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Crime / Re: Owo: Dozens Killed as Terrorists Attack Church During Service In Ondo State by Pray4meJC(m): 6:39pm On Jun 05, 2022
phazotron:




I'm a (not perfect) Christian, but are you sure he's active in Nigeria? I think he has left us alone to deal with the issue. Nobody should say because we're sinners. Nobody is perfect. The children of Israel whom he fought for were not perfect. All of us may not be perfect, bit we have lots of fervent Christians down here. Our imperfections is not an excuse for God to abandon in this way. We have prayed and prayed. I'm extremely disappointed and disheartened. It's best we raise up our own militias. Afterall, God instructed the children of Israel to go against the Amalekites.

This is the stupid excuse by we christians. People like saying nobody is perfect, nobody holy pass and yet we are waiting for God to always assist us in our sinful way. Didn't he say we should present ourselves spotless and blameless for the judgement day? Our desire should be to have the holy spirit and then from there it will be so easy trusting / obeying God

One of the bad habits of christians today is deliberate disobedience
Crime / Re: Owo: Dozens Killed as Terrorists Attack Church During Service In Ondo State by Pray4meJC(m): 5:41pm On Jun 05, 2022
terrafella:
Even if God exists, I don't think he really cares about those who worship him. Many Christians claim that the holy spirit speaks to them. But he didn't warn any soul and he never instructed the pastor to send everyone home. They say he knows the end from the beginning but sat back and watched little kids die. Even I as a sinful human can't let such happen if I have the power to stop it. Does he still answer prayers? I am losing my faith in God.

Stop talking like this. We as Christians don't even know what we are doing. We play with sin hiding under the cover of God understand. Does God understand sin. Some foolish ones will say we are living in the era of grace. Grace in Jesus means the power to stop sinning and not to be sinning.

I tell you if there are 10 great pastors that teaches what you need to hear & not what you want to hear this country Nigeria will be a change place. Too many watered down doctrine. You think if churches were flowing with the power of the holy ghost, no terrorists will have the effrontary to attack God's people. They will be roasted while planning their evil. Thank God for this church I found in Benin City.

97% of churches in Nigeria have no holy ghost and everyone in that building is playing with their lives. It is an event centre and not a church. God forbid arm robbers attack there & gun you, people start mocking God. Your pastor or GO is guarded heavily by armed uniform men and yet common sense didn't tell you to flee such church. Christians must all return back to the old church burning with holy ghost fire, holiness and God's righteousness. Don't be deceived by miracles even the devil can heal but with great consequences waiting for you
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 4:44am On Jun 05, 2022
CaptMarvel:
Have you in anyway offended any lady before?

When I was narrating all the nasty things I did in first page, this part wasn't included. In those days in that same house there's this single father neighbor we were all leaving together peacefully. After some years he was now searching for a wife but sadly all the women introduced to him he will always have one complaint or the other. One day, he brought him one single mother. They started cohabiting from the day. In the evening this woman will put a basin of water in her window & fill to the brim & the next morning just throw it away and repeat the process. As a naive young man the same evil spirit that made me do all the stupid stuff on page 1 started giving me a mind of foolish curiosity instead of minding my own business. Meanwhile, the very day this woman entered the house, the man changed completely you wouldn't even know if his around except when going to work. Now the wife started making unnecessary senseless quarrel with everyone in the house.

When it was my turn for her to bring quarrel, she accused me of tormenting her in the dream and that she has been warning me severally in the dream. She also said I go shook hand for your eye. It was after this statement I remember troubling the water basin she always placed in front of her window. The water will be cold like electric passes through it.

