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Re: Undecided by jupitre(m): 8:56pm On Apr 01, 2020
Seriously...See the way you turned it around... Guy what's this na��
Nice bro..Nice
Re: Undecided by jupitre(m): 9:30am On Apr 04, 2020
Moura7,hope all is well.. It's unlike you to be this silent
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 7:21pm On Apr 04, 2020
Moura7,hope all is well.. It's unlike you to be this silent
Lol...I know man. I'm chasing money now, when I settle then ideas would start flowing trust me. Pls bear with me
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 7:23pm On Apr 04, 2020
Plus the comments on this episode is kinda low, looks people don't like the present turnout
Re: Undecided by Garphar(m): 7:47pm On Apr 04, 2020
the present turnout is okay @moura7 We are waiting for the next episode
Re: Undecided by abubakarbabang7(m): 8:28pm On Apr 04, 2020
Moura7 pls na update for us
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 12:51pm On Apr 05, 2020
Fola's POV

"No no this can't be, you can't die now, not when we haven't lived our lives to the fullest ...maybe together", I mumbled to myself as I paced back and forth the hallway of the Manuel's airport.
A chopper had been flown to the borders of Cameroon with a search party to find Dibz and the pilot or possibly their bodies...no God forbid.
What I'm feeling now is just indescribable, the pain is much intense than anything I've ever witnessed. It's so intense that if Dibz turns up dead, I might just kill myself. Yes, like literally poison myself or shoot myself in the head cus I don't think I'd be able to live with the guilt that I'm responsible for this unfortunate outcome.
Just like that, my hateful and inhumane behavior towards him begins to hit consecutively leaving no breathing space at all. The way I always played down his attempts to talk to me , or my despicable reactions to his acts of goodwill towards me. I look back now at how out of our clique of friends then, I was the only one that didn't stick by him. I even told him that I wished that he dies or remains in prison forever, oh wicked I had been. "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry pls don't die pls, pls don't die", I cried.
"Where is he, Fola, where is he?", Josh shouted barging into the hallway where I was. I had called him as soon as I took Olivia home to rest after she fainted. I didn't know who to call cus I didn't have any of his parents number and Debbie and I weren't exactly on speaking terms besides she's still out of the country.
"He..he..hehe...he is.ahh", I tried but failed to speak as I was still sobbing.
"He's what...I said where is Dibz, where's my best friend?", He shouted, shaking me vigorously this time.
"Pls Sir, we would appreciate it if you brought your voice down and calm down", one of the attendants cautioned him.
"In answer to your question, a search team has been sent to look for Mr Manuel and the pilot , we haven't heard back from them since but hopefully they'd reach us soon, so I'll advice you to pray instead of shouting on the poor girl here", the attendant continued.
"Thanks ma'am, pls forgive my manners. I'll do just that", Josh apologized.
"Sorry too Fola, I understand that you're also as shaken up by this but just know something if anything happens to him, I'll never forgive you cus I know you have something to do with him wanting to leave just like that", He said , a look of pain on his face.
I just sobbed harder cus it's all true, it's my fault that Dibz's in this situation now.
"Pls forgive me Josh, plss, I never meant for this to happen", I cried.
He just wiped his face off the tears that were now slowly trailing down his cheeks and then he walked away.
With hands shaking, I got out my phone to call Tiara. We haven't really been best of friends since I found out she was still seeing Dibz in prison then. Being my foolish self, I had stupidly given her an ultimatum to choose my being my friend or still sticking up for Dibz. Oh how foolish I had been blinded by my rage that I also lost my best friend. She picked up at the fourth ring.
T - What!
Fola -(still crying) T, pls don't hang up. Pls T, I need you now.
T - (feeling concerned now) what happened Fola, you don't sound well, are you crying, did that bastard Henry touch you?)
Oh, how stupid I had been, I was the one that pushed her away and here she is still concerned about me, ah.

Fola - no no T, Henry didn't do anything. It's Dibz, hes been involved in a plane crash and they haven't been able to find his body. T, it's all my fault, I'm sorry pls forgive me.

T - What?!...sshhshh don't worry ok? Stop crying, Dibz's a fighter, he's gon make it. Where are you now?

Fola - I'm ...I'm..I'm at the Manuel's airport now. The one in V.I

T - OK, I'll be there in a bit, just hang on and stop crying, he'll be fine.

