I had to create this new account for this to avoid judgment. But what I will write here are all true.

For what it is worth, I'm a male, 30 years. I have noticed that I was a bit girlie, wore girls' clothes even in nursery 3 or so. Maybe I learned it from my sister who took care of me. I was also a bit handsome, gentle and soft spoken.

Few years ago in primary school, I guess I was like 6 or 7, I had two little sexual encounters. One with a fellow boy and the other with a girl.
I can't remember which came first. But I would go with the boy, first.
A boy much older than me, but still in his teens took me to an uncompleted building and he started playing and touching my male organ. I followed suit and we started touching each other's male organs while being aroused.
It was like the boy was known with that. How did I know? A lady passed by and looked through the window and saw us and told me I should never join the boy in his ways.

After that I have not had such an encounter again and I don't think I have said this to ears before in this way.
I also remember when I played with a small girl, my age mate, touching each other's organs. The family saw me and gave me a serious beating that day. But just like I said I can't remember the one that came first.

Fast forward to secondary school days, I went to boys boarding school. I heard about homosexuals in the school. I even knew one or two. Some thought that I was because of my nature. But the truth is that I was not. I had even been born again and was serious with God. More like a young pastor then.

Now during my university days, I continued with God and was even preaching. But somehow, I dabbled into masturbation, mistakenly. It was really the worst mistake of my life. My greatest regret till now.
I started growing in masturbation and later, pornography. I started watching porns, even gay porns and heterosexual ones.


I then noticed, I started getting attracted to males, though a preacher or a born again, if you don't mind. I was happy to see males naked and sometimes, I would even be aroused by it and then I would hide myself.

Then again, I noticed men started getting attracted to me. I believe some of them were gays.
I have never had sex with a man or woman in my 30 years of life. I don't even want to now, till I marry. But I am telling you what happened and what is happening.

This continued till it grew to the point that I would see a handsome boy and would admire or even lust after him. I was searching for handsome boys or men with my eyes. Though I admire beauty in girls, but it's more for boys or young men. I get easily carried away by fellow men. I easily like men than women. I would shout within myself and pray and rebuke the thoughts.
After a while it would stop and then start.

Recently, I should say this. I saw a young medical student. I immediately liked him from a far. I know he also liked me, but just as a young man who dresses well or just as a normal person.
I didn't like him for anything else, but because of that my nature of liking men more especially handsome boys. Again, the young boy was quiet and what have you.

Something happened, which I would like to share.




Continue later, I'm busy

Just continue.
It is interesting

It's not too late, kindly join the lgbtq community and experience joy.
No make anybody tell you otherwise.

ok

Holly Gram I de here!


I don role like 7 STICK of WEED!


Na to LITE UP!


U better continue b4 my old KALA go reach ur leg!



LITE UP my WEED in peace


WTF MAN!

In life shit happens don't have to feel guilty of anything

kriss2I6:
It's not too late, kindly join the lgbtq community and experience joy.
No make anybody tell you otherwise.

No please. It's wrong. I will die untimely. Many of the gays were assaulted as kids. It may lead to suicidal thoughts for me.
Please don't talk more. If I think about it, sometimes I want to puke.

Jaybull:
I had to create this new account for this to avoid judgment. But what I will write here are all true.

For what it is worth, I'm a male, 30 years. I have noticed that I was a bit girlie, wore girls' clothes even in nursery 3 or so. Maybe I learned it from my sister who took care of me. I was also a bit handsome, gentle and soft spoken.

Few years ago in primary school, I guess I was like 6 or 7, I had two little sexual encounters. One with a fellow boy and the other with a girl.
I can't remember which came first. But I would go with the boy, first.
A boy much older than me, but still in his teens took me to an uncompleted building and he started playing and touching my male organ. I followed suit and we started touching each other's male organs while being aroused.
It was like the boy was known with that. How did I know? A lady passed by and looked through the window and saw us and told me I should never join the boy in his ways.

After that I have not had such an encounter again and I don't think I have said this to ears before in this way.
I also remember when I played with a small girl, my age mate, touching each other's organs. The family saw me and gave me a serious beating that day. But just like I said I can't remember the one that came first.

Fast forward to secondary school days, I went to boys boarding school. I heard about homosexuals in the school. I even knew one or two. Some thought that I was because of my nature. But the truth is that I was not. I had even been born again and was serious with God. More like a young pastor then.

Now during my university days, I continued with God and was even preaching. But somehow, I dabbled into masturbation, mistakenly. It was really the worst mistake of my life. My greatest regret till now.
I started growing in masturbation and later, pornography. I started watching porns, even gay porns and heterosexual ones.


I then noticed, I started getting attracted to males, though a preacher or a born again, if you don't mind. I was happy to see males naked and sometimes, I would even be aroused by it and then I would hide myself.

Then again, I noticed men started getting attracted to me. I believe some of them were gays.
I have never had sex with a man or woman in my 30 years of life. I don't even want to now, till I marry. But I am telling you what happened and what is happening.