One day a heavy quarrel broke out between them and against every one else and that was how the man & the cohabiting woman packed out angrily the next day. They are still leaving well together but that man until last year saw me & we greeted fine but that old love energy he exhibited before bringing that woman has faded. He didn't bother to visit us when he heard about the death of my father a decade + ago despite them being good friends. He works in one of federal campuses here & information & distance not issue because the environment I was leaving was more like a family street. You hardly can know if someone is a tenant because of love then but now is the opposite.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 2:06pm On Jun 04, 2022
Then very recently in a dream walking in a kind of university environment and was casually slapping some females starring at me. The third lady I slapped suddenly put on angry countenance. Started begging her even kneeling but she wouldn't oblige. Then I realized in the dream not wearing underwear but only shirt covering up my already strong erected manhood. This time around I was singing _enough is enough enough is a enough_ It was now dawn on me I was dreaming because my spirit was now struggling to leave the dream world to my body. Then the girl or lady pronounce this on me while on my knees pleading her to forgive me " may your talent continue to diminish. I woke up and realized it was a dream like one in a physical world. Started praying, rebuking & cancelling the dream with fire of the Holy Ghost. This is the third dream experience looking like physical world.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 2:04pm On Jun 04, 2022
Through out last month, I didn't engage in fast due to the health part I noted above. But been praying.

I haven't had wet dream this week and I'm making every effort for this to be the beginning of breaking away absolutely from this nightmare. Truth is there's gradual improvement now.

Some weeks ago, I had a dream where I was in a tarred road on my knees pleading like this "Lord have mercy on me, have compassion on me" When I started using this line "Lord thou art my king O Lord command deliverances for me". As I was about finishing this saying a strange object started choking my throat and could not voice out again. Then I felt my spirit returned back to my body and was awake suddenly. This is the second time in my whole life I will be dreaming like someone physically present in that environment. The whole stuff was so real like a physical day light world. Passersby were just looking & ignoring me.

The second dream cont.............
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 2:04pm On Jun 04, 2022
Actually l'm not here to dwell in vain arguments. True Christians should not do that. According to you " because I'm not exposed and fornicating that is the reason for my suffering wet dreams" right? Secondly, will having a girlfriend also solve my financial burden and automatically restore back my losses?

I remember years doing building site work known in local parlance as "legbuke" a serving man mixing cement for the mason. Getting home after all these hardwork, stress & tiredness it didn't stop the wet dream.

We should stop coming online to form woke and "oyinbo wananbi". In the spiritual world nothing like civilisation and old school. The mandate of the devil is to kill, to steal, destroy and deceive. Stop dragging the naive into your so called "wokeness " in spiritual matters. Didn't envisaged that both teenagers and non christians will be commenting on this issue but again I realise this is a forum with varieties of people especially when the owners placed it on front page.

Great to announce the high blood pressure level of 200+ have dropped to normal. The doctors were shocked when I told them I didn't take the drugs they prescribed. It took three weeks of meditation and relaxing to do the trick. The exact stuff I did is a topic for another time so as not to derail this thread. The condition was not supposed to come up in the first place but I never knew the emotions resulting from debt / financial losses was heating and gathering momentum subliminally
thereby leading to terrible BP that almost took my life. I just pretend now that nothing happened.

Cont ......
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 10:56am On Apr 27, 2022
ThothHermes:
You are under the influence of a demon of lust and perversion. A demon comes to manipulate you at night. The reason the wet dreams happen after your prayer and fasting is because you actually make some spiritual contact.
Satan is the master of the sense realm.
The dream about seeing yourself in your former school or house is the spirit of delay and stagnation. You may also see yourself writing exams you've already done in the past.

Download Complete Deliverance 1,2, and 3 by Apostle Joshua Selman. Your life is about to change.
Tell me what state you reside in.

Very true confirmation at the bolded. Delays/stagnation is what brought about this whole story. Rising and falling is like moving in circular motion

Right now can no longer do any physical work as much as I used to like clearing, lifting blocks etc. for 5 minutes without my heart feeling like jumping out, drum beat while my ears oozes with heavy drum beating sounds on the inside. It wasn't so 2 months ago.

Life started for me like one of those brilliant youngsters out there but sooner was noticing memory losses in my 14th birthday slowly. I've not entangled myself then and my father didn't help matters either because he was always feeling & saying I wasn't serious with life and studies. In SS2, could no longer coped with STEM subjects and the rest became history. Not trying to compare my life and destiny with others but I'm decades behind most of my classmates doing well in Texas, Engineering, Education, Medicine, Science, Law, Business, Family, Finance, Software, Leadership.

