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THE MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
PART 7
Mady sent for me later in the
evening.Ona led me to see her,
leading me directly to Mady’s
room. A well furnished spacious
room adorned with beautiful red
curtains and a goldstar colour
T.v. I couldn’t help but feast my
eyes on the beautiful things
surrounding me.
Mady was comfortably sitting on
her bed when we got there. A
newspaper resting on her laps,
making her look like a female
military administrator.
She smiled as soon as she
noticed our presence and
nodded to Ona.
“thanks for bringing her, you can
now leave us” she said calmly to
Ona, who quickly obeyed and left
the room.
“come sit here my dear” she said
to me, pointing to a small chair
facing her bed. I nervously
obeyed without a word.
“hope you are getting
acquainted with your new
home?” she asked curiously,
examining me with her eyes.
“oh yes, thanks alot, you are so
kind” i replied gratefully.
“Ona did a good job with your
hair. I like your new look” she
said smiling, while i blushed.
“anyway i invited you here for
something important. I really
can’t wait till tomorrow because
you know time is money,
moreover i will like you to sleep
over what i have to tell you” she
said slowly, keenly observing my
reaction. I nodded calmly, my
heart beating furiously. I couldn’t
imagine what could be so
serious for her to invite me by
that hour. 10:30pm the wall clock
in her room displayed.
“i invited you here because of
your daughter winnie. I will very
much love to adopt her. She’s
very cute and i promise she will
have the best life can offer.I will
give you #200,000''she said. A
cold shiver ran through me.That
was a huge amount,i reasoned.At
least with that,i could start up
something.But i beheld my
daughter's image and shook my
head.
''I cant accept it ma,i want to be
with my daughter"i replied.
"Go and think about it.and talk to
me tomorrow.Remember,you
dont need the child now.you
dont have anybody to take care
of you.you have to move on with
your life as a young girl that you
are"she finally said and
dismissed me.
__"#200,000!?,ona exclaimed,you
are lucky.the other time,she gave
blessing 100,000 to have her
child"
I was suprised at what ona said
and i asked"where is the baby
now?"
"nobody knows"she replied.
''and where is blessing now?"i
asked
"Few days from now,you will
start doing what she is
doing.you have to survive.use
what you have and get what you
want"
Her explanation baffled
me.prostitution?God forbid.Over
my dead body.That night,i didnt
get enough sleep,i was looking
at the time to know when it will
be dawn,so that i will go to mady
and demand for my daughter
and leave this place.I know God
wont reject me if everybody
does.
But do i think i would get back
my daughter so easily?
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THE MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
PART 6
Mady was the name, everyone
called my new helper and she
really was a lovely woman to
behold. Her grand beauty was
very spectacular and solid. But
upon all the beauty and air she
carried she still remained
unmarried, which i found very
strange.
I really wasn’t surprised to see
lots of young girls in her house
when i moved in to live with her,
because she told me she was
running a non governmental
organisation which cared for
homeless street girls, but i never
imagined she could be so rich as
to own a giant two storey
building, a thirty room quarters
{built like a hostel} and another
small bungalow all fenced
together in one big compound.
Three 504 salon cars and a
mercedes 200 adorned her
garage.
I couldn’t help but notice that the
girls who lived under her care all
idolized her, because she was
friendly to all with her sweet
mouth.
“i started from the streets but
now i own all these” she said as
she showed me round the
massive compound, while I
smiled happily, thinking i had
finally gotten to the land flowing
with milk and honey.
I was later introduced and
handed over to a girl called Ona,
whose work was to help,
educate and make me look good,
while Little winnie was taken
away from me and handed over
to an old woman whom they
called mama nurse.
“She will be better of in our
nursery” the old nurse had
assured me as she carried my
little girl, but I still insisted on
seeing the nursery, which after a
little hesitation, she led me to the
extreme end of the main house,
through a hall-way and into a
large room built underneath.
Cribs, toys, and clothes of various
sizes adorned the room making
it look beautiful.
“you see your little angel will be
properly cared for here, just keep
thanking Mady, she really cares
for you girls” she murmured
with a smile, while i shrugged
and said nothing.
The nursery truly was a paradise
to behold, compared to the store
i used to live with my little girl,
yet it looked very creepy to me,
making me a bit scared.
