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BusinessFour Reasons Why Self-control Is Your Only Highway To Success by acmesuccess(op):
According to the dictionary, self-control is the ability to control one’s desires, impulses and willpower.

Self-control very vital and necessary in every action we take, and yet we ignore it in almost every opportunity we get to exercise it. Whenever we interact with others, we loose it almost every time. Everyday interactions are contracts we wish is brokered, and self-control is needed to ensure its success.
Some everyday contracts includes, negotiation and bargaining, making new friends, asking for favours, trying to sell to customers, giving instructions to our workers and relaying messages to co-workers, advising our children, communicating with spouses and so many more. Don’t forget, contract involves an action agreed to be carried out between two or more people. An offer is made, an acceptance occurs, and an agreed action is carried out by the necessary party/parties. Yet, while this sounds very simple enough, many of our contracts don’t get through to the expected or agreed stage. Many are breached through abandonment due to many factors including abandonment, disagreement, wrong delivery, and so on; yet, so many didn’t see the major reason for our lack of success as lack of self-control.

How?

Because we couldn’t endure anymore. Many of us had talked back at the wrong person who in turn pulled out of a major dealing. We have refused to go on with a deal because differ in races, languages, point of view, and the likes. We have talked back at people who fired us, fired our most efficient worker because we are angry at their persisted behavior. Many of us had agreed on a deal in a rush only to regret it. We believed if we had held on a little longer, we would have gotten a better deal. And it is more annoying knowing it is true; we should have held on. Many of us did businesses without taking the time and pain for research. We completely abandon feasibility studies and just went on right ahead because we believed it will work because it worked for David.
To make us successful, and stay successful, self-control is very vital. Let us see how it helps to be strong in it.

1. IT HELPS TO OVERCOME OBSESSION AND KILLER-ATTITUDES; IT ALSO HELPS TO ADOPT, AND SUSTAIN THE ONES YOU NEEDED FOR THE YOUR SUCCESS.
Some attitudes are negative to the survival of our business. Some can’t do without some attitudes like; anger, sex, frowning and talking back when being advised, being vindictive, envy, fear, and many others mentioned in one of my articles titled “little forces that ensures your success won’t last”(please try and go through it here).
Obsessions includes, watching TV, getting drunk, sex, eating too much, playing games, trust, lack of trust, and so on.

These actions are not necessarily bad, but they are when they become dangerous to your success and you can’t just help not indulging in them. This is where self-control helps because all of these could be avoided completely, minimized or controlled only with self-control. Then you can avoid exactly those behaviours that are not vital, or adopt those that are vital to your success.

Self-control simply means self-discipline, and possessing this is why you can drop the bad ones and sustain the good ones you decided to pick up for you survival. Most people wanted to try and loose weight, but they won’t stop eating everything, they can’t fast or keep up a healthy eating habit.

2. KEEPS YOU IN TOTAL CONTROL
Here, we are not asking anyone to be a control freak in control of others, but to be in control of every situation you found yourself. You are, like they use to say, ‘on top of the matter’. You smile when expected to go angry, be calm when you are expected to go into full rage, and many more. You just won’t loose it at any time or anywhere because you are the one controlling your reactions and not your attitude controlling how you react. The media will have to find it very difficult, trying to pin a statement on you, the ones you didn’t make when you got angry, or the ones your sacked worker couldn’t say you said. You don’t fall victim of unnecessary scandal or rush in taking decisions when brokering a deal.

Your decision-making ability will be graced with much efficacy in its delivery. You become a total thinker, wise and responsible. Your word becomes a signature people could rely on, and you are bound only for higher things. You become examples for the ones who loose it, or do it the wrong way.

3. IT STRENGTHENS YOUR ABILITY TO ENDURE
Endurance and success goes a long way, but endurance is never possible without self-control. Many people will abandon their businesses and sell them during hard times only to regret seeing them flourish even where they have envisaged they will only fail. Some wanted to start making millions the next month their business started. I hope it works that way, but it probably wouldn’t. Our new business, or even the old one needs care to survive the hard times; it needs our time, passion, attention, and confidence.

