for help.
If it means muttering, or crying...
Just seek help.

Don't be hard on yourself if nothing seems to be coming.

Let's take this exercise for a bit.

1. Close your eyes this moment...
2. Then sit up straight like you are in a dignified position.
3. Place your hands on your laps.
4. Then try to focus on your breathing. Just shut everything else out. If you notice some electrical feelings moving up and down your body, then you're doing it right.
5. You will notice after a while that different thoughts and pictures might come in. Don't try to fight them. Just acknowledge them (for example, if suicidal thoughts come, just say "suicidal thoughts...." then go back to focusing on your breath. Please make sure your environment is as quiet as possible.

See for yourself how long you can do this.
It's totally okay if you're not able to concentrate.

As a favour to me though, I would that you try to do it over and over.
Till you start feeling and seeing differently.
This exercise is meant to help you connect to your higher self, and become activated in love, in awareness and in balance.


Dear, you don't need to have it all figured out.
Your mind must have told you a lot of horrible things about yourself which you unknowingly related to, hence the feeling of negative detachment, dismemberment and all sorts.

But you can rise again, and you definitely can be better than what you are now.

I will be making more posts to elucidate things to you. I pray your patience to read through, I equally pray for understanding.

I also beckon on the very source and spirit, which you and I shared in common, even before time began to expose to you, who you truly are, the riches of your inheritance, your divinity, and every good and lovely thing, you were sent here for.

I speak peace to every confused mind and frayed nerve. Let torrents of joy and light and life overflow through you. Amen.

#Healing
#Forgiveness

daretodiffer:

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