However i paid no heed to my
feelings, thinking i felt
uncomfortable because it was
the first time winnie was leaving
my care….
But i was very wrong. |
PART 5
THE MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
what do i do now?” i sobbed
uncontrollably, “nothing my dear,
absolutely nothing” mama Joy
calmly replied and held me.
“where do i lay my head tonight?
Where do i go from here?” i
asked unhappily, “my dear, do
trust in God he alone has control
over our destiny, don’t give up”
she calmly advised. But i really
was very heart broken and
scared, because i knew i was lost
in an unfriendly world where my
own family rejected me. “my
husband really won’t tolerate you
staying with us, but i hope you
can manage my store {storage
room}, it’s very spacious and
there is an old mattress in it” she
said to me as i sobbed. I instantly
looked at her hopefully, i never
expected her to help me further,
thus my delight and happiness as
little hope fell on me. “you can
stay there till you get a better
accomodation, you can also
come work for me in my
restaurant and make small
money for yourself, at least with
it you can make better plans for
your future. I just wish i’m a rich
woman, i would have helped you
more” she murmured. “oh don’t
bother ma” you have done more
than enough for me, something
my own mum couldn’t do” i
answered gratefully. ______ That
was how i found myself under
Mama Joy’s care. I slept in her
store at night and worked in her
restaurant during the day. I
worked tirelessy as i tried to
discard my sorrows and earn
something decent for myself.
Nnamdi never for a day lifted a
finger to help me nor ask of his
daughter’s welfare, even though
we do see each other everyday,
Instead he continued making me
jealous by bringing different girls
to his room. His actions hurts me
alot but i pretended as if i didn’t
care. I held my pride, suffered
silently and never begged. Three
months i suffered and toiled
under Mama Joy’s care, until
September when a good looking
middle aged woman who
patronized her restaurant came
into my life, offering to help me
raise my child. Her sweet tongue
and behaviour really convinced
me of her good intentions that
without second thoughts, i
accepted her help against Mama
Joy’s reservations. A week later I
moved into the woman’s house
without giving it a second
thought. Little did i know that
misfortune awaited me. KINDLY
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PART 4
MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
“Good-day DAD” i greeted
fearfully as he approached me,
but he simply gave me a terrible
look, spat and shook his head,
“you are no daughter of mine,
you are a big disgrace to my
family, just look at yourself and
what you have done to your
future” he muttered with an
angry tone, walked into mum’s
shop cursing angrily. I was
extremely disheartened and
downcasted. “dear lord open up
the earth and swallow me,
please” i knelt and cried. People
passed by and watched me
silently, some laughed, some
murmured inaudible words,
some scoffed, some sighed in
pity, some shrugged and cursed
my parents, but none came
forward to help me. Not even my
younger sisters. By 4pm that
fateful day, i returned to my land-
lady’s shop with a broken spirit
and a weak body. There were
tears in her eyes as she saw me
walk in. She quickly offered me a
chair before giving me a plate of
rice. ‘Oh i really would have died
that fateful day if not for her’. I
can never forget all she did for
me. Our land-lady fondly called
Mama Joy by everyone who knew
her was a very kind hearted old
woman, who managed to raise
her three children all alone with
the little profit she made from
the small street corner “food-
Joint” she owned. Her husband
{our landlord} was just a well
known drunkard and gambler
who spent all the money he
made from his old house,
drinking and gambling. He really
made‘pool promoters and
agents’very wealthy with his
stupidity. Mama Joy was thus
forced to fight for her children
alone, perhaps that was the main
reason she felt and understood
my plight. “don’t worry my dear,
i’ll talk to Nnamdi when he
returns this evening, i really don’t
understand men nor boys of
nowadays” she assured me as i
ate with a broken spirit. “what
will i do if Nnamdi refuses to
listen to her” i wondered
fearfully, “perhaps mama Joy will
allow me work for her” i
reasoned with a dry smile, “but
where will i be sleeping” i asked
myself sorrowfully. I really was
very worried as we waited for
Nnamdi to show up that fateful
day. But to my extreme surprise,
he came home by 9:30pm,
dragging a young strange
woman who looked like a LovePeddler
with him. I was broken hearted,
dejected and in tears. Mama Joy
simply shrugged and held me.
