I read a topic and felt encouraged to share my real life story. Some parts are tainted to shield my privacy however, they are the exact things that happened. I have had a few sexual encounter with guys but I wouldn't take mine as molestation totally because I initiated some of these encounters.

Growing up, I was a bit effeminate and it was known to me, my family members, and friends. I was exposed at a tender age and was allowed to have friends provided someone in my family knew about him/her. Although my parents were not so concerned about my classmates but they were about those I called my friends. I had a friend who as at age six, we would play together touching each other. We went to each other's home since we were near neighbors. Not sure if both parents knew what was going on and just chose to look the other way or they felt we were too innocent to be capable of touching, kissing, and humping we did at that age. He knew an ashewo joint that he took me to at around age nine where he likes the women touching him while I cringe or scream when they make attempts to touch me(I am not sure why though because even as at age 20, if a woman touches me, I cringe and it is usually obvious).

My first night as a boarder, I met a childhood friend as such, I did not sleep on my bed and chose to sleep with him in his dormitory. Right there on his 2(1/2) by 5 we kissed and did some humping. One thing was that I loved the sight of watching the older seniors naked and luckily, it was in the days when we had men as seniors with very big (long, thick, and veiny) pricks. I would wake up early and finish before others wake up and when the bell rings for morning portion, I was dressed for school so I can take my time to do mine. My morning portion for the most of my junior secondary school was cleaning the quadrangle (I don't know why it never changed until during extension in JSS3) these seniors walk past naked.

During one of my holidays, I had an encounter with my neighbour's son who was a year my senior in school. Anyways, that was my launch into the world of sex with guys. He shields me at school at least from my immediate seniors and I compensate him during the breaks by being bleeped by him. By the time he got to SS1 and I was in JS3, he had matured and his dick had gone almost twice its size, yet I couldn't say no. He would Bleep me everyday during the holiday to a point that I stopped coming home for midterm as a way to at least save myself that period. I couldn't tell my folks what was going on because while I wasn't enjoying it some days, it was glorious on others. Besides, how do I report a senior if I don't want to live the rest of my boarding life in misery?

In SS2, he stopped because then he got a girlfriend in school and told me never to tell anyone of our past (which I still do till date). I still cringe sometimes when I see him during festive holidays as we would likely be visiting our parents. Unfortunately as well, the sex I have had with guys when I feel the urge cannot be compared to his because though his was painful, it was also tender and sweet while others are just pains.

After secondary school while awaiting admission, he had a cousin who was visiting to prepare for JAMB with us. Unfortunately, the cousin took over from where he stopped. The cousin would come to our house to Bleep me and there was nothing I could do. Luckily for me, we all went to different universities and during my days in University, except for one Bleep I traveled for (a dude I met through americansingles.com), there was no sexual encounter.

After school, we got good jobs and then I launched back into my world of sex although, I contained it to a maximum of 3 to 4 times annually. My neighbor's son got married and I kept feeling I wouldn't get married. I felt so used and I was scared I wouldn't be able to have an erection with a woman and neither would I be able to meet expectations. At some point, I got green with envy because him and his cousin had become parents and here I was just focusing on career. When it was obvious I wasn't sure of taking the bold step, I made attempt to relocate for studies and with my parents support, it happened. I chose to remain abroad after school and my parents began getting worried at some point. One day, during the holidays while I visited, he walked up to me to ask what I was still waiting for and why I was still single. I almost yelled at him because I felt he was the cause of my predicament but later, I smiled wishing he would Bleep me at that point because I was yearning for it (I don't do the man sex thing abroad because news in Nigerian community spreads like wild fire).

At that point, I chose to engage a few older men I have met on social media who were married and were involved in the man thing although most times, not sexually but for friendship. One thing I learnt from them was that they were on those sites to meet with people of like mind to talk to about their feelings because they chose not to cheat on their wife. I asked about sex and they told me it is very possible that I just needed to find a woman I loved from my heart and after a while, I will get accustomed to sex (heterosexual).

