I really don't no how to start this, neither do I know how to end this! Comterplaiting as I'm doing right now remain d reason I'm yet to do this. It been long time coming, so so surprising on how much time Birds has taking to d sky and had it lost forever.

This is my story. My journey with music. Ok, my awkward journey with music. That's better.

I'm a young old man, i will be 36yrs by Feb, 2020. Now u understand why d use of young old? Ok let's proceed. My luv for music started at a very tender age. Visibly during my primary sch. In my secondary I was known with musical books, prints n gist, all of a foreign music's as was what was invoked then.

After my secondary sch, looking into what people whr saying about music and me seeing music as a foreign concept made me choose to end it all all by myself, by burning all my musical books and my personal write up.

Moving on with my new found life, hoping it was all over with music & I. High Institution Opened up another chapter of it for me, a harder phase but much more loving, challenging and desiring.
I met and make friends with few music drivers, and they became my closes friends. The journey then took a new turn. It was exciting, blissful but tough as our hope to start having a studio work was met with high studio fees. That's even for a low budget studio cos quality studio has a tag to it for us ( even in ur wildest dream) keep off!!

So we had no option than to settle with d low budget studio using our up keeps to run d fees. Among us all, I was the only person that was never satisfied with d end product of every production we had. And the studio keep milking us with every opportunity they gat. My friends with excitement of music and joy of being heard started music promos, radios and dj mix but I fail to join them with that cos my end product wasn't my expectation. what I was given wasn't my vision to wat I had so that kept me off any promo.

Note: something u should no! Till date. I don't no how to operate any musical tools, I can't addentify a musical note or key if presented before me, but surprisingly, I no when one is on key and when not, I no when one is on key to a beat and I no what's sounds right and what's not.

High Institution ended and ended the dreams of many of us, while others proceeded to their last during service and after service.

During my servers year, I've a goal to achieve which is to save as much as I can to set up a small studio. Before we graduated my friends started to see my point with d low budget studio/ producer and d work we had with em, nothing to compare to the big studios and big producers of then.
Fast forwarded. After service I was able to set up my small studio, not to my desiring but a good start. Then comes my limit in life which is always lack of cash and a helper, I went online (Google) for knowledge on music production n vocals training.

After a year, a job offer came up. Knowing how much I put music frst my mom, advice me to take the job that it cant stop my passion but rather ll help me more.

2014, I find myself in abj, a civil servant, sgl 07, monthly pay of 45k, early morning awake all to beat holdup and then nothing left of time and life for a quest.
Is now 5yrs+, still on this circle of life betrayal. I give up music countless times and still find myself back in it one way or d other. I sold my studio equipment to meet up a fairly life in abj, but then buy the few important once back to keep me one leg in music. Still single and battling with d wave & heat of get married from every side. I still get music through d air, up in my head on a daily bases. I still feel that I ve no life without music, maybe without stepping out for people to have a feel of my music and be the judge to it.

I can now program sounds with my laptop/soundcard and have my music recorded right in my living room. While the idea song is a match but I still have problem with d sounds. Not professionaly a finished work to my test.
My low wages is still an issue as it limits me from a thought of a studio work ( professional)
More to it was a fear of fallen into a wrong and a low vision producers and end up wasting money that I don't have.

Pls I need an advice for I'm drowning. I can't go back and I can't go front just stock here.

Forgive me for thousands of errors on this post cos I can't go back to look at it all. The one I have written down months ago sat just a hand inch from me, was gonna copy it but then I started typing n my head keep opening to a new picture.

My name is Charles, Stage name S-TEE. 2pm. Originally ST, which is slimtop. 2pm stands for play play master (double P & M), a little from my old song "play-play"

Thanks, if u ever take a look into my gabage. God bless u if u put up a piece of advice �

In case this section is not d right one for this post you help me do the needful Mr moderator

i feel ya struggle man
try get a job more like a part time job
get a girl that is working so u dont have one asking u moni all d time
learn beat making or mixing n mastering

don't apologise for grammar error who can't read can f them selves
change ur name change ur goals miggle with people of ur dreams

be nice

Thanks man, it feels good to have someone lend a voice. But by changing name as u said. do u mean stage name, and that of goal, do u mean to forget about music?

2pmstcharles:
Thanks man, it feels good to have someone lend a voice. But by changing name as u said. do u mean stage name, and that of goal, do u mean to forget about music?

music is like acting as u age ur role changes, but doesnt mean u quit,

get a partime or contract job so u can have time for music

n also get a working class girl not a broke ass

be 30% artist 70% producer

Thanks man, I appreciate