I LOST EVERYTHING

Dear readers,

If I could reverse the hands of the clock, I would do things differently. If there were a second chance to life, I wouldn’t mind coming as a woman. For me, being a man is harder.

I’m a middle age man with no wife but a son. Counting back, my son should be about 15 years old there about. The last time I set my eyes on him, he was 3years old. He looked smart back then so I’m confident that he’ll do fine wherever he is around the world. I just pray he doesn’t end up like his irresponsible father.

When I was young, I always dreamt about being a medical student as most male children would dream of. As I grew up, I ended up being a block- head. I knew the fault lies in my foundation but nevertheless, what will be will be.

I was dropped from medical school in my year one in the university. I decided to enrol into other science courses but, I failed their entry exams woefully. When I decided to switch to any Arts or social science course, I realized I could not do so due to my subject combination in my O’level. I was advised to sit for another O’level but, I refused. It took me years before I could make a complete five credits in science courses. I didn’t want to go through that pain again. I knew I was a dullard.

I began to roam about the city when I met a group of reckless guys who introduced me to thugery and pick pocketing. As I was also a nonentity and a dumb- ass, I easily mingled with them. We did a lot of things together that responsible and educated people should not do.

There was a girl who usually sells food to us at our joint. She was a pretty girl so every one of us wanted to have a taste of her. All of us in the group had made various advances to that girl but she didn’t give in to any of us. She was so decent.

One day, I sighted the girl on my way to the joint. I looked around and confirmed no one was nearby. I caught up with her and raped her. I met her as a virgin so I wickedly took it from her. I left her there alone and went away.

Two months after the incident, the girl came to find me on the street with her mother. She pointed me to her mother and she calmly came to me to seek for audience. I excused myself from my friends so the mother explained that my girlfriend was pregnant. That was when I knew that she didn’t disclose that I raped her. Her mother thought we were dating so it was easy for me to deny.

I totally denied her and said I’ve never seen her before. I wondered how a responsible mother could have followed her daughter to such shameful scene. By the time I started raising my voice at them and people were starting to gather, they left immediately.

My attitude was still nonchalant when she gave birth to my son and I watched him grow. He looked so much like me. I never for once cared for him. He doesn’t even know what his father looks like. I don’t even know his name. I’m really a pitiful person.

Five years after the birth of my son, we were raiding a market nearby. It backfired on us and people started chasing us. One of our members got caught single handedly by a man and it led to a fight between them. He stabbed the man in the stomach in order to escape but, the man didn’t let go of him till people caught up with them. The man eventually died so the case became grave. We all were later caught and incarcerated.

I spent 15 good years in the prison with hard labour. During that period, I had thought about my life and wish to repent for good. I wished I could reverse the hands of the clock. I won’t mess with my life like this again.
I went back to the area to make enquiry about my son and his mother but they’ve relocated. I tried to find them by all means. But it was hard for me because I don’t know their names.

Dear ID readers, am lost and don’t even know where to start from again. What can I do?

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For someone who claims to be a dull-headed thug of a school drop-out, your written English is impeccable and above the average Nigerian graduate's standard.

For this reason alone, I say your story is false and nothing but an entertaining tale. Interesting, though.

^^I agree. I was going to say Nollywood stories.

ARareGem: ^^I agree. I was going to say Nollywood stories.

Lol!

Of course it is. Even the attached pic is fake. A hardened Agbero whose done proper time in a Nigerian prision (15 years of hard labour), won't come out looking like mummy's fresh-faced teenager

And even if the pic was taken before his stint in jail, he still won't look like that - not after living the hard life on the streets, and involved in armed robbery. Unless of course he's a beautiful thief??

ADISA, i dont

ADISA, i dont believe u a bit. the plot of the story is so perfect, your english is wao, and ur maths is wack. u said d child shud b 15 now,but he was already about 5yrs old when you went to prison and u spent 15 yrs in prison. haba bros. had to check your profile,but i was more convinced you are lying.

iyanda you've caused me pain,first your husband was a sex freak,now you left your son come on,pleaae cull your story from somewhere rather than making us belive it happened to you..

Efemena_xy: For someone who claims to be a dull-headed thug of a school drop-out, your written English is impeccable and above the average Nigerian graduate's standard.