The reason I wrote all this epistle is to encourage any guy out there who could be involved in man to man sex that if it is not your entire make up, like me who do not find the sex thing with guys attractive because of the pains it causes me but likes being in the company of guys preferably nude, and that loves the idea of having your family, it is very possible. While I am not in any position to debate genes although research is ambivalent on gay genes, it is very doable. Just follow your mind and I pray God helps you with whatever you decide to do. To the older men who guided me, I would want to say a big thank you to you as I can boldly say that it has been a wonderful experience with my wife and I wouldn't say I have bidded the men's world a total goodbye because one thing I know is when I say never is when I fall as such, I will keep hoping I do not fall back into my old ways.

If you have had same sex experience and have been able to come out of it, please share your story to inspire the younger ones. This is a no judgment zone, please....

Dexlomo:
I read a topic and felt encouraged to share my real life story. Some parts are tainted to shield my privacy however, they are the exact things that happened. I have had a few sexual encounter with guys but I wouldn't take mine as molestation totally because I initiated some of these encounters.

Growing up, I was a bit effeminate and it was known to me, my family members, and friends. I was exposed at a tender age and was allowed to have friends provided someone in my family knew about him/her. Although my parents were not so concerned about my classmates but they were about those I called my friends. I had a friend who as at age six, we would play together touching each other. We went to each other's home since we were near neighbors. Not sure if both parents knew what was going on and just chose to look the other way or they felt we were too innocent to be capable of touching, kissing, and humping we did at that age. He knew an ashewo joint that he took me to at around age nine where he likes the women touching him while I cringe or scream when they make attempts to touch me(I am not sure why though because even as at age 20, if a woman touches me, I cringe and it is usually obvious).

My first night as a boarder, I met a childhood friend as such, I did not sleep on my bed and chose to sleep with him in his dormitory. Right there on his 2(1/2) by 5 we kissed and did some humping. One thing was that I loved the sight of watching the older seniors naked and luckily, it was in the days when we had men as seniors with very big (long, thick, and veiny) pricks. I would wake up early and finish before others wake up and when the bell rings for morning portion, I was dressed for school so I can take my time to do mine. My morning portion for the most of my junior secondary school was cleaning the quadrangle (I don't know why it never changed until during extension in JSS3) these seniors walk past naked.

During one of my holidays, I had an encounter with my neighbour's son who was a year my senior in school. Anyways, that was my launch into the world of sex with guys. He shields me at school at least from my immediate seniors and I compensate him during the breaks by being bleeped by him. By the time he got to SS1 and I was in JS3, he had matured and his dick had gone almost twice its size, yet I couldn't say no. He would Bleep me everyday during the holiday to a point that I stopped coming home for midterm as a way to at least save myself that period. I couldn't tell my folks what was going on because while I wasn't enjoying it some days, it was glorious on others. Besides, how do I report a senior if I don't want to live the rest of my boarding life in misery?

In SS2, he stopped because then he got a girlfriend in school and told me never to tell anyone of our past (which I still do till date). I still cringe sometimes when I see him during festive holidays as we would likely be visiting our parents. Unfortunately as well, the sex I have had with guys when I feel the urge cannot be compared to his because though his was painful, it was also tender and sweet while others are just pains.

After secondary school while awaiting admission, he had a cousin who was visiting to prepare for JAMB with us. Unfortunately, the cousin took over from where he stopped. The cousin would come to our house to Bleep me and there was nothing I could do. Luckily for me, we all went to different universities and during my days in University, except for one Bleep I traveled for (a dude I met through americansingles.com), there was no sexual encounter.

After school, we got good jobs and then I launched back into my world of sex although, I contained it to a maximum of 3 to 4 times annually. My neighbor's son got married and I kept feeling I wouldn't get married. I felt so used and I was scared I wouldn't be able to have an erection with a woman and neither would I be able to meet expectations. At some point, I got green with envy because him and his cousin had become parents and here I was just focusing on career. When it was obvious I wasn't sure of taking the bold step, I made attempt to relocate for studies and with my parents support, it happened. I chose to remain abroad after school and my parents began getting worried at some point. One day, during the holidays while I visited, he walked up to me to ask what I was still waiting for and why I was still single. I almost yelled at him because I felt he was the cause of my predicament but later, I smiled wishing he would Bleep me at that point because I was yearning for it (I don't do the man sex thing abroad because news in Nigerian community spreads like wild fire).

