About six months ago, I was watching a lot of Apple ads on YouTube and heard something that has never left me. You should watch the YouTube video, it’s truly inspiring. Here’s what I heard:

“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in square holes, the ones who see things differently, they are not fond of rules and have no respect for the status quo.

You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them but the only
thing you can’t do, is ignore them because they change things.

They push the human race forward and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius because the people, who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjgtLSHhTPg

The past week has ‘killed’ me. It has stripped me of whatever ‘self-importance’ I nursed in the corners of my mind. It has broken me and opened me up to my real self. It has brought me to a deeper level of self-awareness, one I am most grateful for.

When I sat with my MacBook to type my last blog, I never imagined it would generate the kind of attention it did and continues to. I have one last thing to say on this issue
before I lay it to rest and move on. (I also hope others can move on too, we
have too much going on in this Country to continue to peddle one for longer
than necessary.)

A very big thank you to everyone that has felt it necessary to talk about this issue and spread it throughout Nigeria and the foreign scene. I read every email sent to me with awe that people would take the time out to reach a total stranger like me. Some were cursing, calling me a witch from the pit of hell sent to destroy the church as though one individual/church is bigger than the body of Christ. As though God is mere man and would cringe in heaven saying, “Ese don did it this time.” Or as if
the good Book didn’t state clearly that ALL things work out for good for those
that love God.

Do you love God? If yes, trust that it will ALL turn around for good.

Some people say, ‘I support you, you are brave and courageous’ and I wonder if those terms really define me. I do not think I am brave or courageous. I do know, however that after decades of sleepwalking through life, I am now becoming aware not just of myself but also of my environment, my world, and the universe.

Some say, put out the evidence and we will believe you. Hmmm, the morning I sat to write that post, I really didn’t expect anyone to believe me. Well, apart from those involved. And my motive was simple, let one more woman be spared. Let one more minister of the gospel be mindful and let the church rise up to its responsibilities as God’s legal representatives here in the earth realm.

A copy of the ‘evidence’ is with a respected minister of the gospel should the christian body decide to deal with this issue now and that becomes needful. I am not looking to have a ‘me against them’ case where I need to prove I’m right and someone is wrong. I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.

Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and whatever else mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue. I cannot reply every email as reading them is beginning to seem like a new job.

I remember asking a friend once while reading the book of Acts, “Why do we no longer operate in the power the disciples did in Jesus day?” What has changed? How do we ‘unchange’ it?

God is not mocked, if we serve Him, let’s serve Him. We cannot continue to grow as a Nation by oppressing, delaying justice, hating, having the ME ME ME mentality. As Martin Luther King Jr said, ‘no one is free until we are all free.’

Things have got to change and it begins with us. It begins with each and every one of us borrowing courage to stand for what we believe in. Fela Durotoye once said, ‘that thing that annoys you most in society is a sign that you carry its solution.’ (I’m
paraphrasing)

Nothing has called out to me more than people, especially women, suffering in some way and hiding the pain. Whatever we cover doesn’t go away. It grows and it finds different outlets to rear its ugly head until we deal with it.

I am not perfect, I will never be, but I am enough to try what I feel might work. I don’t know what the entire bible says but I am learning and applying the little I find out
daily. And I think everyone owes it to himself or herself to figure it out for
themselves.

At the end of the day, we agree that ‘men of God’ are firstly men, right? This means it’s needless expecting them to help you in your growth with God. I fell into that trap of thinking a ‘man of God’ is equated to God and it is not new to find people fall in that hole.

How do you begin to learn to serve a God you have never seen? It takes another level of faith to do that but we live in a generation/Country where people don’t want to study for themselves. They don’t want to read the Scriptures. Well, they don’t want to read, period. They want to pursue things instead and have somebody do the praying and studying for them. If you fall in that category, you need to repent.

I learnt that when the veil was torn, we all were given equal access to the Father. No matter how long you may have been in church, if you don’t know what that means you better ask somebody. And seek a real relationship with the God you claim to serve.

That is what I am spending most of my time doing these days. Praying, studying, seeking, knocking. The peace I have felt despite all the hate mails and tantrums shows that God is not angry with me and I did what I needed to do to the best of my
understanding.

My apologies to everyone this has affected in one way or another.

Firstly, my family: I don’t know how you guys aren’t sick of me yet

Secondly, ‘the body of Christ,’ my intention was never to cause trouble but to stop a rot I felt might spread and become worse if nobody spoke up about it.

Lastly, to those who said I shouldn’t blog again, I respect and understand your concerns but the truth is, writing is not just my gift, it is also my ‘curse’. I cannot ‘NOT’ write but I PROMISE, this is the last I will say on this issue except the christian body needs to see me.

God is building His church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. No sin is too big to wreck anyone’s faith. If it does, then it means it’s working out a greater good for you. You will definitely come out stronger and better in the end. Like my best friend says “in the end, it will be all right and if it ain’t alright, it’s not
the end.”

“…forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Paul.

Cheers to the weekend people

Source: http://esewalter./2013/08/30/going-forward/#comments

I like this bit, "... I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.
Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and whatever else
mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue..."

Maybe finally, we can all put this behind and move on.