“that’s some of the things we
poor women face in life, don’t let
it bother you” she calmly advised.
But something deep down told
me i had lost Nnamdi forever.
The little hopes i had were
dashed that moment.
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PART 3
THE MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
My dear stop crying and think
ahead, crying over split milk
dosen’t make any sense” our
land-lady advised as she led me
to her apartment. “my life is
useless i feel like dying” i
weeped, “my dear stop mocking
God, he alone knows the reason
he kept you alive, so don’t be
ungrateful” she cautioned. “i
however think you should leave
your bag with me, return to your
family and see if they will accept
you” she advised minutes later,
after i had calmed down a little. I
cleaned my eyes and stared at
her with prayers in my lips. “i
pray they do, if not i’m stranded
and doomed” i murmured with a
broken spirit, knowing fully well
the kind of parents i had. Only
divine intervention could make
them change their stand. But I
had no choice than to try my luck
once again. I trekked from
Igbariam to Nnaji-nwede street
where my parents resided,
carrying Winnie with me. I
couldn’t afford using public
transport that fateful morning,
because i needed to make good
use of the little money i had. :::::
Mum was the only one at home
when i got there, making me
relax a bit as i rested in her shop
which was just in front of the
house. The fire in her eyes died
as soon as she saw me, tears
quickly formed in them as she
stared at my weak body. “nne”
was all she could mutter, while i
swallowed hard with tears in my
eyes. Other mothers would have
reached out and carried their
daughter’s child who equally was
her grand daughter, but she
didn’t, instead stared at us with
pity. Even though she never did
support dad’s harsh treatment
towards me, she equally never
condenmed it, perhaps because i
had five other younger sisters,
whom they needed to protect by
using my punishment as a lesson
and example to them. “mum help
me please i have nowhere else to
go, Nnamdi threw me out of his
house this morning” i sobbed
and knelt by her side with little
winnie in my arms. She breathed
deeply, scratched her head and
stared at the ceiling. “have you
eaten today?” i heard her ask.
“no mum food isn’t my problem”
i replied with tears. “i have beans
let me get some for you” she
murmured, left her shop and
went into the house to get a
plate of beans for me. She
returned with it, dropped the
plate on a small stool, and
reluctantly carried little winnie, so
that i could eat properly. ____
“please be quick with it, because
you have to leave before your
dad shows up, i don’t want his
problem today” she urged. Her
comment really broke my heart,
but i was already used to such
comments. I rushed up with my
meal, washed my mouth and
thanked her. “now you can leave
abeg” she murmured and gave
me fifty naira, “use it to buy
akamu {pap} for your daughter”
she added a bit coldly. I closed
my eyes out of pain but tears
refused to fall out. “mum i have
no-where to go” i reminded her,
but all she did was just to shrug.
“it’s non of my business you
aren’t our responsibility
anymore, if you have any case, do
present it to your father please
and not to me” she replied
nervously. Leaving me once again
lost, confused and hopeless,
“how can i face dad when mum
is behaving like this” i wondered.
I had hoped with time that their
cold behaviour towards me will
reduce, but instead of reducing,
it only increased. “anwúómú ööö
{i don die} here comes your dad”
mum exclaimed as she sighted
him from afar seconds later,
instantly pushing me out of her
shop. I stood outside and waited
for dad defiantly, with a broken
spirit and winnie in my arms,
“whatever will be, will eventually
be, let it happen now” I said
myself as i waited for him to
finish me.. ************ KINDLY
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MISTAKE OF MY LIFE
PART 2
Nnamdi soon woke up, ignored
my greeting, washed his mouth
and left the house without a
word. I was terribly scared
because of the way he looked at
me. I knew it was just a matter of
seconds before he kicks us out
of his room. I sobbed quietly as i
lamented my fate. “My mates are
all with their parents, enjoying
their lives and planning for a
brighter future. Here i’m
suffering like a refugee” i
reasoned with tears. “only if i
had listened to him months ago
and terminated my baby, i
wouldn’t be suffering in this
manner” i said to myself bitterly.
But deep down in my heart i
equally knew i rejected to do his
bidding because i couldn’t bear
such guilt which would have
been terrible and unbearable.