There are many wise men that specialize in buying expired domain names, liquidated companies, and such of the likes only to turn them around for the best. Those men who succeeded are rich in self-control while the others that sold off only to regret later lack self-control.

Endurance makes you endure annoying individuals who poked you just to get provoked. They know that your negative reaction becomes a gain to them and disappointing them by exercising self-control is the best way to win over them. You will also get tagged as being matured, responsible and a role model. People see you as a positive influence and you know nothing but success since people are your friend.

4. IT HELPS TO SUSTAIN YOUR SUCCESS
Your success needs to be sustained through good management, and this will never be possible without restraint from certain material desires and lusts. Many guys turned Casanova the moment they could hold on to some bills. They throw parties they’ve longed for and focused on material things they wish they had while their business screams for expansion or change. They couldn’t control their envy and so they turned themselves into wistful spenders, buying better things than their supposedly rivals.

Many will embrace pride immediately they perceived success and everything goes over their head. They are unable to control themselves and they talk anyhow, act anyhow, think anyhow, transact anyhow and every other things done as they deemed fit. They become uncontrollable and unruly. They are no more in control of their actions, and they will start picking up behaviours that are detrimental not only to their business, but also, to their health.

Self-control is very necessary in our everyday living, as this, itself is business. It is an art that could be learnt and mastered. We should be able to wield it to our own advantage for our survival in the business world.

Please, kindly read how to develop and control your self control www.acmesuccess007.
Christianity EtcUnderstand Howvto Solve Depression Without A Therapist by acmesuccess(op): 6:48am On Dec 18, 2014
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Thanks for your patience. Fist you need to know what a major depression is. We have various types of depression, but the major type is the most common. Understand what a major depression is from here:
http:///7EQAJ3
Now carefully read how I combated this without seeing the psychiatric, or any related therapist.

1. I UNDERSTOOD THE CAUSE, AND THE PROBLEM
Quote: the only way out of a problem is inside of it, and the way in is outside of it.
Quote: a man’s problem becomes his potential assassin when he refuses to acknowledge it.

I was in debt. A big one.  And I used most of my time thinking why I got myself into such mess. I think about how I could have done things separately and things wouldn’t end as bad as it is. I kept wondering how it would feel like, not carrying such burden. But as long as I wasted more time feeling depressed about my present situation, i stayed in it. The situation will not just go by thinking about how things should have fared.  Though, many things started joining in the bad state as I kept neglecting to do the right things. My health deteriorated, business crumbles, relationship getting strained and it seems everything is working against me. Yes, they were, but the problem started with the debt, and slowly, inaction sets in, and other things suffer.
So, relax, think, what the major cause of this depression is. You problem is sure different from mine, and the time to think of ‘why it happened’ is not necessary for now.  It has already happened, the next thing is to accept the problem exists, and start scouting for exit.

2. I REALISED I WAS SCARED
Quote: there lies no future that its foundation isn’t laid in the present.

Yes, very scared. But yet, just scared. Scared about the future, scared about what happens now, and what happens next. I was scared to take the necessary action. The only thing that was happening in my present was thinking about if i will be able to cope with the unforeseen problem that are probably coming, or the one that is currently on ground.
But the next best thing was to prepare for the worst, and not get scared of it. You should start laying the foundation to stay on the worst that may come. What I failed to realize was that, as long as I’m scared about what is coming, I’m accepting the fact that I may not survive the possible assault.

3. I REALISED THAT I HAD BEEN CLUELESS
Quote: a clueless mind plunges itself deeper into oblivion.

Clueless about what I should do next. I was always busy thinking about the problem now but clueless about what I should be preparing for. But the moment I realized this, I plunged into purposeful thinking. I quickly made some researches and I felt relieved by some discoveries.
You can do this by first focusing on the worst that may happen, and the best I could do in such situation. This will work on any cause of depression.

