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fellowbeing:
I will kill myself on Wednesday if am not able to sort this out. I'm tired of this life even though people around believe all is well with me.

I am a 23 year old undergraduate of University of Ilorin. I am a spill over student due for graduation last year. I had 2 courses for first semester and 5 courses for second semester, including project. I really tried my best this year, so that I can graduate. The trauma, depression, studying with my juniors, O God, after stressing myself reading day and night, preparing hard and settling project issues, just to discover that I failed 2 courses in second semester. I will now splash, not again.

I am pressing some buttons IF the courses can be waved. I discovered that I failed the two on friday after checking my results at the level adviser's office.

How will I inform my parents? I don't have a choice than to just end this if nothing can be done before Wednesday evening.

The pressure is just too much. I am the first born of my parent. They are expecting the good news not the splash news again, not after supporting me for a year.

fellowbeing:
Thanks bro, but you said borrowed courses meaning electives, the two courses are compulsory and are departmental courses.

stan241:
I hope you reading the different stories of folks who are commenting




I was very ill during my 200l and failed pratically all the courses, got to final year and same issues, i wrote 7 courses in my spill over year and somehow this one course kept dragging me back, the scores were always 36,37 and the last one was 39 in my 1st spill over year....you can imagine how i felt...then i took that same course again and got 38 in my 2nd spill over year last year


So 2yrs after graduation and still can't graduate, lemme not lie to you, its hard, your mates moving on with their lives, posting pictures on social media and you just stuck there but i knew i had to keep moving, keep believing that there was light at the end of the tunnel

I picked up teaching jobs through my adult education friends i used to tutor to pay up my extra year fees and pay my house rent, in short i was given a pay raise just after the first year teaching(here is someone without a certificate o), the principal said i was that good, a course mate who had even gone for service and came back called me asking to hook her up with a teaching job in town there where i was cus she heard i had helped out a few other people too, in just under a year, i had become a full time teacher, i took private lessons, tutored jamb centres in fact i was the one who was complaining of being tired, why cus I never gave up






The man who kept failing me was retired this year and the new lecturer said, "just enter the hall and sign attendance on exam day and I'll pass you" this was suppossed to be the 3rd year spill over



Only for someone i shared my problem with to write a letter to the HOD for me asking them(a dpt that never waives) to help me waive my result, only last week the dpt secretary said my letter had been attended to and sent to my course adviser to confirm that indeed its just that one course that's delaying me from graduating, all that's left now is for him to confirm and who knows i might even make it for 2nd batch this year by God's grace







Never give up, never let any problem make you consider taking your own life because its not the solution



I do hope you read this though and draw whatever strength you can from it



It is well with you in Jesus Name

fellowbeing:
The pressure is just too much. I am the first born of my parent. They are expecting the good news not the splash news again, not after supporting me for a year. O God, it is not easy.

Horlufemi:
Sniper fast well well. How I know? I drank 3 bottles in 2mins, died, then woke up again.

fellowbeing:
I will kill myself on Wednesday if am not able to sort this out. I'm tired of this life even though people around believe all is well with me.

I am a 23 year old undergraduate of University of Ilorin. I am a spill over student due for graduation last year. I had 2 courses for first semester and 5 courses for second semester, including project. I really tried my best this year, so that I can graduate. The trauma, depression, studying with my juniors, O God, after stressing myself reading day and night, preparing hard and settling project issues, just to discover that I failed 2 courses in second semester. I will now splash, not again.

I am pressing some buttons IF the courses can be waved. I discovered that I failed the two on friday after checking my results at the level adviser's office.

How will I inform my parents? I don't have a choice than to just end this if nothing can be done before Wednesday evening.

The pressure is just too much. I am the first born of my parent. They are expecting the good news not the splash news again, not after supporting me for a year.

fellowbeing:
I'm in faculty of life sciences, I will PM you.

Majestinni:
Thanks mercielizzie I hope you will be able to help, and Bro stay strong its not the end of the world. Spilling is not a small matter o, its only those of us that has passed through it that can tell, I pray God will help us.

blake777:
5 years from now you're gonna b laughing at what you just wrote,take it slow bruv remember "when life gives you lemon......"

Kristokx:
I understand how you feel bro it's not the end of the world I just found out from my level adviser that I would be graduating with a third class that's 2.36 after all the struggle and stress in unilorin not to mention the level of disappointment, at a time felt life isn't worth living I've had silly thoughts too but I just realized it's not worth it ur still a young man you've got more to come in the future be positive and hopeful who knows they might wave it for u we are all waiting on the graduating list

fellowbeing:
I will kill myself on Wednesday if am not able to sort this out. I'm tired of this life even though people around believe all is well with me.

I am a 23 year old undergraduate of University of Ilorin. I am a spill over student due for graduation last year. I had 2 courses for first semester and 5 courses for second semester, including project. I really tried my best this year, so that I can graduate. The trauma, depression, studying with my juniors, O God, after stressing myself reading day and night, preparing hard and settling project issues, just to discover that I failed 2 courses in second semester. I will now splash, not again.