Winnie’s loud cry soon calmed
me. I quietly carried her, changed
her napkin, breastfed and sang a
lullaby for her. He came in that
moment eyeing us. “have you
packed all your things?” he asked
coldly. I swallowed hard and
stared at him pleadingly. “please
don’t do this to us” i begged,
“we are already managing well,
i’ll start a trade very soon” i
added. He scratched his head
uneasily and again eyed me
murderously, “do you call this life
eeh? Abeg shut that your dirty
mouth” he barked, before
grabbing all my clothes which he
dumped inside an old large bag,
fetched winnie’s things and
equally dumped them in it. “here
is two hundred and fifty Naira
{N250} it’s your transport fare to
your parents house, i have tried
enough for you, i won’t kill
myself doing it mtcheeew” he
muttered and threw the money
at me. Tears instantly fell
uncontrollably from my eyes, i
had no where to go. I was
doomed, I dropped winnie on
the bed, knelt and begged him
“please Nnamdi, please” i begged
again and again, but instead of
my pleas to calm him, it
infuriated him tremendously. He
slapped me hard, grabbed the
bag and threw it out of his room.
“i will do the same to you and
this baby if you don’t leave
peacefully” he threatened. I
stared at him heartbroken, and
hungry, cursing the day i granted
him access to my body. The story
of my love life with Nnamdi really
is a long one. An affair which
never should have happened in
the first place had i ignored my
heart, because he really had
nothing to offer me, yet i
foolishly fell in love with him. A
very stupid teenage love affair
which i now regret. Love dosen’t
work in an empty stomach,
neither does it work in an
unsecured environment. Nnamdi
wasn’t in love with me any
longer because circumstances
changed and he only saw me as
a burden to his miserable life. He
totally ignored winnie’s cries, my
pleas and our neighbours
preachings as he pushed us out
of his house that fateful morning.
A day i was supposed to be
happy because it was my
birthday. *** WATCH OUT FOR
PART 3
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PART 1..
22nd June 1989″ ‘6:30am’ I
woke up from sleep with a very
terrible headache, while hunger
and fear occupied the rest of my
body. Nnamdi who was lying by
my side instantly coughed,
startling me. I rubbed my eyes,
got up from bed and smiled at
little winnie who was sleeping
peaceful on her cot. That fateful
day was my 19th birthday, but
instead of being the happiest day
of my life, it brought great
suspence, fear and sorrow with
it. It was equally the last day
Nnamdi, my boyfriend and also
little Winnie’s father gave me to
pack out from his room. Our
relationship suddenly turned
sour when i got pregnant for
him. He never wanted me to keep
the baby, but i refused to
terminate it leaving him with no
choice than to accept
responsibility,when my parents
threw me out of their house. I
was in SS3 when it happened,
while he was just a struggling
brick layer and a motor mechanic
apprentice. We both were from
poor backgrounds which truly
worsened everything. I was then
left at his mercy, and out of
frustration he never allowed a
moment to pass without
reminding me of the hardship i
was causing him and how
unlucky i was. Those were the
moments i felt like killing myself. I
admit i made a terribly mistake
by having unprotected sex and
getting pregnant for him, but
harming my innocent baby was
what i really couldn’t do. I
managed and struggled with
determination until i gave birth
to my little girl on 21st december
1988. Nnamdi on his part
grudgingly supported me by
providing the little he had which
he never did without
complaining, but the love and joy
my little girl brought into my life
sustained and gave me hope. As
soon as little winnie was born,
he gave me six months to leave
his house. At first i thought it
was one of his numerous
careless comments, but as June
slowly drew near, he began
singing it almost everyday in my
ears. Leaving me confused,
demoralized and unhappy. It
really wasn’t as if he was
spending much on us. I only ate
twice daily while little winnie
survived on my br.east milk and
few ‘Tins’ of baby milk concerned
neighbours especially our land-
lady do give us. The previous day
{21st June}, he almost strangled
me simply because i begged him
to allow us stay few more
months with him. I had no
money on me, nor family to seek
because to them i was good as
dead. Not even when i took little
Winnie to them months after she
was born did their mind change.
I murmured some prayers as i
awaited my fate, wondering
where to go, when he eventually
wakes up and throws us out.