4. I FOUND OUT I WAS NEVER SMART
Quote: a man who hasn’t witnessed war always thinks he is a man (African proverb)

I always thought I was smart until I realized I wasn’t.  I realized I wasn’t smart as I deluded myself to be until I got faced by this problem and I was relegated into an . I was a fast thinker! I believe I can solve other people’s problem through advice until I didn’t realize mine was taking my life. I laughed at my own stupidity and over bloated confidence that wasn’t there anymore. One thing I failed to realize was, ‘’if it wasn’t a problem, it doesn’t need a solution’. But, there is always a way out. So, I started thinking of the way out.  So, I made a list of the worst scenarios, and I found a solution I can live with if I found myself in whichever possible one.
I even got smarter. I quickly realized I haven’t made as much as I’ve been spending. I was just at home, eating, paying bills and collecting incomes from the already collapsing investment. So, I quickly donned by thinking cap, gathered the reaming cash I could lay my hands on and invested in other things.  Things I could fall back on even if I went to jail and comes back. I got very smart that I got scared of myself. Please understand that jail wasn’t necessary, but that was my worst resort. So, even if the worst didn’t happen, I won’t loose with that.
So, what are you waiting for? Get smart. Take the next possible situation by surprise. Take your time to prepare a good working plan for yourself.

5. I DIDN’T KNOW I WAS JUST A COWARD
Quote: for a coward, suicide is the only way out.
Quote: only coward run from what they created.

For months, I didn’t know the thought of suicide was pure cowardice. Why should I leave this world? Do I think the world will stop revolving or what? I’m not a coward, so I’m going nowhere! This is my problem, I am solving it. Solving a problem will take different methods on different problems. For example, some people needed to forget a particular grief caused by loss and move on to a better life, while people in my type of position must face their music. So, I was ready to face it.
There comes no need dying softly inside while the world merry and celebrate. There comes no need to kill oneself over a loss since the loss won’t be restored. Why die in isolation when the world is such a lovely place? Why die before the real death?

6. I HAVE ISOLATED MYSELF.
Quote: a lonely mind will surely die as a sad man.

I avoided calls, gatherings, clubs, open garden, playing games, reading, and many other things that I always derived great happiness from. I became a sadist. I looked ugly with unkept beard. I only eat what is available. I was practically dying; though, slowly.
Immediately I realized this, I halted its further control. The first thing I did was prepare me a hot after a clean shave. Went over for a clean cut at the barber shop. I greeted almost everybody I passed by, with a smile. I didn’t leave the house without my headphone. I almost got hit by a cyclist for I was carried away the music I was listening too. I have missed a lot! I realized this when I tuned to my best radio station and realized my favourite artist dropped a new single! Geez! Where was i? That was rhetorical cos I knew the answer: I was busy dying…lol
So, I called my friend and asked for the next meet. Yay!!!! I’m going clubbing. I’m sure depression must be very disappointed at this stage. And whatever chooses to come later should meet me sane and happy.
You don’t have to condemn yourself to house imprisonment. Go out. You will definitely make new friends at those public places you’ve been avoiding. People that will give you reason to live on. Friends that you will be able to speak with share your problems with and you may be surprised you will be getting better ideas from them. Or you might end up fine tuning the ones you already thought of. Believe it or not, you will get relieved talking about your problems than hording it.

7. BOOST YOUR CONFIDENCE
Quote: a bird flies with whatever is in its stomach (African proverb)

There are so many ways you can boost your confidence.
* Love yourself.
Have you tried talking to your reflection from the mirror? You haven’t? Try it. It’s an awesome madness!  Say nice things to yourself and about yourself.
* Listen to music
Yeah!!! Your favourite artiste is getting aired, go crazy! Plug your ears, turn up the volume, sing along, loudly, dance around madly. It’s your world,  admit it. Say it, confess it.
* Take selfies and enjoy the review
take your time to take selfies everywhere and enjoy swiping your gallery, reviewing them. Don’t forget to make funny faces as often as u could. Watch a slide show on your flat screen TV or your computers. Upload them on your favourite social network and don’t forget to add titles and captions like ‘if you don’t like my face, protest by colliding with a moving train’….’I am here to stay, live with it’…..’I love you all’….’I just love myself’…..’Do you like me? Oh! That’s rhetorical, don’t answer…lol’….and so on…
FamilyFollow These Steps To Solve Major Depression Without Seeing A Therapist by acmesuccess(op):
Thanks for your patience. Fist you need to know what a major depression is. We have various types of depression, but the major type is the most common. Understand what a major depression is from here:
http:///7EQAJ3
Now carefully read how I combated this without seeing the psychiatric, or any related therapist.