Then she hung up. I sat down on the floor and bowed my head and for the first time in a long time, I prayed, begging God to pls save Dibz's life....... TBC


Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 12:54pm On Apr 05, 2020
I know this update is a bit stale but pls just manage it for now... hopefully when I'm done with the stuff I'm engaged with now. I'd post more often....Happy Sunday guys


Re: Undecided by temitope23(m): 1:38pm On Apr 05, 2020
I know this update is a bit stale but pls just manage it for now... hopefully when I'm done with the stuff I'm engaged with now. I'd post more often....Happy Sunday guys

Re: Undecided by quadri956(m): 4:06pm On Apr 05, 2020
Thanks for the update
Re: Undecided by zika19(f): 6:12pm On Apr 05, 2020
I'm sooooooo loving the story. Thanks for the update.
Re: Undecided by temitope23(m): 8:36pm On Apr 07, 2020
Nice work as usually @Moura7
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 8:19pm On Apr 08, 2020
Fola's POV

"Oh cmon girl, don't look so sad Dibz will be fine, I promise", T said as she arrived the reception.
I just ran into her open arms, the tears blinding my sight. Truthfully, I had been crying non stop since I've been here. Worst of all was the persistent recalls of Josh's words to me. However how harsh they had been, they were all true and I haven't just been able to be optimistic about this whole thing.
"I...I..I know I should be positive but what...what...what if...", I sobbed as I couldn't even complete a sentence.
"Shhhhhh", T cooed as she rubbed my hair as I sobbed into her chest.
"Don't say that, he'll be fine", she continued.
We had remained like that for like twenty minutes when the doors barged open and the medic team rushed through the doors pushing a stretcher carrying someone covers with bandages all over. A sob escaped my mouth as I quickly stood up and rushed towards them but I was restrained by one of the medic staff.
"What...what's wrong...is he okay?", I asked tearfully. "Please let me through, I need to see him, he needs me", I went on with waiting for a response. The staff still held me back as I fought tooth and nail to get through to them. T had to hold me back and now she was sobbing quietly. So much for her conviction that he'd be fine after a plane crash. Oh look what I've done, I thought as I fell down and cried.
"Please, is he still alive, how bad is it?", I asked the medic staff that was restraining me.
I didn't miss the look of pity on his face as he tried to speak. That look just seemed to confirm my fears that his condition was too bad, almost unsalvageable even.
"Uhm...he suffered a serious damage just below his shoulder blades and we haven't confirmed yet if his spine was broken or affected in any way, he also had his sides pierced by a metallic object so he lost some significant amount of blood but there weren't any major injuries done to his head so his brain function is still good", he said. I screamed as the news registered.He lost alot of blood and they don't know if his spine was affected? Ah I'm a murderer, look what the hatred I had groomed in my heart has caused. He might not be dead now but I might have as well killed him.
'Oh Dibz, I'm sorry , I'm so so so sorry, pls forgive me", I wailed as I rolled on the floor of the reception. By now, T had stopped trying to console me as she too had sat down on the floor , eyes watered with tears as they stared straight forward as if starinh into space.
"Dibz?....you mean the victim of the crash?", the medic staff asked this time. What is it with this one now? He was among the team that extracted him and now he's asking me if he's the one on the stretcher. I was too pained to lash out at him for asking such a stupid question so I just answered him plainly.
"Yes", I cried.
" Are you sure?", He asked. "Because the person was older and he had a sort of uniform on him when we found him, more like a pilot's and there was another victim, a younger male but his injuries weren't at all severe ,just some a dislocated arm".
At that statement, my eyes flew open and then I remembered the pilot had been on the plane too and that the figure of the person on the stretcher was slightly on the robust side but I had thought it was cause of the extreme bandaging.
As if on cue, Dibz walked in accompanied by some medic staff too, shirt torn and his right arm supported by a sling. I stood rooted to the spot as I watched him walk towards us, my heart became light all of a sudden as if a weight had been lifted off my chest, and then something happened, he stopped as his eyes fixated on me or maybe it was something behind me but I just didn't care as I stared back at him my mouth slightly ajar. Another thing happened, he smiled, like 'the I'm so pleased to see you kinda smile. OMG he smiled at me, after everything he still smiled at me, those captivating sparkling eyes of his shinning and just at me. My face lit up with a smile all by itself and then he opened his free hand as if welcoming me for a hug. My heart flipped as mind quickly went back to all the times I found ecstatic solace in his embrace and I smiled again, buy just as I took the first step to run towards his open arm, the main thing happened.....
Olivia ran past me and hugged him so tight that he almost fell down. He laughed as she soaked the crook of his neck with tears and spun her arms round his neck pulling him in for another hug. Ofcourse she had been the one he was smiling at, what was I even doing thinking that he just forgot about everything like that. There and then I knew I had lost him but I was overwhelmed with joy that he was still alive and ok but somehow that didn't seem to stop this feeling of jealousy that I wasn't the reason for that smile on his face in the trying times. Now someone else is the reason for that smile and that person is my cousin who I love so much but I also love Dibz too even more, it took him leaving to get me acknowledge that I never stopped loving him.

