Not a year ago, I was anti-religion person but then I started to go to one of the nearby Orthodox church with my relative and pray for a God I totally doubt his existence. I was on lots of problems for past few years so it started to comfort me. I really do want God or some sprite form to exist but it’s hard for me to believe in it after all those years being anti God/sprite/etc. What I really hope if God or sprite truly exist is for them to show me signs that they do indeed exist so I not only use religion for temporary comfort but also for purpose in life.