happy200:
yea, drank battery acid i vomited a lot of blood after that i had severe heart burn for 6 months. My gullet were all damaged after the treatment even now i don't wanna stay alife but the fear of what i passed through then can't let me try it again.

21Bandit:

They other ways to do it
Yours was too brutal.....
Can help you out with an easy process

PastorAji:
I passed through that valley few months ago

TheLoser:

How

elizbeth111:
i won't call mine depression because i've not thought of sucide yet..but i pray i pass through this phase and come out victorious.. i pray someone somewhere will come to my aid

jessca048:
yesterday night I slept before sleeping I prayed I should never wakeup again to face this world

theworldbest:
Always had dat suicidal thoughts...my daughter is wat is still keeping me

Ridhw0n:
Alright brothers I've read from page 1 to 3 and I've got something to say too

I'm really happy for those that have passed through this stage and survive and for those of us still in this phase of life i pray God be our guidance.

In a nutshell i would like to share my story too.

Firstly I'm an IT student here in Lagos for the period of six months.

It all started July 2018 exactly the day of Portugal vs Uruguay. My mummy sent me 100k to buy a laptop for my younger bro here in Lagos. It happened that i was so broke then that i can't even afford a plate of food. People around me were busy making money out of football by punting (betting). I quickly made a rash decision i could make some money too since i'm good at prediction and i could even do better by staking high on a relatively low odds. In no time i picked my phone log on to the internet and registered on bet9ja. I credited my bet9ja account with the money Mumc sent me and played some games. As devil would have it, i won all games making me more than 100k richer. I got so excited that i kept on punting throughout the whole week without losing a single game. By this time i had made more than 400k.

I decided to make a withdrawal of 190k so i could keep my bro 100k and have the 90k for myself. Within 24hrs the withdrawal was approved i got the money. By this time i had 250k left in my bet9ja account, so i was thinking of how to make it 500k and cease punting. I didn't know the devil was about to reason my matter. I used same strategy as before but the money continue deprecating as i continue to lose terribly. Within 4days i lost the whole 250k but i didn't give up as i deposited 70k from the withdrawal i made before. I lost the whole 70k within few days also yet i still believe i can make it by depositing the remaining 100k. Now back to square one with a burning desire and confidence to win but as devil wants it i lost it all. By this time i was -100k which means i was owing a debt of 100k.

I started making calls to friends and family to borrow money with different lies yet i was still losing it to this devil. I helped my sister changed her Gtb account transfer password so i know it off-hand. With the spirit that i can still make it, i transferred the sum of 120k from her account yet i lost it all same for Grandma's 50k.

By this time I've already learnt my mistake and realised the devil was using me but i need to get back all this money that ain't mine. This, was the only reason i continued to engaged in punting and when i lose i feel so depressed and suicidal.

Just last week i won about 140k which gave me hope that things are getting back to normal but my debt was 350k so i needed to punt more so i could win more and pay off all debts and say bye bye to devil. But in less than a day i lost it all and back to square one.

By this time i had no means of getting money and friends are calling me already for there money. I've to block most numbers and most times switched off my phone to avoid calls or messages. Now i look so wretched and sick from drepession because till now grandma and my sister are not aware that i had transferred all there savings and by October is my sister's freedom from her place of work. So as days goes by so does the intense of my depression and suicidal thoughts.

Yesterday Mumc sent me 45k, 20k for the balance of the laptop and 25k for Grandma to celebrate sallah. I thought i could use the money to punt and win some amount of money so i could buy the laptop but yet again i lost it all.

Right now suicide is the only option i have left as i think I'm possessed or been cursed.

I've the desire to quit but what about the money i'm owing which is about 400k. I've lost everything and now i realised albeit I'm a first class student in academics I'm nothing but a loser in real life.

In the end if I'm lucky to survive this I'll notify this group, if not know i had taken a bold decision. And i hope somebody learnt one or two things from my post. Please be contented with whatever you've and don't be greedy.