What do I do now?.....TBC

Another short update, I'm really sorry guys I've just been so busy lately that I always end so tired when I get back home, pls manage this small one for now and pls don't stop commenting. Stay safe.


Re: Undecided by BOMA2912(m): 4:22pm On Apr 09, 2020
Nice one bro.
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 1:00pm On Apr 10, 2020
Dibz's POV

It's been a week since the plane crash. During the one week I had spent three days at the hospital, not like I had any major injuries though, it's just my parents being overly protective and cautious. I got good news though, apparently my dad's health has been improving rapidly and trust him to start trying to get back to work but also trust my mum to keep him on a tight leash.
Another good news was that Debbie had finally come back to Nigeria, so I wasn't alone anymore but the only bad news was that I wasn't to leave again.
My folks had persuaded me to stay in Nigeria and finish my studies. They even went to the extent of threatening to lock up anyone that as much as said a single hateful word to me while I'm staying here. I agreed to stay to here so as not to worry them and also because I didn't think I'd be able to get on a plane again after the crash. I had developed some mild panic attacks, it had only happened once so far in the bathroom while no one was at home. I hadn't told anyone yet as I didn't want more fussing about me plus I knew they'd force me to see a therapist which I didn't like. The idea of baring my self out there to a stranger just didn't sit well with me no matter the whole client confidentiality' stuff they had.
After my parents and sister, Liv had been all up in my face, taking care of me. She made sure to come by the house after classes with my notes she had written for me and then she'd pamper me till she left. Sometimes, she'd even cook for me and boy, she cooked really well. She got off pretty well with Debbie and they became soul sisters just in a matter of hours. I smiled as i watched Debbie intimate her on my most embarrassing moments as a kid and smiled even more as her big beautiful eyes lit up and the sound of her laughter filled the room.
'Maybe I should give us a chance, maybe I could grow to love her', I thought to myself as I watched her and our eyes met. She smiled at me and turned fave away shyly with that look on her face. There was no mistaking of that look in her eyes, that look of love and admiration, I'd hate to be the reason that they die out, she's been there for me alot and this is the least I could do. I'll try to make things work between us.
'Hmm....is gratitude enough reason to commit to a relationship with someone you know loves you but you can't reciprocate that love because you still love another?', a voice in my head asked. I ignored the voice the voice as my mind had already been made up, but still that gnawing feeling of uncertainty about what I was signing up for still ate at me. That feeling that I was doing this because I felt I owed her.

I excused myself and went to the game room to blow off some steam with COD. I hadn't played up to an hour when Liv came I'm, pretty excited about something.
"Here you are, look look what Debbie got me", she said as she bubbled gleefully.
My mind was too engrossed in giving consecutive headshots to my enemies in the game that I just gave a lame 'yaayy' to her.
"Oh, you didn't just ignore me like that", she said as she jumped on me blocking my view in the process.
We laughed as we struggled with the gamepad and before we knew it, we had fallen off the couch and she was on top of me. We didn't move again as silence engulfed the whole atmosphere. Liv's eyes looked dazed as she looked at me and then my lips before she captured my lips with hers. I knew she was going to do this but still the shock that she actually did it didn't let me kiss her back or was it because it didn't feel right doing so?....
As if she noticed I was not kissing back, she pulled out, a look of embarrassment on her face coupled with welled up eyes. I felt really bad that I had caused this to her and I held her back as she attempted to stand up, but what I didn't know was when the words ;
'Will you be my girlfriend?", left my mouth...... TBC


Re: Undecided by Dibixxx1(m): 2:55pm On Apr 10, 2020
Hmmm......just hope he doesn't break this girl's heart
Re: Undecided by Herbiedeen(m): 6:20pm On Apr 10, 2020
Pesin no dey know for that kain situationPesin no dey know for that kain situationPesin no dey know for that kain situation