I am pressing some buttons IF the courses can be waved. I discovered that I failed the two on friday after checking my results at the level adviser's office.

How will I inform my parents? I don't have a choice than to just end this if nothing can be done before Wednesday evening.

The pressure is just too much. I am the first born of my parent. They are expecting the good news not the splash news again, not after supporting me for a year.

Jengbetiele:
Let me quickly share my story with you....the best sermon is one's personal experience. I left secondary school in 2004. By 2005, I got admitted to a state university in Ekiti State. After two years of studies in Ekiti state, I discovered the program i was doing was not accredited. To make the story worse, nearly all lecturers in the faculty of science passionately disliked the program. It was called SLT then. Consequently, they mark down our papers. Not only that, they call us all sorts of names like NFA, unfortunate students and the likes anyone who attended the university and did that course can attest to what i am saying. My dad happens to be a staff of the University, so i told him about the poor grades, everything i heard about the program, and the intensity of the lecturer's hatred for the program all to no avail. All he said was whenever students dont want to read, they come up with different flimsy excuses so i kept mute.

After five years of my life in that school, my dad was made one of the board members of the faculty so he saw the whole results since the inception of the program. He saw so may spill over students from year 2000, and the fact that the program has not been accredited. I was in 500 level(final year) then with alot of carry overs.....carry over is not a big deal in that program....people had 15. My father saw how bad it was and he immediately invited me to his office for a meeting. He blamed himself for not listening to me when i complained 3 years earlier and he said he would want me to transfer immediately. That was how i took my transcript and returned to 200level in another school entirely when i ought to graduate with maybe a third class or a pass.

I wasted 5years of my life in Ekiti as a result of this, i was so sad and depressed. Merely sitting with my younger brother's age mate turned my stomach in anger. Infact when i got to the new school, my own younger brother who i happened to be ahead of by 3years became my senior. The retrogression started affecting my grades such that attending classes became a burden. Along the line, i sat myself down and reasoned deeply about how my life has been. For crying out loud, I used to the best student in secondary school. I was only unfortunate to have attended the wrong program in Ekiti. Though i wasn't given any certificate despite the number of years spent but what about the life lessons i learnt?. I made a concrete decision to change my attitude towards my new classmates and I began to humble myself to a fault. Above all, i began to see my new school as the golden opportunity to start afresh again. My declining grades all of a sudden began to soar so high such that i had 5.0/5.0 in one of the semesters and i ended finishing top 5 out of the class of about 300.

Today, I am currently in Canada on a graduate program fully funded by a Canadian university. Up till now, I am yet to spend a dime of myself in Canada because the scholarship covered everything. Guess what?, I even got two scholarships from two different universities and just last week, I got another funding again. Yes just last week! What if i had committed suicide then? . Would i have seen the goodness almighty God has packaged in my future today? What i am saying in essence is you can fall as much as possible but whenever you fall and refuse to rise again is when you failed. The righteous shall fall seven times.....but they shall rise again.

Conclusively, whatever the case maybe, dust up yourself and try again. Do not give up so easily because winners never quit and quitters never win. I am sure very soon you gonna look back and smile. Every successful man or woman at some point had a share of that gloomy period when you feel you are all alone and the world is about comming down on you. But I am happy to announce to you that alot of people have tread this same path and today they have become success and point of reference in the society. Brother, it is never how far, but how well and tough time never lasts tough people do!!!!!!

Ihinmi:
pls did you av any ideal wen d list will be out because am tire of waiting

Kristokx:
No bro we just patiently waiting hopefully this week

fellowbeing:
I will kill myself on Wednesday if am not able to sort this out. I'm tired of this life even though people around believe all is well with me.

I am a 23 year old undergraduate of University of Ilorin. I am a spill over student due for graduation last year. I had 2 courses for first semester and 5 courses for second semester, including project. I really tried my best this year, so that I can graduate. The trauma, depression, studying with my juniors, O God, after stressing myself reading day and night, preparing hard and settling project issues, just to discover that I failed 2 courses in second semester. I will now splash, not again.

I am pressing some buttons IF the courses can be waved. I discovered that I failed the two on friday after checking my results at the level adviser's office.

How will I inform my parents? I don't have a choice than to just end this if nothing can be done before Wednesday evening.

The pressure is just too much. I am the first born of my parent. They are expecting the good news not the splash news again, not after supporting me for a year.

naijapsych:
Life is in phases my brother. Take to heart all the numerous advice you have received on this page.
Then you might want to sit down and map out realistic ways to focus on those courses.
No course is difficult, it usually just ones perception, don't forget success or failure begins in the mind.
As long as you have people that have passed these courses then by all means you will TOO.
So brace up, life is full of challenges. Step up to this one, face it and defeat it. You CAN if you think You CAN!

milychocs:
@ fellowbeing
sending you warm thoughts from here
...please live, okay?

I hope you are all right?
Bless, and HUG