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Addicted To S*X / ADDICTED-A Short True Life Story / How I Become Addicted To Masturbation(real Life) (2) (3) (4)
Addicted by Penshalom(f): 7:19am On Mar 21, 2017 |
ADDICTED Episode 1 "Curiosity" That's what led me to this. When people see me, they only see my physical look, that innocent look. They don't know that I'm way past innocent. If they could go deeper, they will know who I really am. I bet most of them will even run away from me. Who wouldn't? I would even run away from me. Hmm. I was just myself. I wouldn't exactly say I was very spiritual but my spiritual life was okay, at least God spoke to me occasionally. I was in class one day. I saw my friends totally engrossed to something they were watching on their phone. This has become a daily occurrence for them. I moved closer to them, they didn't even see me coming. "Wow, what they are watching must be so interesting." I thought I snatched the phone from their hands and what I saw made me gasp. The phone was snatched back from me. I stood there shocked. My friends saw my face and laughed. "You are still naive.. "one of them said. I was later able to move my leg and I went back to my seat. The day went by fast. I went back home. At night as I was reading my Bible. What happened during the day popped into my mind. I shook my head to clear it away. It came again, and again and again. I dropped my Bible. I picked up my phone. I opened it. I clicked on my Opera Mini application. I clicked on Google and then I typed in. Penshalom IG handle- Penshalom_ Facebook- Penshalom Art 1 Like
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Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 8:40am On Mar 22, 2017 |
ADDICTED Episode 2 The MTN network that night which was fluctuating before started working properly. I said to myself, "John, don't try it o" but I was weak. I checked it anyway. I saw pictures, loads of them. Pictures that awakened things within me. I hated those feelings and loved them at the same time. I decided to go further.. I downloaded a video. I watched in awe It ignited more intense feelings. I welcomed them. Then, I realized what I was doing. I stopped watching it and deleted it. I felt dirty. I felt like I had committed a big sin. "I will not do it again" I promised myself. I prayed to God to forgive and vowed never to do it again. I prayed and prayed until I was satisfied. Then I slept. Penshalom IG handle- Penshalom_ Fb- Penshalom Art. Thanks, I love you 1 Like
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Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 9:43am On Mar 22, 2017 |
Nice piece..... following |
Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 9:45am On Mar 22, 2017 |
this story is going to be a boom trust me.. |
Re: Addicted by LitQueen(f): 2:54pm On Mar 22, 2017 |
Following though I don't really understand |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 7:54pm On Mar 23, 2017 |
@dammyd46 thank you
@LitQueen it's a fictional story of a guy that got addicted to porn |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 8:23am On Mar 24, 2017 |
Episode 3 I woke up the following morning feeling refreshed. I remembered last night, I felt the guilt but I shook it off. "I've prayed for forgiveness, besides I'm never going it again". I said to myself. I did my morning devotion. I dressed up and got ready for school. I decided to stay away from those guys that day. I was able to accomplish that. As usual, I went back home after school. And then at night..... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Nothing happened. I just slept as usual. I was able to stay away for days. Until one day.. We were watching an American movie. And it got to a scene...you should know what I'm talking about. They started their rubbish, my younger sis switched off the TV immediately. But the image was already imprinted in my head and then the images of the other time came to my mind too. I started feeling hot all over. I stood up and walked to my room like a robot. Penshalom.
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Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 8:27pm On Mar 24, 2017 |
hmmmmm.. 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 8:30pm On Mar 24, 2017 |
@Penshalom you need to keep updating this story so people won't just read and run away 2 Likes |
Re: Addicted by divatolaz: 12:59pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
Nice beginning.... Pls keep on updating 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 4:07pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
@dammyd46, i will try too jawe, just busy..
