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Ever since I was in nursery school one thing I noticed was I didn't have a lot of friends. I was a very quiet guy in class till the extent my mum had to convince her neighbour's daughter to switch her school to see if I would loosen up, which probably didn't work out. I was constantly backlashed by teachers back then and also wasn't used to my classmates. I eventually changed school because we moved to another area.

In my new school, I had the same challenges. While still in nursery school, I remember whenever I got dropped off at school, my dad always requested I open my mouth and talk because I was reported several times by my new teachers. During this period, as a result of my quietness, I was molested by 2 girls in my class who usually touched my private parts. I remember one of them telling me she would marry me because I was quiet. We kissed and did all sorts of sexual stuff at that age. At home, I had a nanny...

As I entered primary school, I changed school because we changed location again. In my new primary school, I was quiet, but not as quiet as in my nursery school. I had some friends and no issues with socializing, although there were times when I believe I was taken advantage of or did foolish things.

I changed primary school again in Primary 2 due to another change in location. There, I was still deemed quiet but had no issues with socializing. However, I gathered a lot of hate, and I didn't know why. I remember a time we were taking photographs with friends, and when it was my turn, nobody came, despite every other pupil taking pictures with people who weren't necessarily their friends. My row was empty; only one of my friends came. I was so embarrassed that I decided not to snap the picture again. ...

When I got into secondary school in JSS1 and JSS2, a similar thing was unfolding, just that this time I had companions. They kept changing during various times. In JSS3, I remember a guy even mocking me for not having friends, just people I talked to. In JSS3, I joined a bad gang just to be accepted and become popular. It worked, but it affected my studies, and I fell academically until SS1. The same bad gang; I had 'friends' in quotes then. I repeated SS1 and formed other friendships.

My quiet nature was still there. People could tell that the bad guy image or the people I was moving with weren't my type. But I continued performing poorly in school until my dad changed my school. At this point, all my friendships didn't stand the test of time. Till this date, I don't talk to anyone from my former secondary school. In my new school, the same thing happened. I made friends, but only two of them I talk to till today. I have no contact with the others.

Now, in university, I make bonds, but when I go home for holidays, the true nature of these bonds is revealed as we rarely keep in touch. Despite making efforts once in a while to reach out, I don't get authentic replies. Due to my experience, I am beginning to view new people in my life with some level of skepticism. Not that I show it, but at the back of my mind, I tell myself there's a 70% chance this person wouldn't last in my life—people come, people go.

Some of my current friends display a level of ego toward me at times. I think I was too friendly, so now I find it hard being my full self in a friendship. I have calculations and analysis going through my head, and I don't put people in mind anymore. I try not to get easily attached. Due to having few friends, when I meet new ones, there's almost this form of scarcity mindset that creeps in, especially with the opposite gender (females). I start thinking about them, I guess because my first secondary school was a boys school but that's another issue on it's own although year by year It gets better.

All in all, I've noticed that I don't form bonds, like long-lasting bonds, even though I am friendly. People either take me for granted or don't care. I'm in university, and some of these traits still persist, so I don't have a handful of true friends or people I can talk to. I am a boy.

Peterlandil:
All in all, I've noticed that I don't form bonds, like long-lasting bonds, even though I am friendly. People either take me for granted or don't care. I'm in university, and some of these traits still persist, so I don't have a handful of true friends or people I can talk to. I am a boy.

Nature Has Her Way of Moulding Her Own People .... There is always "Advantages in all advantages" ... Simply Annex all the Powers Therein to Do Something Better with Yourself!

But You need to be social to enjoy some certain Privileges in Life thus:

Talk to Girls, Go to Social Gatherings like Gardens, Visit the Gyms, Engage in volunteers services, Visit Pubs to see Boys Doing their Things.... Engage in Social Services ....

Stop Keeping to yourself, it can lead to mental disorder ....!

DonroxyII:
Nature Has Her Way of Moulding Her Own People .... There is always "Advantages in all advantages" ... Simply Annex all the Powers Therein to Do Something Better with Yourself!

But You need to be social to enjoy some certain Privileges in Life thus:

Talk to Girls, Go to Social Gatherings like Gardens, Visit the Gyms, Engage in volunteers services, Visit Pubs to see Boys Doing their Things.... Engage in Social Services ....

Stop Keeping to yourself, it can lead to mental disorder ....!

Most decent advice, I appreciate 🙏🏾

Peterlandil:
Most decent advice, I appreciate 🙏🏾

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