If the holy spirit really lives in this pastor, he for don tell am not to phuck a psycho.

This gurl don turn celeb' o, she's even declining interviews.

HolyHolla: I like this bit, "... I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.
Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and whatever else
mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue..."

Maybe finally, we can all put this behind and move on.

Ese moved on long ago....but for Biodun fatoyinbo to shamelessly be lying in front of the church, claiming it was his enemies who saw COZA's newly acquired land that came up with this stories is disgraceful....hopefully his "robust reply" will come before Jesus returns

belabela:

Ese moved on long ago....but for Biodun fatoyinbo to shamelessly be lying in front of the church, claiming it was his enemies who saw COZA's newly acquired land that came up with this stories is disgraceful....hopefully his "robust reply" will come before Jesus returns

Emmmmm. Belebela, you sure say you no be Ese Walter..? Cos I'm 98% sure that as a blogger she should be here on NL.

HolyHolla: I like this bit, "... I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free myself of the bondage I put myself in.
Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews and whatever else
mailing me, I have nothing more to say on this issue..."

Maybe finally, we can all put this behind and move on.

God forbid that we put this issue behind us. The only way to move on is to go get the evidences she's talking about and get to the root of this shameful act.

rubbish!
u think say i no get job,please I get money to count jor.

Now, who is this "respectable minister" she released the evidence to? Well, hope no be 4 inside hotel room she take release d evidence dis tym again.

demelza:
God forbid that we put this issue behind us. The only way to move on is to go get the evidences she's talking about and get to the root of this shameful act.

isn't that being petty? the way she has gone about it and the above has increased my respect for her. she has moved ahead, have you?

She is being used by d devil and will live to regret this. There are better ways to stardom, She is simply on d wrong route. All these people sympathizing with her on this 'tales by moonlight' will not be there when the wrath of God will descend on her. This piece may not make much sense to her now but wen it does, do let me know. #my2cents.

I do have respect for Ese. I hope the pastor comes forward to either debunk this 'allegation' or accept it and ask for the grace to move on. Well, I believe Ese because she has mentioned this before n didn't want to mention the pastor's name. People should accept that he is also a man so therefore he can sin, it's just not a case of discrediting him or his congregation.

demelza:
God forbid that we put this issue behind us. The only way to move on is to go get the evidences she's talking about and get to the root of this shameful act.

I feel you, but wouldn't this amount to ghost hunting? The pastor refuses to talk and the Church elders like PFN refuse to intervene, probably fearing what the scandal could do to them too. If God wants to expose any of the two accused further, I believe He has a way of doing that. But methinks we have dwelled so much on it as humans without any way forward, so I will prefer we all move on until God decides to directly intervene. Noone has anything to gain from staying long on the imbroglio. We have stayed too long on this mountain; time to evangelize and win souls. That's what Jesus asked us to do.

Hmmm

I so love this ese walter!!

Pls where's the evidence. Is it in the video? I can see ghandi.

Chanchit: If the holy spirit really lives in this pastor, he for don tell am not to phuck a psycho.

This gurl don turn celeb' o, she's even declining interviews.

both Ese and pastor Biodun are clearly unkown to me!

m-ployer:
She is being used by d devil and will live to regret this. There are better ways to stardom, She is simply on d wrong route. All these people sympathizing with her on this 'tales by moonlight' will not be there when the wrath of God will descend on her. This piece may not make much sense to her now but wen it does, do let me know. #my2cents.

You must be hallucinating, so because a girl demands that one randy pastor should correct his ways,she has invited the wrath of God on herself. Your type are the ones who will follow pastor into hell. Has the pastor admitted or rebuffed it? NO. My God is a just God,I guess you don't know your bible.

Why didn't she release the evidence to the public? Who is this respected Man of God she gave the evidence to?

m-ployer:
She is being used by d devil and will live to regret this. There are better ways to stardom, She is simply on d wrong route. All these people sympathizing with her on this 'tales by moonlight' will not be there when the wrath of God will descend on her. This piece may not make much sense to her now but wen it does, do let me know. #my2cents.

I quite agree with you dude

Can someone pls help me summarise that copy n paste.
Thanks in anticipation,,I will be back soon.

Ese of life...this babe eh! she don turn christianity upside down. its good that we sit down and take notes. all d mega churches in Nigeria and the country still looks like a war zone.

so where are the elect of God? only christians on sunday, within the confines of the church.

Something is actually fishy here, the FB page, Twitter Account and Blog were pulled down immediately she made the confession and now coming up with this information. I'm not against you confessing or trying to free your mind, but enough of turning the social media attention unto yourself. Live the new life you have discovered to the fullest and move on.



OK....

Another shameless move from Ese

whatever stopped her from turning down the pastors moves if this is really true

Lips sealed.

Ehen!

Na wa o

i no blame those nairaland kids wey dey always type...











END TIME!!!

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amiskurie: rubbish!
u think say i no get job,please I get money to count jor.

are you part of the gang that robbed the bank on my street yesternight?





No offence bro

Just asking

I'm waiting for the next update in this unending cheating chronicle. . . She's written to God, to Nigerians. . . who else?. . . ohhh! Aliens!!!