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Re: Undecided by jupitre(m): 7:22pm On Apr 10, 2020
That's irrational..
I see this relationship ending badly..
But then change is constant you know. He might grow loving her but I doubt it
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 8:02pm On Apr 10, 2020
Pesin no dey know for that kain situationPesin no dey know for that kain situationPesin no dey know for that kain situation
A new comment...that's good. Thanks man
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 8:03pm On Apr 10, 2020
That's irrational..
I see this relationship ending badly..
But then change is constant you know. He might grow loving her but I doubt it
Thanks man... always giving your takes on each episode. I really appreciate
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 8:03pm On Apr 10, 2020
Hmmm......just hope he doesn't break this girl's heart
Papi..thanks alot
Re: Undecided by juninhouj: 8:37pm On Apr 10, 2020
my first time commenting on this platform, and I must say, your doing a great job.......... Anyways, I want Dibz to fall in love with liv..... The saying that "you can't eat your cake and still have it" should be the case of Fola..... my opinion though.... thanks for the update
Re: Undecided by Faithfulmartins(m): 8:47pm On Apr 10, 2020
Wow! You're superb, I've been following your story since, all I can say is you're too good
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 9:02pm On Apr 10, 2020
my first time commenting on this platform, and I must say, your doing a great job.......... Anyways, I want Dibz to fall in love with liv..... The saying that "you can't eat your cake and still have it" should be the case of Fola..... my opinion though.... thanks for the update
Wow.. thanks alot man. I appreciate
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 9:03pm On Apr 10, 2020
Wow! You're superb, I've been following your story since, all I can say is you're too good
Another new face here...thanks man
Re: Undecided by Faithfulmartins(m): 10:24pm On Apr 10, 2020
Another new face here...thanks man
You're welcome
Re: Undecided by SugarBerry519(m): 7:50am On Apr 11, 2020
You are doing well.. waiting for the next update
Re: Undecided by bummybummy(f): 7:30pm On Apr 11, 2020
I love this story, kip it up
Re: Undecided by juninhouj: 10:19am On Apr 12, 2020
more updates pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 7:45pm On Apr 13, 2020
Fola's POV

