omo17:

Thanks for your input

please make sure that you get help

kally90:
please make sure that you get help

I will surely do, thanks once again

Blackfyre:

Yes ma....btw....olori come born obalola for me na...

. Wehdone sah

You have to be strong. If you cant - nobody will be instead of you. I am wholeheartedly with you though. Just dont give up.

Most of what you mentioned above are just heart conditions/diseases that can be cured by treating and cleansing the heart of all impurities. I used to be severely depressed and the truth is, google/the Internet is the depot of misinformation. You would be surprised what just iron supplement could do for you. As you might have heard, you are what you eat. I read of a pastor that had a “mental illness” that gradually strips you of every ability (walking, talking, holding things etc), after trying everything the medical world could offer, he got a revelation to change his diet to plant based and he gradually regained all his “mental” abilities. The truth of the matter is that you can't win this without JESUS.

All is well

So OP Lance, go for some lab test to check if you are deficient in some vitamins such as your vitamin D levels, iron, zinc etc. Start eating healthy food, very less white rice and more beans, fish, vegetables. Make exercises your friend-be sure to spend at least one hour exercising - running, strength training etc

Bro we need to talk. Please can I have your Whatsapp number or any number? Trust me, we should really talk. Thank you.

Trust me I totally relate with what you're going through, especially OCD /OCDP am equally battling with Hypochondriasis (

Illness anxiety disorder (IAD)

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

For starters,I used to think I was the only one that this sh*t is happening to or happened to,but its cool tho... So this is my candid advice to you..
1. Go the hospital and see a psychologist cos trust me when u hear the word psychiatrist,your OCD will start telling you that you are crazy, but I beg of you wave that of, cause they are actually going to listen to you in more ways that you can never imagine and you are gkingto be glad you did.
2. Sleep more and from experience I know u find it hard to sleep for long or when u finally sleep its usually abnormal...so I recommend you tale blood tonics and I mean regularly it will enable you eat and sleep well (take asteefat) syrup REGULARLY.
3. Avoid smoking (IF YOU DO) Like cigarette,weed,shisha or even anything that contains nicotine like even Lipton sef don't drink.
4. Avoid anything that gets you unnecessarily heightened like alcohol...cos when you are drunk you start having unnecessary thoughts.
5. Make new friends,have fun go out meet new people of you want to tho,like all in all SOCIALIZE.go see a movie.
6. If you want you can have great sex without attachments or the lovey dovey ish,cos trust me one heart break or breakup and you are back to square one and even worse.
7. And if you can't make time or you are scared to go to see the doctor cos of whatever might be said I advise you at least take the blood tonic and eat more fruits. Yh I know cos trust me even when I went I didn't stay for
long,so trust me I understand.
And honestly if you don't do anything abt any of the aforementioned and you just keep to yourself doing nothing .. You gonna start having panic attacks at the slightest opportunity and trust me ITS BAD!!!!
You can also download Korean comedy movies,it helps too ... Yh for me I download movies and became an Instagram addict...
AND DONT FORGET YOUR DOCTOR AND BLOOD TONICS..secret tip: Whenever you are having the thoughts and you feel its getting out of hand try to wave it of as hard as you can and be calm..like always say it out like stop it or somtin just talk out loud and be calm and try to sleep or play games on your phone...OK?
Good luck tho!

COOL10:
. I won't say I totally understand ur pain but partially,because I've had my fair share of depressive moments. I'll focus on the religious aspect since others have dealt with the other necessary parts. I say it's necessary because you've most likely been misinformed on the issues of Christianity which to a large extent is the fault of the involved churches. Christianity isn't a religion. I repeat CHRISTIANITY IS NOT A RELIGION. It is a renewed relationship with God our father through his son Jesus Christ. U'r not meant to do anything before God does anything for you. The blessings of God come naturally to anyone who BELIEVES and not anyone who tries to compel God to help you. You can't ask Him to do what he already did. He won't do it. That's the whole point of being separated from the law and being brought into a lifestyle where grace abounds and princes live. Anyone who tells u otherwise is lying to you. Pls try joining a FAITH BASED church like Christ Embassy or House on the rock,let them teach u the word of God,even places u never knew existed,the way it's meant to be taught. If u have time u can also watch Creflo Dollar and Bill Winston every night on the 'FAITH' channel. Ur life will spin around remarkably in the best way possible. U'r blessed bro. It's up to you to believe and stay that way.