This continued till it grew to the point that I would see a handsome boy and would admire or even lust after him. I was searching for handsome boys or men with my eyes. Though I admire beauty in girls, but it's more for boys or young men. I get easily carried away by fellow men. I easily like men than women. I would shout within myself and pray and rebuke the thoughts.
After a while it would stop and then start.

Recently, I should say this. I saw a young medical student. I immediately liked him from a far. I know he also liked me, but just as a young man who dresses well or just as a normal person.
I didn't like him for anything else, but because of that my nature of liking men more especially handsome boys. Again, the young boy was quiet and what have you.

Something happened, which I would like to share.




Continue later, I'm busy

gay??
Ew!

DaInferno:
gay??
Ew!

No, na Gaybriel

Hmmmm

where is orgasmgiver123 when you need him? your rain boot is needed here to correct some senses

I continue.

After a while I traveled and noticed I was thinking about this medical student. It could not go away from my mind.

Please mind you. These people I'm thinking of, I'm not thinking of having sex with them. Very important to note. If given the opportunity of having sex with them I would reject. I always think of being close to them, being very close friends with them. I just admire them.

I have had opportunity of being lured into sex with the same sex. A Homosexual friend came to my house and wanted to lure into sex. I quickly reacted and sat him down, talking to him about the life. How it was wrong.
I have had homosexuals approach me for friendship, I have all rejected and have never regretted that

Back to the story, the thought of the boy was much in my heart. Most times we would greet when we saw each other. Nothing more than that, but I wanted more than greeting. I wanted such male friendship, not even sex.

I noticed that the guy liked seeing me, probably because I was presentable and dressed fine and all that. But I knew he was not a Homosexual.
After a few months , I came back and couldn't hide the thoughts. I asked for his number. He gave me.
When chatting, I told him I liked him and his personality, but he had been giving me high levels because of pride. I didn't know how to start talking. But I started out wrongly. It put the young man off and he warned me. I indeed liked his personality.
He told me to block him and delete his number. I had done that already. He also did that, too.



I know there are many going through this life in secret. I also know that my early encounters sexually, masturbation and pornography contribute to this. If I limit these, I notice, this goes.
I know many pass through this and call themselves gay.
Just like pornography, it is an addiction, but it should not dictate who you are. You should try to overcome it. I know its possible. Because I have witnessed the possibility in me especially if I stay away from masturbation, pornography and get more close to God. Even the thought of that irritates me.

We should also put effort to guide our kids on time. May gays today were assaulted by an adult or fellow kids when they were young

It is well.

Shedrack777:
where is orgasmgiver123 when you need him? your rain boot is needed here to correct some senses

One of the reason why i kick people with my rain boot


Damn... nasty... I’m out of here

Homosexuality has nothing to do being raped or exposure as a kid. I might be wrong tho but I strongly believe this.

Take for instance, in US where homosexuality is legal, where kids get to see gay couples kiss in the open, you'd expect that majority of the population will be gay but that's false, a lot of people are still straight, in fact, only few people are homosexuals compared to heterosexual.

In your own case, you've always had it in you.

The gay thing could be learnt tho but trust me, if you're not gay you cannot be gay. Even if you grow up in a place where you are the only straight person, you still wouldn't be gay or bi or any letter in the LGBTQ.

The worrying thing is, a lot of people don't know they are not straight, until they get exposed to gay content.

Jaybull:


No please. It's wrong. I will die untimely. Many of the gays were assaulted as kids. It may lead to suicidal thoughts for me.
Please don't talk more. If I think about it, sometimes I want to puke.

Puke

stereotypical beings everywhere

Karleb:
Homosexuality has nothing to do being raped or exposure as a kid. I might be wrong tho but I strongly believe this.

Take for instance, in US where homosexuality is legal, where kids get to see gay couples kiss in the open, you'd expect that majority of the population will be gay but that's false, a lot of people are still straight, in fact, only few people are homosexuals compared to heterosexual.

In your own case, you've always had it in you.

The gay thing could be learnt tho but trust me, if you're not gay you cannot be gay. Even if you grow up in a place where you are the only straight person, you still wouldn't be gay or bi or any letter in the LGBTQ.

The worrying thing is, a lot of people don't know they are not straight, until they get exposed to gay content.

No. Do you know any gay. Just tell them to open up to you, if they can. They were introduced at one point or the other. I know people in boarding school introduced or exposed to it.
The number of homosexuals is high. You can't compare it to the entire population of US. The population is huge.

Orgasmgiver123:


One of the reason why i kick people with my rain boot


Damn... nasty... I’m out of here

kick him with your rain boot before going out.


damn... nasty... i'm also out of here

I will refuse to accept that I'm gay. I don't want that. I'm not trying to shy away. I have never wished to have sex with my fellow man. Ever.

Just needed people to read and share what they think.

Jaybull:


No. Do you know any gay. Just tell them to open up to you, if they can. They were introduced at one point or the other. I know people in boarding school introduced or exposed to it.
The number of homosexuals is high. You can't compare it to the entire population of US. The population is huge.

If I introduce you to a girl, there are two things involved. You may like her or you may not like her. That's just it with homosexuality.

