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AgapeCharis:
You'll be free. Something tells me

You must have waited for me:-(

Kazrem:
You are very kind ma'am. Truly I have been silent. Sometimes one has to be offline to concentrate on some things. Thanks so much, I really appreciate and indeed am glad to have one like you beside me.

You are welcome sir. We should thank God for every opportunity of a new day He gives to you and me

AgapeCharis:
HFOG we had am agreement

Sorry pls had to go to bed because my head was aching then

Specialist900:
where for abuja?

New Capital

AgapeCharis:
not at all. You also schooled in the north?

Yep. Abuja, Yola, Jos.

ideology:
Thanks, but God passes through humans to speak to humans at times.

Anyway you didn't sound judgemental

Thanks for understanding

AgapeCharis:
you seem to have lived virtually all your life in the north

Yeah, anything wrong with that?

Obviously it took me sometime to come to terms with all that happened. Spent some few weeks in the family house and traveled. Since then whenever I reflect it's like a dream. I'm so different now. Porn and mast.urbation is completely gone. Not like I struggle not to do them. Nothing in me responds or craves for it. I used to be a movie freak along that line but to sit and watch them now needs determination. I don't find dirty sites or movies attractive anymore. And oh what progress I have experienced in my walk with the Lord. Not like I am perfect but no guilt. Not one. I live each day in His consciousness. I enjoyed that victory for more than a year before I married. And marriage has only helped to consolidate His work in me. I can't forget the struggle and shame of my past life. I felt the Lord wanted me to write about it. Title of the book is SEX SMASHED. I started (got to about 20pages or so) but I've not given it a thought for a long time now. Though I share my testimony whenever and with whoever I'm opportuned to.

AgapeCharis:
which state did you serve?

Plateau State. Jos north precisely

ideology:
I'll do that before I sleep

Hope its ok, that way

It gotta be sir. Who am I? Pls o na God all of us dey find so abeg. Sorry seems I sounded judgemental.

Specialist900:
u too like story. Na history you study for school ni

You no see say na serious talk be this? May God have mercy on you

Specialist900:
lol. Abeg o. I advise am wrongly?

You know what I mean. Na last warning be this

ideology:
It's ok dear, you made a point, more like Holy spirit guidance but I don disobey o o o

Talk to Him.

AgapeCharis:
My comments will come later. What year was this?

July 2011. Waiting for the comments

Specialist900:
guy go church. Them know say na work you dey come from

See who dey advise person to go church. Pls hold your peace before I vex for you now now

ideology:
This your words go hunt me now.
But Am really gonna be late, which is what I don't like

Wasn't my intention. Forgive me pls.

Beginning to feel a slight headache. Seems I've been here too long plus I didn't really have my siesta today. AgapeCharis let me conclude your story. They surrounded me with stretch forth hands while I was on my knees. The prayer coord raised a prayer point namely - let's ask the fire of the Lord to burn out completely everything that responds to sin in her. Next thing I felt literal fire/heat within me that was unbearable. Then I lost consciousness. It was a friend of mine that updated me much later on all that happened. Vigil ended on my case that day. Everyone was dismissed except the officials that were praying for me. In summary it was more or less a deliverance session. Around 4am I opened my eyes, saw myself on the floor. My khaki trousers and blouse full of dust. Several joints in my body ached plus some bruises. I saw brethen standing all around me. I sat up and asked for water to drink. I couldn't recall how I got to that position. The last I remembered was when heat/fire was burning in me.

ideology:
Am double minded, i. May not meet up, i need to eat, but My absence will be …, have not been functioning well recently and my coordinators don de eye me …

Coordinators? Specialist where art thou? Doesn't that ring a bell? I think it's better to be late than not to go at all. You'll make it if you really want to. I believe you're doing all things as to the Lord so once He understands you're fine. Eat your food hurriedly, log off NL and go keep your appointment with the Lord pls

AgapeCharis:
This is interesting.

Continue please ma'am HFOG

Hmm. Good to know you're following. I'll like to get some comments or questions when you're done reading ok?

ideology:
Nope came home about an hour ago,

Midweek service is 7pm, i. Just finished dinner and am yet to eat. Am already late, i don't like going to church late.