Smh.... No wonder...

Gungnir:



Smh.... No wonder...

Me, I am shaking both my head and my legs. Gungnir gave the most naïve and indeed naïve advice ever. Rubbish. Join Christ Embassy for treatment of OCD. Again Rubbish

Investnow2017:


Me, I am shaking both my head and my legs. Gungnir gave the most naïve and indeed naïve advice ever. Rubbish. Join Christ Embassy for treatment of OCD. Again Rubbish

That wasn't my advice oh, my reply was that the church or churches he mentioned are absolute crap!

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

Bro I understand you very well. I suffer from social anxiety disorder. I think it all started as stuttering. I would hit my foot on the floor many times just to pronounce a word. Morning devotion is a nightmare - my heart races out of my chest, receiving phone calls is difficult for me, meeting people of authority makes me so nervous I feel like I should run to Mars. Relationship? i have never had one in my life bit almost had and am a handsome dude I know. I haven't been able to get a job cos interviewers think am not sure of myself or I find it hard to pronounce words I think of saying. It used to be worse cos I would nearly not even attend the interview. Racing heartbeat almost all throughout the day. I haven't told anyone. I shared little of my experience one time when I saw someone with a similar condition audition of X factor UK and responses of people were just out of naivety.

Yours would be generalized anxiety disorder. The good news is mine has subsided with age and I think yours will too also. I presently feel frustrated actually. I won't judge you about what you think of christianity cos I have felt the same way many times but God spoke to me a lot as a lonely fearful child and I feel like He doesn't care now that am an adult. I have once been very dedicated and a I have a wonderful singing voice but my anxiety has stopped me from shining

Cozydaniel:
Bro we need to talk. Please can I have your Whatsapp number or any number? Trust me, we should really talk. Thank you.

One of the symptoms of the problem is talking to unfamiliar people even talking to most familiar people is difficult how much more discussing vital issues with a someone you just met.

Gungnir:


That wasn't my advice oh, my reply was that the church or churches he mentioned are absolute crap!

I am very sorry dear. Very sorry. I think I misquoted you.