If you introduce 100 boarding students to homosexuality, less than 30 will become homosexuals because they have it in them. The rest 70 still wouldn't become homosexuals, even if you put it in their face.

Homosexuals are few, very few compared to heterosexuals.

Jaybull:
I will refuse to accept that I'm gay. I don't want that. I'm not trying to shy away. I have never wished to have sex with my fellow man. Ever.

Just needed people to read and share what they think.

From what you described, you are bi sexual but I will recommend that you have sex with a girl, an endowed one.

If you do, you would see why many of us are straight.

Karleb:


From what you described, you are bi sexual but I will recommend that you have sex with a girl, an endowed one.

If you do, you would see why many of us are straight.

Bisexual? But I don't really want to have sex with any woman or man.
Does it mean am now non-binary or what?

Jaybull:

Bisexual? But I don't really want to have sex with any woman or man.
Does it mean am now non-binary or what?

You are asexual. You value emotional connection more.

I've never in my life viewed gay porn.
Alot of guys who are homosexuals started with curiosity about gay porn.

czarr:
You are asexual. You value emotional connection more.

I've never in my life viewed gay porn.
Alot of guys who are homosexuals started with curiosity about gay porn.

It could be true. He values emotional connection more. He may not be gay

Jaybull:
I had to create this new account for this to avoid judgment. But what I will write here are all true.

For what it is worth, I'm a male, 30 years. I have noticed that I was a bit girlie, wore girls' clothes even in nursery 3 or so. Maybe I learned it from my sister who took care of me. I was also a bit handsome, gentle and soft spoken.

Few years ago in primary school, I guess I was like 6 or 7, I had two little sexual encounters. One with a fellow boy and the other with a girl.
I can't remember which came first. But I would go with the boy, first.
A boy much older than me, but still in his teens took me to an uncompleted building and he started playing and touching my male organ. I followed suit and we started touching each other's male organs while being aroused.
It was like the boy was known with that. How did I know? A lady passed by and looked through the window and saw us and told me I should never join the boy in his ways.

After that I have not had such an encounter again and I don't think I have said this to ears before in this way.
I also remember when I played with a small girl, my age mate, touching each other's organs. The family saw me and gave me a serious beating that day. But just like I said I can't remember the one that came first.

Fast forward to secondary school days, I went to boys boarding school. I heard about homosexuals in the school. I even knew one or two. Some thought that I was because of my nature. But the truth is that I was not. I had even been born again and was serious with God. More like a young pastor then.

Now during my university days, I continued with God and was even preaching. But somehow, I dabbled into masturbation, mistakenly. It was really the worst mistake of my life. My greatest regret till now.
I started growing in masturbation and later, pornography. I started watching porns, even gay porns and heterosexual ones.


I then noticed, I started getting attracted to males, though a preacher or a born again, if you don't mind. I was happy to see males naked and sometimes, I would even be aroused by it and then I would hide myself.

Then again, I noticed men started getting attracted to me. I believe some of them were gays.
I have never had sex with a man or woman in my 30 years of life. I don't even want to now, till I marry. But I am telling you what happened and what is happening.

This continued till it grew to the point that I would see a handsome boy and would admire or even lust after him. I was searching for handsome boys or men with my eyes. Though I admire beauty in girls, but it's more for boys or young men. I get easily carried away by fellow men. I easily like men than women. I would shout within myself and pray and rebuke the thoughts.
After a while it would stop and then start.

Recently, I should say this. I saw a young medical student. I immediately liked him from a far. I know he also liked me, but just as a young man who dresses well or just as a normal person.
I didn't like him for anything else, but because of that my nature of liking men more especially handsome boys. Again, the young boy was quiet and what have you.

Something happened, which I would like to share.




Continue later, I'm busy

op the truth is that u are gay!! But u don't want to accept it bc u feel it's bad. As long as u are attracted to men, just forget it, u just need something or someone to trigger it out of u

My brother you be half gay. You are just one sex away with your fellow guy from being gay.

You need to fast and pray to God immensely for 14days to get yourself redeemed from this devilish spirit that's in you..

Holly Gram real matters on top real MATTERZ

thank JAH for u!

LITE UP my WEED in peace

WTF MAN!

Prettygirl200:
op the truth is that u are gay!! But u don't want to accept it bc u feel it's bad. As long as u are attracted to men, just forget it, u just need something or someone to trigger it out of u

Which other trigger do I need. I should force myself to have sex with my fellow man.

Milli10:
My brother you be half gay. You are just one sex away with your fellow guy from being gay.

You need to fast and pray to God immensely for 14days to get yourself redeemed from this devilish spirit that's in you..

I don't think you have fasted half to what I have done. I even have ulcer now from fasting

hmmm na wa o different stroke for different folks

kriss2I6:
It's not too late, kindly join the lgbtq community and experience joy.
No make anybody tell you otherwise.

I've always known you're gay. Anuofia!

Continue deceiving straight men on this forum.

kriss2I6:
It's not too late, kindly join the lgbtq community and experience joy.
No make anybody tell you otherwise.

Which joy? Please