Definitely will download all the videos tonight.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 12:21pm On Apr 26, 2022
For those sending me request & asking for whatapp number, please I'm sorry can't do that. Someone here on page 1 accused me of being a fake christian/fake story and that he would stop sending solutions to me via email for reasons I didn't reply to his lengthy post here and answer his questions by putting every detail about me. He said if truely my story is real, I would careless about my privacy.

Secondly, it will cause me great distractions and financial burden through data subscriptions & others. I've been using mobile phones over the years now but what did I achieved? Losses, disappointment & pains. Mobile phones & the likes don't interest me anymore.

Please make your solutions and links known openly here for the benfit of others with similar problems in the future.

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Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 12:21pm On Apr 26, 2022
DonXavi:
I just want to encourage you to hold onto God stronger than anything else, sell yourself out totally to Him, that is the only solution to your problem. I passed this same thing you are passing through, even worse, but God delivered me and gave me victory over them.

Let me tell you a bit of my story: I used to watch porn a lot, and I also used to be a chronic womanizer, I masturbated anytime the thought came into my head. In 2009 I started having strong wet dreams, anytime I closed my eyes I would see different women coming to make love to me, I wake up to see myself wet. These women came in different form and shapes, it got to a point that even without these women coming, I would still wake up and see myself wet. Later on it started affecting my finances. That year I travelled to the US for business, because I was into car business. I invested more than 60 thousand dollars in importing cars, the cars arrived safely, and as they were being conveyed from the port to the city in a convoy, some armed robbers gave them a chase and some of the cars fell into a ditch and got damaged. And some of the cars, while bringing them down to the East they were siezed by the Customs on the highway, they alleged that the clearing agents I used did not follow the right channel in clearing those cars legally, and that was how all my investment went down the drain. I went down to zero financially in a very short period that I could hardly eat 3 times in a month.

I started having acute insomnia, I could longer sleep, I passed more than seven year without experiencing what it means to sleep at night.
I was having serious nightmares, I was seeing myself eating in the dream, I was seeing myself roaming around naked, I was being attacked by different types of demonic beings, I was having dreams that I could not have words to explain. Nobody around me could understand me. The thoughts of suicide were very strong, but I resisted them. My relationship with my then fiancé who I intended to get married to ended.

When all these things were happening I had already stopped masturbating, even when the thoughts came I resisted them. I deleted all the pornographic materials at my disposal. I started watching Emmanuel TV. As these demons caused me insomnia that I could not sleep at nights, I decided to be using those nights as nights of warfare prayers. I started fasting during the day and did vigil during the nights. I told the devil; you see, as you have taken away my sleep, I will use those sleepless night to battle you and your kingdom in prayers, and that was exactly what I did. I fasted everyday and did vigil for more than 7 years non stop.

To cut the story short, at last God gave me victory over them, I no longer have those types of dreams, and the Lord has restored all that I lost. financially I am now better than before and I am now married to a beautiful wife with 2 beautiful and wonderful kids.

What the devil thought he could use to destroy me actually drew me closer to God, right now now my relationship with God is stronger than ever.
So my brother, I use my testimony to encourage you to fight on and never relent as long as Jesus is fighting by your side, your victory is sure.


You're about the third person or so here with real experience and can confirm that this stuff ain't ordinary. 5:30 this morning, I had a small wet dream after series of intermittent prayers, reading and praise from 10PM. My eyes became heavy to sleep. In the dream, I suddenly started driving a car in high way. A kind of endless driving and even on top speed sometimes. Unknown to me it was a dream and suddenly, a wet dream occurred. I have never driven in real life before despite the fact that I was once a multimillionaire. This is not the first time experiencing wet dreams in this format and patterns.

If it were before, I would've beaten myself over this again but now I take conscious effort to keep the fire still going because of the many encouragement gotten here from believers. Gradually, the wet dreams are no longer as terrible as before.
Several times in the past I even defecate in dreams walking naked shamefully in a crowded place (this is rare) But that of former schools and classrooms is quite common. Dreams of losing my location and suddenly when I try going back, the road is no were to be found again till am awake. Sometimes in large congregation of Christians and mysteriously like a stranger and desiring to be cured or blessed with no success. I've seen plane crashed many times while I gazed helplessly at the crash.