1. I UNDERSTOOD THE CAUSE, AND THE PROBLEM
Quote: the only way out of a problem is inside of it, and the way in is outside of it.
Quote: a man’s problem becomes his potential assassin when he refuses to acknowledge it.

I was in debt. A big one.  And I used most of my time thinking why I got myself into such mess. I think about how I could have done things separately and things wouldn’t end as bad as it is. I kept wondering how it would feel like, not carrying such burden. But as long as I wasted more time feeling depressed about my present situation, i stayed in it. The situation will not just go by thinking about how things should have fared.  Though, many things started joining in the bad state as I kept neglecting to do the right things. My health deteriorated, business crumbles, relationship getting strained and it seems everything is working against me. Yes, they were, but the problem started with the debt, and slowly, inaction sets in, and other things suffer.
So, relax, think, what the major cause of this depression is. You problem is sure different from mine, and the time to think of ‘why it happened’ is not necessary for now.  It has already happened, the next thing is to accept the problem exists, and start scouting for exit.

2. I REALISED I WAS SCARED
Quote: there lies no future that its foundation isn’t laid in the present.

Yes, very scared. But yet, just scared. Scared about the future, scared about what happens now, and what happens next. I was scared to take the necessary action. The only thing that was happening in my present was thinking about if i will be able to cope with the unforeseen problem that are probably coming, or the one that is currently on ground.
But the next best thing was to prepare for the worst, and not get scared of it. You should start laying the foundation to stay on the worst that may come. What I failed to realize was that, as long as I’m scared about what is coming, I’m accepting the fact that I may not survive the possible assault.

3. I REALISED THAT I HAD BEEN CLUELESS
Quote: a clueless mind plunges itself deeper into oblivion.

Clueless about what I should do next. I was always busy thinking about the problem now but clueless about what I should be preparing for. But the moment I realized this, I plunged into purposeful thinking. I quickly made some researches and I felt relieved by some discoveries.
You can do this by first focusing on the worst that may happen, and the best I could do in such situation. This will work on any cause of depression.

4. I FOUND OUT I WAS NEVER SMART
Quote: a man who hasn’t witnessed war always thinks he is a man (African proverb)

I always thought I was smart until I realized I wasn’t.  I realized I wasn’t smart as I deluded myself to be until I got faced by this problem and I was relegated into an idiot. I was a fast thinker! I believe I can solve other people’s problem through advice until I didn’t realize mine was taking my life. I laughed at my own stupidity and over bloated confidence that wasn’t there anymore. One thing I failed to realize was, ‘’if it wasn’t a problem, it doesn’t need a solution’. But, there is always a way out. So, I started thinking of the way out.  So, I made a list of the worst scenarios, and I found a solution I can live with if I found myself in whichever possible one.
I even got smarter. I quickly realized I haven’t made as much as I’ve been spending. I was just at home, eating, paying bills and collecting incomes from the already collapsing investment. So, I quickly donned by thinking cap, gathered the reaming cash I could lay my hands on and invested in other things.  Things I could fall back on even if I went to jail and comes back. I got very smart that I got scared of myself. Please understand that jail wasn’t necessary, but that was my worst resort. So, even if the worst didn’t happen, I won’t loose with that.
So, what are you waiting for? Get smart. Take the next possible situation by surprise. Take your time to prepare a good working plan for yourself.