Soursop, which has botanical name Annona muricata is a fruit that originates from South America, South East Asia, and Africa. Everybody knows that the soursop fruit will bring you a lot of benefits for your health, but how about the leaves? Are they also have benefits for people’s health? That’s what we will find out in this article.
Recently, some researchers said that soursop leaves have a super effect to treat various kinds of disease, even the complicated one. Yes, it is finally revealed that soursop leaves will offer you tons of greatness for your body. Here are the health benefits that you could get from soursop leaves.
1. Prevent Diabetes
Health benefits of soursop leaves for diabetes could be the best one. Some studies evidence that the leaves of soursop could stabilize and maintain the blood sugar level in your body at the normal range, between 70 mg up to 120 mg. Also the soursop leaves are commonly known for its efficacy against any disease that can cause diabetes like obesity and high sugar levels in the body.
2. It’s Good For Your Back Pain
You could suffer from a back pain, anytime, anywhere, especially when you’re exercising. Soursop leaf is one of the best herbal cure for your back pain without any side effects, rather than you are throwing your money to buy prescribed medication that might heal your back pain, but always have a side effect for the other parts of your body.
If you want to use this soursop leaves to cure your back pain, you should take 20 soursop leaves, add them into 5 cups of boiling water. After that, you are suggested to drink it immediately, at least once per day to relieve your back pain.
3. Prevent Uric Acid
Some studies also evidence that soursop leaves could protect you from the disease associated with uric acid, such as gout. Or if you already have one, soursop leaves could cure your gout. Soursop leaf is widely known for its use for alternative medication and as a natural source to treat the gout.
If you want to use soursop leaves to cure your gout, you should boil the soursop leaves in 2 cups of water and simmer it until one cup of water remained. Then, you can drink it immediately and for the best result, you should take these ingredients twice a day, in the morning and in the evening.
4. Stay Away from Boils
Boils sometimes occur in the random place in your skin, whether it appears on your face or other parts of your body, and it is so disturbing since it will affect your appearance, thus also affect your confidence. Boils will also lead to an infection that might be hazardous to your skin. Soursop leaf offer you the solution as it also commonly known as the herbal remedies for boils. If you want to use soursop leaves to cure the boils, you should take some young soursop leaves and rub them to the place that the boils occur.
5. Treatment of Eczema
Soursop leaves also have the benefits to treat any disease associated with eczema in a natural way. To heal yourself from eczema, you could mash some soursop leaves until they become smooth, and then you could rub those soursop leaves onto the area affected by eczema. After you rub them in the area affected by eczema, they can help you to relieve the pain caused by that disease.
6. Treatment of Rheumatics
If you’re getting old, the opportunity that you will suffer from a disease called rheumatics will be bigger. Soursop leaves will offer you the solution to cure any pain caused by arthritis like rheumatics. If you want to use soursop leaves as herbal medication to fight against rheumatics, the step is very similar with the way when you want to use them to treat eczema. You could mash some soursop leaves until they become smooth and apply it on the body affected by pain caused by arthritis twice a day constantly.
7. Treating Hemorrhoids
Hemorrhoids is a kind of disease that can attack the rectum. This disease could be very dangerous because it can make the rectum bleeding, thus it is surely very painful to feel for every patient suffering from hemorrhoids.
If you want to protect your rectum from this disease or if you want to relieve the pain caused by this disease, soursop leaf is very beneficial for you. Soursop leaves contain compounds that can stop the bleeding of the rectum and it also can make the muscles around your rectum become more relaxed than before, thus it will relieve the pain caused by hemorrhoids.
8. Protect You From Cholesterol
Since bad cholesterol levels in your body could increase suddenly due to your unhealthy lifestyle, you might be wondering what kind of herbal source that can help you to get rid of this bad cholesterol levels away from your body. Some studies evidence that soursop leaves might also be very beneficial for lowering the bad cholesterol levels in your body. Soursop leaves contain some compounds that can diminish the bad cholesterol levels out of your body.
9. Treating Liver Ailments and Lowering Glucose Levels
Soursop leaves, if you mix it with a tea, will treat liver ailment because soursop leaves could stimulate the production of insulin hormone by aiding the beta cells in the pancreas. Beside treating liver ailments, soursop leaves also can lowering your glucose levels because of the increase in insulin hormone production, which will transform the glucose into an energy.
10. Anti-Aging Compounds
Soursop leaves contain a high amount Vitamin C, which will very beneficial to release antioxidant that can fight against free radicals. Free radicals can cause a lot of problems for your skin’s health associated with signs of ageing such as wrinkles, fine line, and heavy pigmentation that can affect your appearance in overall. This antioxidant will protect you from those symptoms, thus you will be more confident than before.
11. Relieves Pain
According to some studies, soursop leaves contain analgesic properties in it, which will be very beneficial to relieve pain, either internally or externally. You can apply it internally by chewing it, or you can also apply it externally by putting it in your open wounds. In case of excessive pain, you could boil about 20 soursop leaves and mix it with the water, and drink it at least once per day, each in the morning and in the evening.
12. Promotes Sleep
Do you know that soursop leaves would be very useful to help you get a better sleep’s quality? Soursop leaves are also can be used to promote sleep because they are a good source of aromatherapy. This soursop leaf aromatherapy will make you become relaxed and thus, you will get a quality sleep at night. So, if you are suffering from insomnia, you could try this herbal aromatherapy.