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2
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As soon as I cleared out the
dinner table, I went into the
bedroom, not bothering to say
goodnight to Kenny in the living
room. I knew he was going to be
coming to bed soon enough. I
needed him to think I was fast
asleep by the time he came to
bed. I quickly got into the
bathroom and had a quick
shower before climbing into bed.
I made sure I put on my long
pyjamas so there was no way he
could have easy access to my
body. About an hour later when I
heard him climb into bed and
turn the other way, I finally let
out the breath I was holding. I
managed to escape the sex
tonight.
By the time I woke up the next
morning, I knew we were going
to have another round of noise
and fight and I quickly said a
silent prayer to God for strength.
I could feel his hand roaming
round my body relentlessly and
there was no doubt in my mind
what the expected end result to
be. I opened my eyes and took a
glimpse at the clock on the wall.
It was just 6.am. I turned and
removed his hands from my
body and tried to get up only to
be pulled back. By the third time
of going through the same
motion, he finally spoke up.
''Babe, what is the excuse today?
It has been 2 weeks for Christ
sake. How am I supposed to be
happy if you won't even have sex
with me?'' He said with obvious
frustration in his voice.
''So your happiness is now tied
to sex? You still don't get it do
you? I am doing this for us. For
our home and our future. I told
you before I started that this was
going to happen and you agreed
and now you want to make me
feel guilty. Seriously I am
confused.''
''Omololami, you know I am not
opposed to prayer and fasting. I
love God too and I go to church
but you cannot honestly expect
me not to have sex for the next
100 days just because you want
to fast''
I was so angry at that statement
and I flared up,
''Seriously Kenny, are you kidding
me right now? What happened
to self control? This just shows
how far you have fallen from the
faith. Is this not the same you
that used to fast with me all the
time before we got married? So
all that spirituality was a lie? Did
we not court for two years
without sex? So you must have
been cheating on me.''
''What? How can you say that?
Are you crazy? How can you even
compare both scenarios? I was
single then now I am married.
Why did I get married if I can't
have sex?''
''Oh so now I am a sex machine?
You married me for the sex?'' I
asked
''You know what, I wont waste
my time having this fruitless
conversation with you. I am
warning you for the last time. I
wont take this your fasting
bullshit and you will learn to
respect me in this house. If this is
the rubbish they are teaching
you in church, I will ban you from
going there''
''You wont dare Kehinde
Ayorinde. You will not dare. If I
ever have to choose between
you and my God, trust me, you
will loose. It is God first and you
second. That devil that is trying
to use you, will not find a place''.
''Try me, Lola, just try me'' he said
as he walked into the bathroom
and slammed the door.
I walked out of the room and
went into the kitchen
heartbroken. As I went about
making Kenny's lunch that he
usually takes to work I was so
sad. I didn't understand Kenny's
bitterness towards my
relationship with God. I didn't
expect to have these kind of
issues just 6 months after
marriage. He knew how much I
loved God and how much that
relationship means to me and he
was proving so difficult. We even
talked about this while we were
courting and he used to tell me
how much he loved my passion
for God. We have tried getting
pregnant for the past 5 months
and nothing has happened and I
knew I needed to tackle it in
prayer before 5 months turned
to 15 years and I told him I
decided to join the 100 days fast
in church. Initially, he had agreed
to join me but 3 days after he
stopped. I didn't get offended. I
decided to do the prayers myself,
I just did not expect him to be so
bitter about it. As I finished
packing his lunch about 30
minutes later, Kenny came out
fully dressed and just walked
past me without picking up his
food as usual. I quickly ran after
him and caught up with him just
as he was getting into his car.
''You didn't take your food'' I
said.
''Take that rubbish food and get
out of my sight. I don't want
your food, now or ever until you
learn to respect me and until you
decide what is more important
to you'' he said and slammed the
door, driving away while I stood
there mouth agape.
We had a lot of disagreements
over sex in the last two weeks
but I had never seen Kenny so
bitter before. I knew there and
then I needed to pray for my
home. Casting out every demon
that suddenly possessed my
husband. …
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oko?? just within an interval of
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8 dead including finalist. Many
had serious injuries. My course
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d dead. Wishing my course mate
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