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Behavioural patterns which you have described here that are manipulative or self-destructive may have been learned in response to an abusive situation at some point in the past.


Low self-esteem and feeling that you are not good enough (in spite of being attractive) may also be as a result of Mood problems or childhood abuse.


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Thank you so much. Yes I was sexually abused as a child by a close relative and when I finally opened up I was blamed for it. My parents accused me of "enjoying it" and the taunts went on for years

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Can I give you e hugs?
What you feel is normal for people with borderline disorder. Drugs won't do anything but make it worse. I would suggest you continue with therapy and speak with your psychiatrist.

Thank you so much. I know I need therapy but I'm too ashamed

Awwn. ..Baby boy you have to move on. There's a better girl out there waiting for you.
I have guys I friend zone for different purposes like money,food,to kill boredom and to make my main boyfriend jealous
SAY NO TO BEING USED !

Miserable looking thing...

Please I need a serious advice and also support. My life is at stake here.

I am a 23 year old female and i have borderline personality disorder.
I am ashamed to talk to anyone about it. I don't think therapy would work because I can't make a full sentence without telling lies.
I am very manipulative, I only make friends with people I can benefit from. I can go to extreme lengths to get what I want which includes stealing,lying. I easily discard friends when I don't need them. I am good looking and people tend to love me easily but I don't treat them right.
I have multiple sex partners just to feel loved. I am constantly afraid of getting dumped but I easily dump people.
I have stolen multiple times from people especially my closest friend even her clothes I would later wear them in her presence and manipulate her into believing someone else did it. I am not poor or hungry. I don't know why I steal. I go as far as stealing pants and bras . I can even steal N5 if I have 1 million in my account. The worse part of that I don't feel any remorse. I haven't gotten caught until recently (I am that good ) even when I got caught I still denied even though it was very obvious and still got out of it because I had a lot of people on my side.
I feel emotions to the extreme, when I'm happy it feels like I'm high on cocaine and when I'm sad I feel suicidal I even make nasty cuts on my body . If someone offends me I pretend to forgive them but I always make nasty revenge, my parents suffered this a lot,if I get beaten or scolded I make sure they fight, I even got my dad to kick out my mum multiple times.
I feel sorry for the people who love and care about me. Sometimes I treat them like they are all I've got and other times I treat them like trash, I don't even know why they still stick around. I see a you as the most amazing person in the world today and the next day you are a worthless piece of shit.
I have experimented with hard drugs to escape from myself but it just made things worse.
Sometimes I feel inferior and lack self confidence and other times I look down on people and make them feel like a nobody.
I know I sound like a terrible person but I try as much as possible to be there for people and help them. I'm not stingy.
I don't believe in God.
There are a lot of things I didn't mention. Please is there anyone like me here? Kindly share and I need advice. Thanks