GGGGRRRRRRRRRRIIII.....came my alarm buzzer signaling that it was time to wake up. I groaned as I turned ,using the pillow to cover my face as I wasn't yet ready to wake up. When it continued to ring, I angrily got up and smashed it against the wall and just like that it stopped. Thankfully, it wasn't my phone this time. Yeah I had smashed my phone one time when I still used it to set alarms. That experience had taught me to just buy an alarm buzzer instead for cases such as this where I might just have to smash it.
It's funny how we actually set this alarms ourselves to help us meet up a certain deadline but end up really angry when it actually performs the task we set it do.
Not finding it easy to ease back into sleep, I got up from bed and washed my face before walking downstairs to get something to eat. Oh I had cancelled going to school today because I'm still vexed with the stupid alarm clock, it just ruined my day without it even starting.
I passed by Liv's room and as usual she wasn't in, just like yesterday and the day before and the day before that. Ever since the plane incident, we've kinda grown apart, it's like there's this unspoken animosity between us and worst part is I don't know why or do I?
She had blamed me for the crash tho but I just assumed that she was just over stressed thinking if Dibz would survive and she was right , it was really my fault. She's been spending much of her time at his house lately and I don't know how that makes me feel. I know they've been good friends since and all but there's still that feeling that there's more to their closeness. Their show of affection at the airport when Dibz survived doesn't also help matters. I don't even know why I'm getting worked up about this matter, it's not like I have a right to feel jealous if they are really a thing, I messed up my chances and the least I can do is to be happy for them if they are a thing. Nah, I don't think I can stand it if they are really together, I'll just leave and go to some island and start over, but that would just be selfish of me, no, I must try hard and be happy for them along as they are happy.
As I laid upside down on the long couch listening to my playlist of heartbreak songs and a medium six
Re: Undecided by juninhouj: 7:53pm On Apr 13, 2020
Ahhhhhh...... so short Anyways thanks for the update
Re: Undecided by Moura7(m): 8:28pm On Apr 13, 2020
As I laid upside down on the long couch in the living room listening to my playlist of heartbreak songs with a medium sized bowl of ice cream by the side, I remembered all good times with Dibz and my friends and tears escaped my eyes as I realized how lonely I had become.
T was the only one who'd forgiven me ,even Debby wasn't talking to me again, I didn't even know she was back. Josh the same thing, although he wasn't icing me out he still greeted me occasionally whenever our parts crossed while everything was still good with Victor and Femi. It's all my fault and God knows I'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. It just a pity that it took the crash for me to realize all this a d what I would give to just have a chance to rewrite everything.
The bell rung interrupting my thoughts, it was then followed by the intercom informing me of the visitor. I sighed as I opened the door for Henry. He wore a worried face as he leaned and took in my appearance. I still hadn't told him I wanted a break up, i had wanted to do it but then the issue with Dibz came up and I just forgot.
"Hey you?", He said as he walked in.
"Hey", I replied as I plopped down on the couch.
"So you've been kinda MIA lately, almost like you've been avoiding me or something but I know that's not the case sha", he said sitting beside me. I shifted away slightly as I didn't really feel like being around him now or even forever. It's like I'm suddenly aware of how wrong I was by being with him, wondered what got into me. Still I have to let him know that things can't work out between us anymore and I need to be really polite about it.
"Uhm Henry, there's something I need to tell you", I said as I faced him. He looked at me and nodded urging me to go on.
"Uhmm....I...I..", I tried to say as I fiddled with my fingers but he cut me off.
"Sorry babe, I'm thirsty now had a long day at school today, can you get me a soda pls", he asked.
"Sure", I nodded as I walked to the fridge and threw him a can of Coke.
"Thanks",he said as he downed the contents almost immediately.
"Yh as I was saying, Henry you've been a great guy to me and I'm so lucky to have been with someone like you but I don't think I can go on with this relationship", I said softly. Damn, that sounded way better when I recited it in my head but in reality it sounded so pitiful. I need to remedy this fast.
"Uh...it's not you, I swear it's me. You didn't do anything wrong. I'm sure you'll find someone who would love you for your true worth. I'm not just that person and I'm sorry", I continued.
There was a loud silence in the room as I took in his pained face.
"Why now?", He asked quietly but you couldn't miss the death in his voice.
"It's because of him right?", He continues.
"Who?", I try to act like i don't know what he's talking about.
"Oh don't play dumb Fola, you know damn well I'm talking about Dibz. Oh wait, you think I'm a fool? Dude just gets out of prison for a month and suddenly you don't want a relationship with me again", he shouted. Now this is a side of Henry, I haven't seen before. He looks so so...I don't even know the word for it...so scary.
"Pls calm down Henry ,let's....", I try to plead , my back is plaster against the wall as I try to find an escape route out of here.
"Don't f**king tell me to calm down bitch. Oh you think you'd just use me and dump like that because he's back?..eh?', he shouts as he rushes towards me. I try to run but he grabs my hair and pulls me to me and his hand connects firm with my cheek. The bastard just slapped me and that's just not right. I yell as I gather my strength and kick him hard where the sun doesn't shine and he shrieks in pain. Even my dad hasn't not slapped me before. Still brewing in anger, I punch him hard in the jaw and a hot pain Sears through my knuckles. Damn punches are painful. As I set myself to deliver another blow, he catches my hand in the air and he headbutts me. I feel dizzy as I fall hard to the floor and blood seeps outta my nostrils. He uses the chance and climbs on me and starts tearing off the flimsy sleeveless loose gown I had on. Immediately, alarms bells go off in my head as realization of his intentions dawn on me. He pins both of my hands with his one hand as the other one fiddles with the zipper of his trousers. I beg and beg for him to stop but he doesn't listen. All of a sudden, he's yanked off me and thrown to the floor as I watched someone else rain punches on him repeatedly. Tears blind my eyes so I can't see who my saviour is clearly but I recognize that cologne even if I'm dead.
When Dibz doesn't stop with his onslaught on Henry and rush and hug him from the back and beg him to stop.
"Pls Dibz stop, you'll kill him", I say still holding him and he stops almost immediately. Henry uses that opportunity and runs out of my apartment. I fling myself at Dibz as I cry into his shoulderes while he just stands there, not even hugging me back but I don't care at all. All that matters is that he's here with me now. After staying like that for some minutes , he finally puts his arms around me as he soothes me and I feel like I'm in heaven. I release myself and stare at him as he pacifies me softly. He stops as he locks his eye with me too. I start to lean in as I get capitated in those eyes, even admit the screams of how wrong what I'm about to do is, I dont care as I continue to lean in, only for him to ...........TBC

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