For this reason alone, I say your story is false and nothing but an entertaining tale. Interesting, though.

The story's fake but not because of impeccable grammar. I have/had a friend who has a similar story as the fellow in the OP; flawless English, good manners but lazy, I later went on to find out that he had no O'Level results(he blamed it on family issues).
The better speakers would be good by Primary6, a further few would get better in secondary school due to socialisation, and majorly committed competent teachers. At university level, maybe only 2% improve on grammar and that's on luck, maybe a chance experience or some life-changing phenomenon. If you schooled in any higher institution in Nigeria you'd understand where I'm coming from, not even the private universities are left out, theirs is a case of fake phoneh which usually takes away attention from their poor grammar. Sorry for the epistle.
As to the OP, its problem is that it's too fictional?, it seems over embellished.
Perhaps, OP's subject is mentally lazy not dull. Just my opinion.

I take it your story is true. Even if not, there may be someone out there whose case may be similar to this. All I want you to know is that your case is not hopeless, there is hope for you.
The Bible says ... For there is hope for a tree if it is cut down, that it will sprout again ... (Job 14:7-9). Your hope is in Christ Jesus. He is the hope of the hopeless. He said in the book of Matt. 11:28-30 'Come unto me ALL ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.....

Thank God that you are alive to tell the story. While there in the Prison, you'll agree with me that some inmates died. So for you to come out alive is the grace of God, who wants to give you a second chance. It tells of God's unfailing love for you. I pray you will no blow the chance this time round.
The Bible says 'For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son (Jesus), that WHOSOEVER (A Drunkard. Ex-convict,Witches, Armed robber, Adulterer etc) believes in Him (Jesus) should not perish but have everlasting life. So God has given us Jesus who has redeemed us from our sins through His death on the Cross of Calvary. This same Jesus is the ONLY one that can save you from this situation and give you a turnaround - Acts Chapter 4: 12.

In a nutshell, you need to become a new being in Christ Jesus. God is ready to forgive you all your sins as He doesn't want the sinner to die, but to repent and be saved - see Isaiah Chapter 1:18-19; Chapter 55:6-7. You have to give your life to Christ and accept Him as your personal Lord and Saviour. Once done, God sees you as a New born baby in Christ because your sins are forgiven you. Everything begins to work for you positively thereafter and you begin to gain new heights in all your endeavour.

For you to be born again, say this simple prayer with all sincerity. You can say it in your room or any place of solitude: ''Oh God, I have come to you, a sinner. Today, I confess my sins unto You and renounce all my waywardness. Forgive me all my sins, wash me clean with the Blood of Jesus and accept me as one of your children. I reject the devil and all his works. I accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. Lord Jesus, come into my heart and write my name in the Book of Life. Thank you Father for forgiving me. I am born again''.

I congratulate you if you have said the prayer. Your life will never be the same again.
Get yourself a copy of the Holy Bible and prayerfully look for a Bible-believing church to attend. Meanwhile, meditate on these passages of the Bible and God shall turn your life around for better - 2Corinthianss 5:177 and Isaiah 43:18-19. God bless you. For further counselling, yuo can email me on: doublehonour3@gmail.com

fresh_dude: The story's fake but not because of impeccable grammar. I have/had a friend who has a similar story as the fellow in the OP; flawless English, good manners but lazy, I later went on to find out that he had no O'Level results(he blamed it on family issues).
The better speakers would be good by Primary6, a further few would get better in secondary school due to socialisation, and majorly committed competent teachers. At university level, maybe only 2% improve on grammar and that's on luck, maybe a chance experience or some life-changing phenomenon. If you schooled in any higher institution in Nigeria you'd understand where I'm coming from, not even the private universities are left out, theirs is a case of fake phoneh which usually takes away attention from their poor grammar. Sorry for the epistle.
As to the OP, its problem is that it's too fictional?, it seems over embellished.
Perhaps, OP's subject is mentally lazy not dull. Just my opinion.

Nah, I don't get you at all. Explain the bolded bit pls.

Besides, you're telling that at age 10, a child inclined to be a good writer would already have most of the tools for that? Where did you get that information from? I sure would like to read up on it.