13. Protect Your Hair From Lice
Sometimes it could be really hard to keep your hair healthy because of the exposure of environmental pollutant and the direct sunlight when we’re doing our daily routine. Those incident can causes many problems that can treat the health of our hair such as dandruff, hair loss, premature greying, and split ends. If you want to keep the health of your hair, soursop leaf is one of the herbal source that you must consider since it has some capabilities to inhibit the growth of parasites which could be really harmful for your hair.
14. Treating Cancer
Benefits of Soursop for cancer already very popular in some south east asia, with amazing evidence. This is may be the most important benefits from soursop leaves. Many studies suggested that soursop leaf is really potent to protect you from any disease associated with cancer, such as lung cancer, colon cancer, breast cancer, prostate cancer, etc. One of the biggest studies that already been conducted say that the compounds in a soursop leaf can inhibit cancer cells and can cure cancer more quickly and more efficiently compared with the advance chemoteraphy method.
Specifically, soursop leaves have active compounds that can fight against cancer cells 10000 times stronger than advance chemoteraphy. So, rather than spend big amounts of money to pay your chemoteraphy, you should consider these magical soursop leaves which are more potent and also, their efficacy against cancer cells have already proven.
More Soursop Leaves Benefits
Here are the lists of health benefits of soursop leaves for overall treatments:
1. Antibacterial: Soursop leaves is the natural sources to kill bacteria on body.
2. Antivirus: Soursop leaves has the ability to prevent virus to grow.
3. Anti-tumor: Thus, you can take soursop leaves to prevent tumor.
4. Anti-parasite: Resistance the parasite to grow.
5. Anti-Malaria: To prevent malaria.
6. Diuretic: Soursop Leaves has the substances to promote diuresis.
7. Vermifuge: The anthelmintic medicine.
8. Astringent: To minimize dry skin.
9. Antimutagenik: Substances to prevent gene mutation.
10. Analgesic: To lower the pain.
11. Nervin: To strengthen nerve.
12. Anti-inflammation: To lower the pain of inflammation.
13. Hypoglycemic: Soursop leaves have the substance to lowering glucose.
14. Galactogogue: To produce more breast milk for mother.
15. Cardio-depressant: Hold heart activity.
16. Vasogilator: Substances for blood vessel.
Soursop Leaves Consumption Tips
So you already know that soursop leaves will bring you tons of greatness for your health. Here are some tips for everyone of you who want to use soursop leaves to cure your diseases, so you will get the full advantage from these magical leaves.
1. Soursop Leaves as a Tea
You can use soursop leaves as an herbal tea if you want a natural and refreshing beverage. This soursop tea will be very essential to drink if you want to protect yourself from any cancers. Here are the steps how to make a healthy soursop tea.
• Firstly, you need to boil a cup of water.
• Take for about 3 to 5 fresh and dried soursop leaves, and then tears them apart into small pieces.
• Take those soursop leaves’ pieces in the boiling water, and then wait for about 30 minutes to allow it to boil at a moderate temperature.
• After 30 minutes, strain the tea.
• A hot, healthy soursop tea is ready to serve. You might need to add a little bit of sugar or honey, so it wouldn’t be too bitter.
2. Soursop Leaves as Cancer Treatment
In case you want to use soursop leaves to protect yourself against cancer, you could also boil for about 10 soursop leaves in 3 cups of water. Simmer it until one cup of water remained, strain the soursop leaves,and this beverage is ready to serve. You should consume it twice a day in the morning and in the evening. Besides that, you could also consume it to cure yourself from uric acid and protect you from diabetes.
3. Soursop Leaves to Cure External Problems
As already mentioned above that soursop leaves could applied externally to cure the boils, wounds, pain caused by arthritis, or other external problems. You can pick soursop leaves and then you mash them until they become smooth. After that, you can rub the mashed soursop leaves to the area of the body that affected with boils, wounds, or pain.
Soursop Leaves Side Effects and Warnings
While the soursop leaves will bring you the tons of greatness for your body, like any other leaves, they also have some side effects that you should consider before you try to apply them in to your body, whether internally or externally. Here are some side effects that you should consider.
1. Parkinson Disease
Some studies evidence that soursop leaves have chemical compounds that also present in a human who suffering from Parkinson. So, every one of you who has a history of Parkinson disorder or currently suffering from it need to avoid soursop leaves since they might will make your symptoms become worse than before.
2. Neurotoxicity Problem
According to some researchers, consuming soursop tea over-frequently will bring you a problem related to neurotoxicity. Neurotoxicity is a kind of brain damage that can eventually disrupt the neurons. The symptoms of this neurotoxicity disorder is really dangerous, such as memory loss, headache, and sexual dysfunction. So, you should consume soursop tea in moderate amounts. If you consume it 2 or 3 cups per day, you will be safe and there will be no harmful effects on your body, including this neurotoxicity problem.
3. Low Blood Pressure Level
There are some experiments conducted on animals evidence that soursop leaves can reduce the blood pressure level in the body. So, it would very dangerous if people with low blood pressure consume it and they must avoid it at all cost. But, if you have high blood pressure, you should also watch out about the dosage of these leaves that you must consume since over-frequently consume it can lead you to various problems like neurotoxicity as already mentioned above, and also vomiting or nausea.
Now you already know all about soursop leaf from its benefits until its side effects. So, right now, if you want to stay healthy, mainly if you want to protect yourself from cancer, you must make the full benefits of these soursop leaves. Since the greatness of these soursop leaves now already revealed, it is essential for you to not just pick the soursop fruit out of the soursop trees because the soursop leaves also offer you a lot of advantages to keep you stay healthy.