Thanks for reading.

Lily4star:



Thanks for sharing. The Lord is your strength. Please quit as it is now and don't ever get tempted back

IamTeen:
I'm just a teen, 17. But i've been depressed since i lost my dad the year 2009. So many things has contributed to my depression which i will list below.


1. Mom treats me like second class. My elder brother always gets that first class treatment. I get all the blames, i'm always misunderstood and insulted. She claims i'm the source of her troubles. But whenever my brother's gone to school, she begins to show love.


2. My brother bullies me almost everyday through physical abuse(he's muscular) and verbal abuse. He uses me as a punching bag and he claims there's a demon in me.


3. Family debts. Mum is planning to take a loan to pay my brother's school fees, we haven't even paid last year's rent. Right now, i don't know if i'll go to school if my admission clicks.


4. I have no friends.



I have resolved several times to take my life but i just can't. What painless method can i use? i'm sick and tired of this world. I'm super lonely and i have no life in me.

Ridhw0n:
Thanks ma'am
I'm putting in some effort

HardMirror:
Most times when we talk about suicide or discuss people who committed suicide, we often blame them or label them cowards. It is also popular to hear people say those who commit suicide would end up in hell as punishment.

Let us not be quick to judge those who commit suicide.

Depression is real and it can be very overwhelming.
Truth is it hurts when a loved one takes his/her life but we should not be quick to use that single act to judge such people.


I have suffered depressing at several points of my life and i understand how it can be. It only ends in suicide when:

1. You keep to yourself: share the problem with friends.
2. Have close friends and family members that you can share your burdens with.
3. Look at the big picture. Your problem most times is not as bad as you think. Ask yourself 'What is the worst thing that would happen?'
Then ask yourself aint there people in worse situations?
4. Laugh at yourself and call yourself stvpid. yeah we all very stvpid. You broke? Damn! Laugh at yourself. Your bf/gf just broke up with you? Laugh! In serious debt? Laugh!
5. Consult with others on the problem, get different perspectives even if you dont let them know you are the one in the situation


Have you ever had suicidal thoughts? Share with us here

HardMirror:
you have messed up. I have lost nothing less than 5 million to betting now but i wont bother telling my story. But just move on. Admit your fault already and stop trying to recover

labake1:




Yes my first heart break made me think of suicide. I drank sniper but nothing happened then I believed that I am on earth to do something great

HardMirror:
not worth it. If anyone breaksup with you it is a victory for you. Only shows it was not meant to work. So you move on.

Ridhw0n:
Thanks brother
I've learn and would try to move on. I'll try to involve my parents even though it'd be toughest decision i ever made.

labake1:



I can't cope with heart break. I over love and that is my problem

HardMirror:
great people always make mistakes in life. Only average people live uneventful, unadventurous lives. Most big thinkers are big risk takers. You succeed -good. You fail -you are finished. That is life. Billionaires you see today did not get there by playing by the rules. If they had failed with the risks they took many of them would have totally ruined their lives. Balance is key! You have a great mind. Risk only what is yours and you can afford to lose, dont stop taking risks, only take calculated risks

fcnaxo:
seek Help

Found solace here

Bluezy13:
Yea...

The very day I had an F-grade in the university.
Since I never did carry out the act, nothing else has and would ever make me feel that depressed again.

You would understand if you knew how brilliant I was academically in high school and then expectations that followed suit from the school, friends, family, Myself, the society at large.

The memory makes me realize how stupid I was when the society does not even give a fvck about my existence let alone wellbeing.

jessca048:
yesterday night I slept before sleeping I prayed I should never wakeup again to face this world

theworldbest:

Thanks guys...una do well

TheLoser:
What will be will be What if there is nothing keeping you Nobody to live for no Parents no Wives no Lover, no friends, no Child nothing

Dasherz:
I've tried and failed thrice now dad opens the door to my room first thing in the morning everyday to check up on me

Image123:


Suicide is like the atheist normal plan B. Don't commit suicide please.