Sometimes I just reflect on life wondering if it's the same life people claim to be enjoying cos very early into my 20s and life has dealt me a very severe hand already. I feel comfortable here airing out those things bugging me inwardly of which I had to create a new alias here on nairaland.

I'm a student of one of the most prestigious institutions in Nigeria, on a 2-1 currently and also a scholarship. Have two younger sisters and live with my parents. Life as I know it started when the covid 19 pandemic set in. My mom was laid off from her hotel job, my dad's business wasn't going as good as it used to. We badly struggled to survive the entirety of last year if not for the severance package given to my mom from her work place, most of which went to the rentage of the place we live in. Now this year posed to be even much worse. The rentage being a very huge factor causing embarrassment from the landlords in the presence of other neighbors. It pains me to see my dad being diminished in front of me due to situation of things. A former top deputy bank manager in one of head branch many years back, now belittled. We survived on the scholarship money I got this year until now when it elapsed. Had to drop out this year being my IT year, meanwhile my mates are posting pictures of themselves in their workplaces and without being able to give any reasonable reason why I'm not with them. My sister just got admission and there's no means whatsoever of paying. I'm just tired of everything cos I feel like I'm missing out on a lot at this stage of my life and I'm not even started yet.

This morning also, my dad was embarrassed again and I just couldnt bear it anymore . All these seems to be taking a huge toll on me cos I've been feeling depressed a lot since the turn of the year. The businesses my dad got into hasn't yielded anything at the moment and my mom's current work also isn't even more than wat corpers make. I also work but that's mainly just for feeding(hand to mouth at most) Let me just end here for loss of words cos I know tomorrow will be better.

Sorry for the long write up.

Life is upandan. If i share some of my stories ehn. U self get hope sef.
I will never give up until the last whistle...that's a promise I made myself this morning.

Just one thing I need to beg you for..... Never look down on your father. Love him, support him and tell /show him that he is still that super dad no matter what. This will buoy him to brace up and attack the world with new vigor.

My last year in secondary school involved hanging on the door of a molue hoping to drop off and get to school without the conductor getting to me for fares and walking the 7 miles back home in the afternoon.

O'Levels was me begging my mates to lend me the book for the exam we had the day after tomorrow because I did not have the book for tomorrow's exam and could not expect anyone to lend me their's since they kinda needed it themselves. I read so much in so short a time that my eyes gave up on me and the letters on the pages became ants and would not stay in one place making them impossible to read.

I had not had the money to register for O'Levels in November, nor for Jamb, so the future looked bleak, in fact I saw no future, I barely saw the day being hungry and weak.

On the day of my last O'Level exam, I swallowed 2 Mogadon tablets and 30 Valium 10mg tablets. I did not want to die, I was just so tired and wanted to sleep, but I couldn't so I finally got up and went out and eventually, fortunately, passed out on the street and was rushed to Ikeja General where my stomach was pumped out.

My point is, no condition is permanent in this world, so do not despair.

hope74:
Sometimes I just reflect on life wondering if it's the same life people claim to be enjoying cos very early into my 20s and life has dealt me a very severe hand already. I feel comfortable here airing out those things bugging me inwardly of which I had to create a new alias here on nairaland.

I'm a student of one of the most prestigious institutions in Nigeria, on a 2-1 currently and also a scholarship. Have two younger sisters and live with my parents. Life as I know it started when the covid 19 pandemic set in. My mom was laid off from her hotel job, my dad's business wasn't going as good as it used to. We badly struggled to survive the entirety of last year if not for the severance package given to my mom from her work place, most of which went to the rentage of the place we live in. Now this year posed to be even much worse. The rentage being a very huge factor causing embarrassment from the landlords in the presence of other neighbors. It pains me to see my dad being diminished in front of me due to situation of things. A former top deputy bank manager in one of head branch many years back, now belittled. We survived on the scholarship money I got this year until now when it elapsed. Had to drop out this year being my IT year, meanwhile my mates are posting pictures of themselves in their workplaces and without being able to give any reasonable reason why I'm not with them. My sister just got admission and there's no means whatsoever of paying. I'm just tired of everything cos I feel like I'm missing out on a lot at this stage of my life and I'm not even started yet.

This morning also, my dad was embarrassed again and I just couldnt bear it anymore . All these seems to be taking a huge toll on me cos I've been feeling depressed a lot since the turn of the year. The businesses my dad got into hasn't yielded anything at the moment and my mom's current work also isn't even more than wat corpers make. I also work but that's mainly just for feeding(hand to mouth at most) Let me just end here for loss of words cos I know tomorrow will be better.

Sorry for the long write up.

Sincerely, with what I’m seeing up here, there’s a bright future and hope for you. If I should start mine, i don’t think I’ll finish it today but guess what, today is a testimony. Trust me, just put God first in everything you do and love everyone around you and move closer to God, even if it’s 30mins prayer daily with all sincerity and enthusiasm. Giving thanks to God knowing that you’re in his agenda and you’re in his plans. He didn’t just create you for nothing. He has where he’s taking you to and He is not a man that lies. Go through his promises that he has said in the Bible and proclaim it to your life.

He will surely bless you and move you up beyond expectations. Just connect to God everyday. If you’ve not given your life to him give it now. I have confidence that he saves and he is the only one that gives divine helps.

God bless you

listening to Apostle'joshua Selman messages on youtube everyday and obey the instructions will turn u from ant to giant..abeg try am na Sanctified Sista give me d idea wen depression of joblessness wan kill me this year
U go call me , dash me moni sef glory to GOD.. solution don land

Vichenry16:



Sincerely, with what I’m seeing up here, there’s a bright future and hope for you. If I should start mine, i don’t think I’ll finish it today but guess what, today is a testimony. Trust me, just put God first in everything you do and love everyone around you and move closer to God, even if it’s 30mins prayer daily with all sincerity and enthusiasm. Giving thanks to God knowing that you’re in his agenda and you’re in his plans. He didn’t just create you for nothing. He has where he’s taking you to and He is not a man that lies. Go through his promises that he has said in the Bible and proclaim it to your life.

He will surely bless you and move you up beyond expectations. Just connect to God everyday. If you’ve not given your life to him give it now. I have confidence that he saves and he is the only one that gives divine helps.

God bless you

Amen and so much thanks for your encouragement

hope74:



Amen and so much thanks for your encouragement

You’re welcome