At that point, I chose to engage a few older men I have met on social media who were married and were involved in the man thing although most times, not sexually but for friendship. One thing I learnt from them was that they were on those sites to meet with people of like mind to talk to about their feelings because they chose not to cheat on their wife. I asked about sex and they told me it is very possible that I just needed to find a woman I loved from my heart and after a while, I will get accustomed to sex (heterosexual).

The reason I wrote all this epistle is to encourage any guy out there who could be involved in man to man sex that if it is not your entire make up, like me who do not find the sex thing with guys attractive because of the pains it causes me but likes being in the company of guys preferably nude, and that loves the idea of having your family, it is very possible. While I am not in any position to debate genes although research is ambivalent on gay genes, it is very doable. Just follow your mind and I pray God helps you with whatever you decide to do. To the older men who guided me, I would want to say a big thank you to you as I can boldly say that it has been a wonderful experience with my wife and I wouldn't say I have bidded the men's world a total goodbye because one thing I know is when I say never is when I fall as such, I will keep hoping I do not fall back into my old ways.

If you have had same sex experience and have been able to come out of it, please share your story to inspire the younger ones. This is a no judgment zone, please....

This is so beautiful, It got me teary eyed. Sexuality is quite broad and fluid and not black and white as most think. Thanks for sharing your story, I wish you and your wife good luck but times have changed. Sexuality is and will never be a stumbling block to one starting a family. It depends on your mindset

omo......I hope you were not that senior back in high school that always made me rub his back every night and almost forced his dick right into my mouth one night before I learnt that I gotta flee. Cos honestly, envisaging your high school setting from your write up, its no different from mine. Just incase you or your high school lover were that 'senior Richards', I'd be honored to tell you right now that my beautiful Bull Mastif and p90 machine would like to meet you.

Palehair:

This is so beautiful, It got me teary eyed. Sexuality is quite broad and fluid and not black and white as most think. Thanks for sharing your story, I wish you and your wife good luck but times have changed. Sexuality is and will never be a stumbling block to one starting a family. It depends on your mindset

I agree with you. Struggled with myself for a long time and had fears created by things I read on the internet. My first experience was after our wedding and one of the things that gave me courage besides the older married friends I had was a twitter post I read by someone who shared a similar story. It was difficult paying for escorts like someone suggested to have an experience so I just hoped. My first experience was wow and I feel more comfortable with it. Like we all know and agree, sexuality is fluid and it could change anytime. Just going to keep enjoying this moment and I do not wish anything changes it.

IceColdVeins:
omo

mo fo oooo

Dexlomo:


I agree with you. Struggled with myself for a long time and had fears created by things I read on the internet. My first experience was after our wedding and one of the things that gave me courage besides the older married friends I had was a twitter post I read by someone who shared a similar story. It was difficult paying for escorts like someone suggested to have an experience so I just hoped. My first experience was wow and I feel more comfortable with it. Like we all know and agree, sexuality is fluid and it could change anytime. Just going to keep enjoying this moment and I do not wish anything changes it.

Glad you found your true self. It was just a phase or you were experimenting I guess. Now, you are living your real truth with the woman you love

so much undercover gayism in Nigeria.... the place is worse than Atlanta!

WTF did I just read

Bravo to you for the "switch" and having a good marital life with an opposite sex

holy fvck ... reading this post had my skin crawling ..





gotta puke first, will be back

Why did you have to be so graphic? I can sense from the gleeful tone in your narration that if a man with a yam sized mandingo comes your way, you will remove your trousers and submit your anus with embarrassing alacrity. Shior.

Are you promoting homosexuality?? Scratch that, you're bisexual.

I feel really unclean after reading this filth.

Tueh!!

Awww mehn, I gotta unsee this _shit

I can't believe I really read all that.

Things dey happen oh
May oluwa give final freedom,

That is why I said once my son is about the age of 15,16,17 and he's not showing me or giving me the signs of having feeling for a girl, I will question his paternity
And I am not also encouraging him to indulge in any sexual immorality

Disgusting crap.
Good thing I didn't read it.