One of my consolation now is in Psalm 70 because I don't want to even imagine this lasting another 7 years. Adding another 7 years to my current age with this existing troubles and lack? It is better imagined than real. My Rising and falling in finance, disappointment, losses, stagnancy, delays, set back, backwardness is over 100m cumulatively the last decade & two years if I was stable.

PS: for the sake of thomases reading pls I don't watch movies of any kind, no gazing or lusting at women anymore and right from my teen age I don't play love music that always glorifies or idolizes women or ladies sexually.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 5:10pm On Apr 24, 2022
It is not a coincidence the topic "spirit spouse " was treated today in sunday school of a popular deliverance church I now attend in Benin City. A practical example of how a jealous spirit spouse can kill, inflict sickness, divorce and cause financial misfortunes in marriage.

If my life is about getting a woman or a girl to have sex with, I would have done that many many years ago but I will never do it & not even now that I'm begging God for mercy and total deliverance. Spiritual fornication and adultery is what I'm battling with here For those saying it is normal, what about the other evil dreams like sometimes seeing myself in former school?

Did you know before this "wet dreams" started, ladies use to joke and show interest in me without me ever first making any move? I wasn't interested because personally as a Christian why keep a girl when you have no desire of marrying her in the near future if not to just do the sex stuff that is a common practice these days.

But now, those that show interest in me are unrepentant lustful ladies, those that practically practice prostitution, sex machines and shop and clean mouth ladies. God knows those are not what I need as life partner but the devil is using "wet dreams " to separate me from God so that he can render God's purpose for my life useless & make me keep doing things my own ways. Tell me how a man that doesn't hear from God ever know the true life partner for him.

Also, I have never been favoured in my life since encountering wet dreams. No certificate, no university education/degree, no phone calls, business dead and millions vanished and replaced with debt. No body has ever favoured nor blessed me with free money. Not even 500 naira. Borrowing/ losses has dealt me a big blow spiking my blood pressure to very dangerous levels and the doctors were like this one don go because I'm not 40 yet but very close

But God so kind, it is now dropping (no drugs) since am looking unto Him now, trusting he can do all things & casting my cares on him while also increasing my night prayers. Where I go for even get the funds to keep buying BP drugs sef.

Three years ago, someone invited me to one of these small prophesy church in Warri and I really went there by strong faith. He asked me " do you have a woman in your life " I said no. Then he began to say that a spirit woman is always following me about like a spouse and that she has stolen massively from my life. Conducted deliverance on me right there but I didn't feel any evil spirit leaving me.

The next thing he said I would pay some funds into his account so as for him to activate my financial doors and money flow. I think I transferred 2 to 3k then. Actually nothing really worked despite all efforts. I begged some of my online multi millionaire friends for financial assistance to feed but they just keep mute and never reply me again. Others will use derogatory words. I have learnt now to keep trusting God and obeying him till my deliverance and restoration comes speedily.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 1:12pm On Apr 23, 2022
Ken4Christ:


Give me your email or phone contact. I will tell you where to get help where worse cases have been solved. It's not a scam.

Hello, still awaiting your feedback. Email address now attached on my profile
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 2:59pm On Apr 22, 2022
oaroloye:

oaroloye

How can I be born again in the proper way outside the popular method of the pentecostal churches ?
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 7:32am On Apr 21, 2022
Kenneth4u205:
Sex demons are the most stubborn demons on earth. The only way to overcome them is for you to become stubborn too in Christ. I had the same experience like you . They run away when you are praying and fasting and immediately comes back when you finish the prayer . Then wet dream happens again. So don't get discouraged when wet dream happens immediately after prayer. Just laugh at those demons and thank them for waking you up for prayer .pray for about one or two hours and study Bible. If you sleep and the wet dream happens again . Just laugh again and thank those demons for waking you up for prayers. Then pray more that you prayed before.