@divatolaz, thank you |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 4:08pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
Episode 4 I entered my room and sat down on my bed. Like a robot I picked up my phone. I went to the site last time and downloaded a video. My heart and my brain were screaming stop. But it's like I did not have power over my body, my hand and my eyes especially. I watched the video and downloaded another one, I watched them both. After I finished and my hormones went back to normal, I realized myself. I prayed again and again, crying and begging God. I locked myself up in my room throughout that day. I promised myself again that I will not go back to it. The following day unfortunately for me was a Sunday. I sat at the back of the church. I didn't talk to anybody, my mom asked me what was wrong, I told her nothing. I mean, who will tell an African parent you've been watching porn? Definitely, not me. My parents are strict and on top of that Bible-believing ones. I was more determined tho' that it won't happen again. But, somebody lied. Penshalom IG handle- Penshalom_ Facebook- Penshalom Art
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Re: Addicted by divatolaz: 5:04pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
Penshalom:pls try I beg of u...... Just find lil time out to give us update. I know is not easy... God will continue to help u 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 5:27pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
@divatolaz I will... thanks 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by divatolaz: 5:37pm On Mar 25, 2017 |
Penshalom:uwc |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 6:44am On Mar 26, 2017 |
Episode 5 An idle hand they say is the devil's workshop. I was idle one day and then I broke my promise, again. I did not even bother praying again. After all the Bible even says, "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak". That was my consolation. It got to a point that whenever I saw a girl the first thing that comes to my mind is what is beneath her skirt. My imagination runs wild. To myself I am the devil you've never seen but to others I am an angel in human form. I had videos on my phone, lots of 'em so my phone is always locked with a password. One day, my younger sis picked up my phone. As soon as I saw it with her, I shouted at her and snatched it from her hand. She was so scared, she scrambled to her room. When I calmed down, I remembered my phone has a password which she does not know. I felt really guilty and apologized to her. But I warned her not touch my phone again without permission. Anyway, I made sure that my phone is always in my room. Whenever anyone wanted to check my phone, I get so scared. Gradually, it became a habit, watching them became a part of me. Happy Sunday y'all. Penshalom
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Re: Addicted by divatolaz: 7:15am On Mar 26, 2017 |
Same to u luv..... Thanks for the update 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 10:36am On Mar 26, 2017 |
Same here 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 7:04am On Mar 27, 2017 |
Episode 6 It became a part of me. I got used to it. I wasn't even thinking it is a bad thing anymore. I decided if God will not save me then I will continue in it after all I've asked Him so many times to help me stop. I was and still am an angel in the day a devil at night. I'm always locked up in my room. My Dad thinks I'm studying, he even praises me and sets me as an example to my sister. I don't even read that much anymore. I read but not like before. My life became a total mess. It got to a point that watching those videos did not satisfy me again. I wanted to know how it feels to be in that position. But I know and I believe it's wrong doing so, so I went for another alternative. Note I know this chapter is short. The story is coming to an end. What do you think will happen to John? Happy new week. Penshalom 1 Like
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Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 9:32pm On Mar 27, 2017 |
Episode 7 You probably would have guessed what it is. I started touching myself. When I did it at first, it felt weird and all but I liked it. I continued doing it. In my room, in the bathroom, in the kitchen, wherever was available and I was alone. I wanted to stop. I really wanted to but I'm not strong enough. If only I had not snatched their phones from them that day. This habit has affected me tremendously. I don't pray, I don't study the word of God, I try to stay away from any church activities because I feel too dirty to even stand in God's presence. It was not until one day that I sat down and realized that it's been two years that I've been into this. It was then I realized I need to do something. That's why I'm here, I need your help. I want to stop this. I finished talking and dared to look up at my audience. My Pastor and my parents. No one said a thing. My parents especially my mom kept staring at me in shock. I had to look away. I saw the disappointment in their eyes. My Pastor broke the silence and said what gave me hope.. "You coming forward about your problem is the first step to your freedom". THE END. Thank you so much for reading. God bless you all. I love you. Penshalom IG handle- Penshalom_ Facebook- Penshalom Art
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Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 6:15am On Mar 28, 2017 |
wow..... Really dope, But can't be done with a Nigerian parent 1 Like |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 7:19am On Mar 28, 2017 |
Lol, it can, it depends on the Nigerian parent sha. |
Re: Addicted by LitQueen(f): 8:10pm On Mar 28, 2017 |
Penshalom:Really depends on the parent. If it was my dad, prepare to be disowned. |
Re: Addicted by Penshalom(f): 8:55am On Mar 29, 2017 |
Lol You can't really predict parents tho, some of them are just putting up front to make you fear them. You wouldn't know if you don't try |
Re: Addicted by dammyd46(m): 7:14pm On Mar 29, 2017 |
Penshalom:Ha try watin with Nigerian parent you are a gunner o imagine the topic next sunday, they be like that's the parent of that yeye boy 1 Like |
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