Oh I see. Pls you're free to hurry along. Say a word of prayer for our nation. See you.

Specialist900:
makes sense. It's for the best o. Tho we hope all ends well.

We're still watching things tho, next week will decide

Yeah, God'll take care of us

AgapeCharis:
you'll get a notice from me once I'm ready. Like around 9pm, you'll hear from me

You just let me know. I hope nothing'll engage me

ideology:
There are imported, not produce in Nigeria.

Okay sir. Tks for your patience. Seems you're outside at the moment, right?

Specialist900:
lol. I no know o.

When are you going on midterm sef?

Mid term no go dey again na with the election break. We want to take a week off. That'll be the week after election.

AgapeCharis:
you should really ask me. I think it'll help me.

You might not feel free to give me the answers here. The condition for me to ask is that you'll be sincere in your responses and not avoid any of the questions. When you're set, tell me

There was a vigil that Friday night because it was the last Friday in the month. During those days I stayed indoors, I only came out for devotions and to freshen up. Shortly before the vigil I was persuaded that the work was done in me and the victory would be sealed/confirmed when I share my testimony that night. Meanwhile I was the sisters' leader but all that didn't bother me. I was ready to go to any length as long as sin dies in me. I hadn't tasted water or anything yet I felt so strong and active. I indicated that I had a testimony to share. I narrated to the house (roughly 40 corps members) how I'd been addicted to sin and I believed that God had set me free. The house was sober and an altar call was made. Then some officials asked me to kneel so they'll pray to confirm my testimony.

Really, I was dead serious. Life didn't have any beauty to me as long as I'll keep on struggling with porn. I just told Him I was ready to die and go to heaven. I had no desire for anything. Food. Browsing. Friends. My phone. Movies. Nothing made sense to me. I just stayed there all night crying. I didn't feel sleepy or hungry. The thought of leaving with that problem overwhelmed me. I kept wondering what my fate would be if Christ returns while I busy gratifying my flesh. Friday morning I still felt the need to stay indoors with Him. I hadn't gotten any relief. I'll pray, cry, read my Bible. That's all I did all day. Freshened up in the evening and continued telling the Lord that I'll not leave till He either kills me or kills sin in me. Friday passed without me being conscious of the time. I was neither hungry nor tired. All I thought about was freedom from the bondage of porn and masturbation.

AgapeCharis:
try me

Whatever. Don't say I didn't warn you. Struggled with those beseting sins till I almost believed I could never be free. The more I prayed and fasted the deeper I sank. The month I rounded off service, it just occured to me that like play I came with sin and I'll be leaving the same. Not like I didn't use to have few moments/days/weeks/months of victory but sooner than later I'll be back on the floor. One Wednesday after fellowship (I stayed in NCCF family house) I stayed back and somehow I was resolved and ready to die. I literally told the Lord that He either kills me or kill the thing in me that makes me prone to sin.

AgapeCharis:
wow! Tell me about your encounter

Too long a story. You might neither enjoy it nor agree with it.

AgapeCharis:
you never can tell if I've met the person already. So, go ahead and ask me

You are just curious and trying to persuade me.

AgapeCharis:
When I first met Him is something I really cannot pinpoint. Sounds somehow right? Lol. I think it's because I practically grew up in His house and I continued growing in Him untill I one day realized I'm so into Him that all I want to do is to please Him. I remember when I was much younger (say like 5 years old), my mum made sure we followed her to fellowship every week.

What I love most about Him? His love


Tell me about yours

Very cool. Mine? Similar to yours. His love is what I love most about Him. I come from a Christian home too so can't say when I first met Him. Did the ritual church attendance, Bible reading, prayers etc from childhood. But there's an encounter I can't forget and I always like to talk about. During my teenage days I got hooked on pornography and masturbation for over a decade. I kept rising and falling. Praying and going back. Then during my NYSC the Lord encountered me and set me free. My life has not remained the same since then.

ideology:
Its a name i love and i use it to brand my things,

Am not producing at the moment

Okay sir. I think I'm getting you. So who produces these stuff you're advertising here. Again bear with my many questions. I'm just being curious