Be consistent and serious with this . After few days/weeks or months,those demons will realise that they are actually waking you up for prayers .that they are making you to grow stronger in prayer . They will start avoiding having sex with you because you will only wake up and pray fire and brine stone upon them .

Also avoid friends that talk about sex and women all the time . Avoid sexual content on your phone and television. Sorround yourself with friends that talk about things of God most of the time .

I don't know if you are aware that you have the calling of God upon your life ?. As you seek God the more ,the area of your calling will be revealed .
You really understand what I'm suffering. The more I fast and pray, the more wet dreams. I remember engaging in serious 7 days dry fasting from 10 PM to 10 PM straight up to the 7th days without food nor water with aggressive prayers. On the night I broke the fast with drinking warm water first, later hot tea, and then took some bread and I was okay. During those fasting, demons didn't mess me up. Later on the night I broke it, in a dream I saw some ladies (not naked) just walking up or down in a parlour like a big duplex and before I knew it, wet dreams pop up hugely and I was down in my spirit asking myself "what is now the purpose for the fast?"

I don't even have friends anymore let alone to engage them with filthy discuss. Online biz was my venture but when I lost it all and got indebted, the rest of my life became history spiking up my blood pressure to very dangerous numbers.
Been trying my best to eliminate anything that activates sin and empowers demons and oppression in my life. Pornographic images and videos I don't download, watch or discuss.

One of the tricks they have been using is what you wrote here.

PS: Never been any manifestation of power when hands of God's Holy Spirit ministers is upon me.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 7:28am On Apr 21, 2022
Ken4Christ:


Give me your email or phone contact. I will tell you where to get help where worse cases have been solved. It's not a scam.

Oh thanks. I will send a PM.

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Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 7:27am On Apr 21, 2022
Kobojunkie:
The same way you made up your masturbate is the same way you make up your mind and discipline your mind against it. Albeit, it is easier to start than to quit but the journey pretty much takes the same steps i.e. identify what you truly want to achieve, and act on it(not against it). You continue in this mode for as long as it will take you to establish the habit, or in this case, beat the habit that is masturbation. undecided

There is no juju or spiritual bullsheet to mental discipline. There is simply resolve and determination to achieve the goal in question. undecided

I no longer masturbate like I said. Wet dreams, wormlike vibrations in the blood and any parts of the body viz in arm, thighs, at the back etc. is the issue. Doctors could not figure out the problem. You know when you keep a pet in a cage and is trying to force it way out. This is how the creature or objects are my body.

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Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 3:11pm On Apr 20, 2022
PROPHETmichael:


You need deliverance and more importantly, be in a prophetic ministry.

Send me a PM

PM sent. I'm currently in a south south state. Hope this wouldn't put financial demands on me. Financially incapacitated at the moment while my strength is failing me.
Crime / Re: I Slept With My 10-Year-Old Daughter For Money Rituals — Ondo Father Confesses by Pray4meJC(m): 9:23am On Apr 20, 2022
Sultty:
mad people everywhere. If all these ritual are real why are most witch doctors poor

Stop this stupid comments children. They know the consequences and will rather you do it while they get gifts and funds from you for doing the jobs. They are doing their jobs after all they didn't force you to do money rituals but you went to meet them
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 9:20am On Apr 20, 2022
@LilMissFavvy and etal,

I honestly appreciate you all. Will change prayer patterns. Your post is an eye opener too. Though willfull and deliberate sins are far from me now long ago and seriously desires the Holy Spirit and power.

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Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 9:08am On Apr 20, 2022
oaroloye:
SHALOM!

Try to list what unusual things you took at that time: how is your blood pressure?

Are you on medication for that, or anything else? (Doctors may lie about side-effects.)

For this part, please permit me to send it as PM to you as it contains details that would easily expose my privacy. PM sent

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Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 10:59am On Apr 19, 2022
CaptMarvel:
Take Authority over your body

but first, repent of all your sins and ask God for mercy.
those people you were peeping at, those girls, that couple, though it may be long but it's a sin you've committed towards them, repent of them all, think of those things you've done against people involving sex and others and repent of them asking God for mercy, wash yourself in the cleansing blood of christ, and then take authority over your body and over your spirit.