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LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

That's deep bro.

I understand to some extent.

But from what I know on the matter, Being on medication controls these illnesses to some extent. aren't u taking drugs?

Probz:


It’s a long story but psychosis is the price humans have to pay for language and since black people are the original people and Igbo’s the original world language there’s not one place in the world that experiences the positives and negatives of human language as much as we do. Swindling and fraud (419)’s in a similar league and that’s why there’s more Igbo swindlers than anyone else. It’s a long story but that’s the meat and bones.

The progenitors of human language experience all the positives and negatives that come with language. It’s no mad conspiracy theory even, most people just don’t know about it

This is very meaningless bro.

PrecisionFx:


This is very meaningless bro.

Have a degree in medicine, do you?

Come on now, what's up Lance? How you holding up? I hope you are better..
Well, I'm still depressed, still suffer from anxiety...
We all have to face our demons, buh a select few like ourselves have to face a legion...
You see my man,, it's all prove we are genius, I recall someone saying 'fitting a v12 in a corolla'...
Seeing your post for the first time a couple years back made me tear up...fast forward to now, same old shiii...depression is messed up, you lose interest in everything that once made you happy..."I've held hands with the grim reaper" trust me, suicide might seem like solace...BUT DONT YOU DARE...this world needs us...
You see, the worst kind of loneliness comes from being misunderstood... It could make you lose your grasp on reality....accept the things you can't change, have the courage to change those you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference between what you can and cannot change....being a mechanical engineer should normally increase every normal person's self esteem, but it don't for me..."to thine own self be true" , you're not normal, you're something much greater... Do what you must, everyone has their ways of coping... But discipline is key...
An unexamined life isn't worth living...
Life is too short to be sad for so long...
Don't just exist, live. love. Always Strive and Prosper...
I wrote an entire mixtape on D/A "the Lonerz Boulevard" ... You should listen to it...
There's always that one thing you feel like you're really good at...for me it is Music, I'm still a nerd tho, I love coding, aerodynamics, gaming, but the propensity to participate in those fluctuates... Just never let go.. Remember, it's all in your head...the marathon continues... God help us all

Same with me