Oh my God... You went through a lot in life oo... For a sec I thought you were a girl... I'm amazed at how you find the opposite sex attractive after all of these... Mehn.. You're amazing...

Can your ass still hold some faeces cos your rectum must have been damaged by now. You decided to be gay in secondary school which was absolutely your choice. I went to a boy's only school and I really dealt with dose gay seniors really hard.

Hmm. Holy fcck. Gay thread?

Una well done. Pls i wasn't here. Thanks

I'm sleepy i will comment when i charge my phone

At first I thought I was following but later I was completely lost.
Nigga, are you gay?

Op. You went to a federal government college. Either Odogbolu or Ijanikin. Yes or No?

ValCon888:
Op. You went to a federal government college. Either Odogbolu or Ijanikin. Yes or No?

Ijanikin is boys and girls

I'm just waiting for the day a gay nigga will whip out his gayful d!ck near me. That the day the whole Earth will know that a leg can kick a d!ck off it's owner

This is why Nigeria will always be where it is. Someone decided to share his story and his pain and he even declared he's still struggling with it and at the same time being faithful to his wife and instead of y'all to show a bit of empathy and support his growth and progress, y'all decided to shame him. This is why some women will keep on marrying DL gay men

J111333:
At first I thought I was following but later I was completely lost.
Nigga, are you gay?

Its not easy, he's still struggling with it. At least, he's trying to let go of the past life and conform with what you people think morality and normalcy is. Show a bit of empathy by wishing him good luck. You don't and will never know what he's going through for a man married to a woman and still fighting those urges. Its a constant fight everyday with his sexuality

Lamanii22:
Oh my God... You went through a lot in life oo... For a sec I thought you were a girl... I'm amazed at how you find the opposite sex attractive after all of these... Mehn.. You're amazing...

I wish I could like this a billion times. It's the only comment that made complete sense and is sensitive to his pain

Palehair:

Its not easy, he's still struggling with it. At least, he's trying to let go of the past life and conform with what you people think morality and normalcy is. Show a bit of empathy by wishing him good luck. You don't and will never know what he's going through for a man married to a woman and still fighting those urges. Its a constant fight everyday with his sexuality

He doesn't need my empathy, he needs to be told the truth so he can deal with his sexuality issues.

J111333:
He doesn't need my empathy, he needs to be told the truth so he can deal with his sexuality issues.

Yes, he knows the truth and that's why he decided to share his story and he still said it's a constant struggle. A simple good luck would suffice. At least he's trying to change unlike some others who don't want to

Its nothing but a deiberate attempt to initiate one into accepting gayism. Imagine that, I stopped after scanning through the foremost lines of deep erotic phrases. You must be on agenda

While I don't accept it, I personally don't judge people who are gay. What I am more concerned about is your wife and kids who are living in limbo, totally unaware of this potent danger that can totally consume the family and put them to shame later on in the future.

Man, you must come out of the closet and live your truth.

Cchuks27:
While I don't accept it, I personally don't judge people who are gay. What I am more concerned about is your wife and kids who are living in limbo, totally unaware of this potent danger that can totally consume the family and put them to shame later on in the future.

Man, you must come out of the closet and live your truth.

You know he can't come out in Nigeria. Although, I don't support him allegedly ruining someone else's life but society creates it's own monsters and he has to succumb to it but if he feels like he can make things work with a woman, then I don't see any harm there as long as he's being faithful to her which he himself said he's struggling with but he's trying. Who knows, one day he might become fully straight. Sexuality is quite fluid. He just needs the moral support

PRISTINEMUSCLES:
Can your ass still hold some faeces cos your rectum must have been damaged by now. You decided to be gay in secondary school which was absolutely your choice. I went to a boy's only school and I really dealt with dose gay seniors really hard.

Decided? Did you read the story and how the attraction grew from a tender age? He had no power over it then so it wasn't a choice. He's trying to succumb to society's idea of what normalcy is and he's admitted he's still struggling with it. What he needs and expect should be moral support and not all gay people engage in anal so your theory that all their asses are licking holds no water

I totally understand you
But u shouldn't have posted this on nairaland. There are lots of immature homophobes on here