How do I go about this? Most of them are no where to be found.
Religion / Re: Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 7:22am On Apr 19, 2022
No sir actually l'm not into covenant with any person. Why it baffles me much is that I do not lust after the opposite sex. That was in the past.

I was told masturbation can help eliminate the chances of wet dreams hour before going to bed but I find out in my case it was all lies from the bottomless pit. After masturbating (ejaculating all semens) then later in my sleep same day, wet dreams still erupt with sizeable fluids expelled. Many times this could not help and I knew this is strong spiritual bondage on me.

Another strange one is that I find myself having strong erections (not ejaculation) towards some females when they come close to me without any contact or sexual desire, thoughts whatsoever with them. Just ordinary discussion about trades because I was selling in a shop. It thus seems there's a strong sexual force in those females that activates the sexual demons tormenting me. I have never had sex physically with any body since I came out from my mother's womb.

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Religion / Wet Dreams: A Thorn In My Flesh Going To Two Decades by Pray4meJC(m): 5:56am On Apr 19, 2022
For privacy reasons, I'm an old nairaland member.

About 22 / 23 years ago, a classmate in secondary school lured us into the act of masturbation. Few days later, I started practicing the act and eventually ejaculated after tough stimulation lasting almost two hours. It got to a point I was almost getting addicted doing the unclean act.

Thereafter I graduated to pornography when internet was just starting in Nigeria.
I went further to committing adultery and fornication in the heart rather than with the body by peeping on girls and women having their bathe all to fulfill my lustful eyes. I even watched couple have sex by peeping.

Even though I have stopped and repented from these like 12 years back, I still find myself struggling with other bigger problems called wet dreams, unusual erections and wormlike vibrations in my body and sometimes body freezing at night for 30 seconds to 1 minute.

These wet dreams occurred 2 - 3 times in a week and repeat same in like manner every week compulsorily throughout the year and go on and on the following year. I have gone for several dry fasting and prayer deliverance to no avail.

I don't see myself having sex in the dream when these wet dreams occurred. Sometimes, when the wet dream is about happening I'm conscious and try screaming the name or blood of Jesus but it seems am just very powerless and before I know it, semen has spilled out and I will remain like that. Sleep is distorted and all efforts to sleep is impossible.

Sometimes, when I go to bed early by 8PM and I get caught up by wet dreams by 9:30PM, it means sleep for that night is gone completely. I sleep maximum 2 hours daily because this stuff has messed my mind and life up.

Whenever I lie down to sleep, different uninvited thoughts start forcing themselves on my brain both those that happened today and the ones of years ago. I always try deflecting them by replacing them with bible quote or singing praise to God in my head.

I woke up since 2:30 am today with a wet burser soaked in semen and started typing this because I couldn't no longer sleep. Afternoon sleep is very impossible for me as it has never worked for even 1 minute

I'm greatly troubled and worried because I read my bible and pray before going to bed. I dream about my former schools etc.

As I speak, this stuff has rendered me financially devastated with millions in debt. Could not obtain university admission 19 years ago, brain can't simulate, not married, no kids. Very recently this year my health (details withheld due to family members who might find this posts) is suffering as I can't do anything to earn a living as I easily sored tired in the heart.

PS: At night, every day for all these years, uncontrollable strong erections will suddenly start building up whether I put up underwear or not and I think this is more than the 'morning erections ' science talks about. This is pure spiritual manipulation for me. Same thing happens when I get close to some females whether matured or underage, stupid uncontrollable strong erections suddenly pop up without any sexual thoughts whatsoever to these innocent females. Unfortunately, these arousal is also a problem because it inhibits low self esteem, shame and quick withdrawal from whatever discuss I'm having to avoid the bulge being noticed.

Lastly, a year before I got myself ensnared in all these evil activities, I was already developing memory loss and a single headache that almost took my life prior to all these. The headache can be best described as "sawchain and hammer " tearing the skull to pieces and lasted for hours and resistance to drugs. That was the first and last time I experienced such and any other for that matter.

Where do I go from here? Depression is real when solutions are being defiled.

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