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Hello Everyone


My name is Peter Kalio
I'm from Okrika, Rivers State Nigeria
recently I moved to Dubai UAE
I live in the Capital Diera


I think before my purpose of coming here is ready, I should take advantage of opportunity
For those of you into International trade (Import & Export) I can help you, I can offer you products from here, delivery it down to your location in Nigeria
I made some friends, business partners actually, are you looking for clothes, mobile phones and phone accessories, shoes, etc I can provide them to you from Dubai
If you are interested in handling your business yourself, I can connect you directly to the sellers of your different products and all you have to do is tip me off


If interested, please quote me and I'll drop my contact
Thank You

Lifeomann:
Really

Positive!

I've been thinking, trying to understand how the life works and how the search for money and a comfortable lifestyle affects us all.


I've been through a lot and I've seen many things too, I might be wrong, but I know when people follow life blindly, religiously, or ignorantly.


I have a philosophy, I see things from a different side, but then, does that mean I'm right? those that mean that the person who sees it from the opposite angle is wrong?


What we know? and what we were told or made to believe, those are two different things...
Lately I have grown this sort of weakness towards life, I mean, I don't fight it anymore, I don't struggle, I push anything, I just feel the need not to. I mean to what end? how far those this fight go? how does this end?
I remember the day I lost my grandfather, I woke up on a Wednesday Morning, April 2020. I stood beside my grandfather and watched him take his last breath, and that was when I looked at myself and said, "My grandfather is dead, he was once my age, he did the things I do now, and he fought for a better life" but now he's dead.
I don't know if he died an accomplished man, or he had wishes that were never fulfilled, but I know one thing, I don't wish to die the way he did.


Growing up, I've always wanted one thing more than anything else in my life... Happiness.
I have always been a quiet and peaceful person, just like my mother. But then, as I grew up everything started getting clear to me.
What exactly is the fight for? why do we struggle everyday living on hope when we don't know how far it goes?
I'm very sure that if my grandfather was asked how he wanted his life to be, he would want something different from what he got. We all want the best, we all want to be happy, we all want a comfortable life. and we have to fight for it especially when we are unfortunate, not coming from a rich or wealthy family.


Not knowing how it ends, we just want to keep going... Surviving.
But to what end? death? living everything behind?
Now that? is what the society has made us believe, "Just make money" and everything gets better.
But I don't think that entirely true.


Finding Yourself, actually I have really pondered on these words.
I remember my Uncle always told me "It's not all about now but the later"
I have been on the road, I've worked and I've fought, on my path to living a good life, a comfortable life...
And on this road I have lost myself, there's one thing about rules and why they were made. To keep us in check, and when does rules are broken, things go wrong. just like driving too fast on the road and not paying attention to the signs. You either get injured, or die, or innocent people get injured or die and you go to jail. So why rush? when you can get to your destination moving at your convenient pace.
On this road, I have been moving too fast and I think I'm losing my self, I'm losing my focus, I'm losing hope. the picture is slowly fading and I don't know what to do.


I need someone to ascertain my life from what I wrote, and tell me what to do.
tell me it's all going to be fine, tell me what you perceive of my personality, tell me if I'm the one with a problem and not the world, not the Government and not the society

Void!

Please let's keep it interesting...

Kobojunkiee:
You are only 18 so I guess I should ask why you feel it is your place to mind society's business for it and why you think carrying the world on your shoulder is the way to go about your own life?

■ You can't see the future because there you currently lack focus. Find one by reading books, and learning new ideas different from the ones you have always known or have been surrounded with.
■ You feel inferior probably because all that worry and overthinking is driving you into depression. Read books, and work on changing your mindset. Rather than trying to see how it all somehow impacts, just see it all for what it is, and nothing more.
■ Keep your mind occupied; start a new hobby. An easy one is gardening or sack gardening. You can maybe start in your backyard or work with sacks or buckets/containers. Plant vegetables, trees or even flowers and tend to them regularly. Commit to the process even as you make changes to your life here and there. And watch how your perception and perception of life and self slowly changes.

Good Advice, I agree to everything you've said.

How do I do things, like how do I move on and focus on other things when I don't have to means to?
I've only known how to survive, nothing more and I feel like getting enough money is all that is needed

I'm really not a story teller, but I'll try my best....



Well, as the title goes. it's has very really been easy turning 18.
All my life I've known nothing but struggle, working for everything I need, I know that's the normal around here, but sometimes I just want to sit back and relax, I just want to close my eyes knowing that everything and everyone around me is fine.


I grew up without a father figure, my parents separated when I was still very little. I don't know why, but that doesn't really bother me, or atleast for now. I have never really felt like I was missing something while growing up, instead I have taken it upon myself to be the father to my siblings that my father never was. I have a Wonderful Mother, she has always been there for us all, sometimes I look at her and wonder if she's truly my mother, because I'm not half as strong as she is, she never stops she never gets tired, and I really wonder how she was able to raise me and my four sisters up till this stage. I look her and I don't want to give up anymore, in short, she's my motivation.


From that innocent, quite and introverted boy from Port Harcourt, I travelled, and a lot changed. First I moved to Anambra State to live with my grandfather, stayed in Anambra for five years, which exactly didn't feel like it, because it really took me along time to adjust, adapt and blend in. I finished my secondary school in Anambra State, between my five years of staying in the state, a lot happened.
With the condition of my grandfather at that time, my mom, my siblings, the way we lived, I just didn't feel comfortable with any of it. We have always had support from Uncle John, My Mothers brother, He has been like the backbone of the family.
I started working, the first job I ever did was bricklayer and I was only like 14 or so and was in SS1, Damn! the memory is still so fresh in my head. at that point the only thing going through my head was money, how to get money, provide for my family and everyone would be happy. I did a couple more jobs, I worked in a poultry, I worked in a company, I served drinks at occasions, I painted, I cut hair and other things I still can't remember.
I don't mean to bore you with my stories, but I just want you to know the journey.



Back in Port Harcourt after my grandfather died, and still on the life of struggling, I work in at a Barbers Shop and I stay with my Mom and three sisters.
March, made is a year now since I have been on this job and I can't seem to see myself going anywhere with it I really can't see the future getting any better with this job, I feel the need for a change, urgently!
it has been paying the bills and providing the food, but it's beyond that for me.
After I finished my secondary school and started working fully, I saw the world from a different lens, I saw it for the harsh and wicked place it really was. I tried to stand out, looking at the family I come from, I really tried to convince myself that I could make a difference.
Now I'm 18 and everything seems so rough and it seems like it can never get better.
I am slowly turning into something I can't comprehend, I see myself doing things I said or thought I would never do.
I'm slowly losing it


Everyday just feels the same, really starting to question my existence.
I'm so bleeped up, in ways I can't explain.
I don't know how to keep my promise, yet I keep making promises.
I can't see the future, and that makes it so hard to keep going when the present time isn't encouraging.
I really don't know what I'm not doing right, I'm over thinking everything but still can't come up with a solution.
What I really want I can't get, I'm forced to live in a place full of endless suffering and pain. being around people who's dreams has been shattered, twisted minds and different ideologies.
I really want to see things from a different prospective, but it doesn't change what already is. Things would always remain the same because we keep doing the same thing over and over again.
I really can't help but feel inferior, I mean is there something I'm just
not doing right? what mistakes are my making? what I'm I ignoring? I'm I confused?



I also feel the need to really find myself.
I feel lost in the harsh society, where we are made to work all night and day without rest.
I really need to search deep down and figure out my true potentials.

I don't know if I sound funny or unreasonable, but that's just how I feel