5. I DIDN’T KNOW I WAS JUST A COWARD
Quote: for a coward, suicide is the only way out.
Quote: only coward run from what they created.

For months, I didn’t know the thought of suicide was pure cowardice. Why should I leave this world? Do I think the world will stop revolving or what? I’m not a coward, so I’m going nowhere! This is my problem, I am solving it. Solving a problem will take different methods on different problems. For example, some people needed to forget a particular grief caused by loss and move on to a better life, while people in my type of position must face their music. So, I was ready to face it.
There comes no need dying softly inside while the world merry and celebrate. There comes no need to kill oneself over a loss since the loss won’t be restored. Why die in isolation when the world is such a lovely place? Why die before the real death?

6. I HAVE ISOLATED MYSELF.
Quote: a lonely mind will surely die as a sad man.

I avoided calls, gatherings, clubs, open garden, playing games, reading, and many other things that I always derived great happiness from. I became a sadist. I looked ugly with unkept beard. I only eat what is available. I was practically dying; though, slowly.
Immediately I realized this, I halted its further control. The first thing I did was prepare me a hot after a clean shave. Went over for a clean cut at the barber shop. I greeted almost everybody I passed by, with a smile. I didn’t leave the house without my headphone. I almost got hit by a cyclist for I was carried away the music I was listening too. I have missed a lot! I realized this when I tuned to my best radio station and realized my favourite artist dropped a new single! Geez! Where was i? That was rhetorical cos I knew the answer: I was busy dying…lol
So, I called my friend and asked for the next meet. Yay!!!! I’m going clubbing. I’m sure depression must be very disappointed at this stage. And whatever chooses to come later should meet me sane and happy.
You don’t have to condemn yourself to house imprisonment. Go out. You will definitely make new friends at those public places you’ve been avoiding. People that will give you reason to live on. Friends that you will be able to speak with share your problems with and you may be surprised you will be getting better ideas from them. Or you might end up fine tuning the ones you already thought of. Believe it or not, you will get relieved talking about your problems than hording it.

7. BOOST YOUR CONFIDENCE
Quote: a bird flies with whatever is in its stomach (African proverb)

There are so many ways you can boost your confidence.
* Love yourself.
Have you tried talking to your reflection from the mirror? You haven’t? Try it. It’s an awesome madness!  Say nice things to yourself and about yourself.
* Listen to music
Yeah!!! Your favourite artiste is getting aired, go crazy! Plug your ears, turn up the volume, sing along, loudly, dance around madly. It’s your world,  admit it. Say it, confess it.
* Take selfies and enjoy the review
take your time to take selfies everywhere and enjoy swiping your gallery, reviewing them. Don’t forget to make funny faces as often as u could. Watch a slide show on your flat screen TV or your computers. Upload them on your favourite social network and don’t forget to add titles and captions like ‘if you don’t like my face, protest by colliding with a moving train’….’I am here to stay, live with it’…..’I love you all’….’I just love myself’…..’Do you like me? Oh! That’s rhetorical, don’t answer…lol’….and so on…

Try these amongst many other you will eventually come up with and you’re on your way to recovery.

8. CONSTANT PRAYER, OR CONFESSION
Quote: no man will ever grow taller than his thoughts.

The saying, ‘you are what you say’ is true and perfect for your progress in this aspect. As a christian, I pray for strength. I confesses verses from the bible which reminds me that i am a winner. I repeat verses related to each thoughts, and i repeat it until the thoughts go away.
You might believe in any other religion which believes in praying to a supreme being, do this as often as the thoughts come and believe.
But most people don’t even believe in prayers or religion, that poses no threat. This is where your confession takes over. Confess positive things.
* I am a winner. I shall breakthrough
* I am not going to commit suicide. Forget it.
* I have no problem, this is just a hitch….

Lastly….
9. I MUST BE CONSISTENT
Quote: inconsistent droplets of water may give you an ocean enough  to float your boat, but will never be able to float a ship.

Now, to relent will mean a relapse, so, I’m not gonna relent about this. I’ve been able to realize and understand most things, I have been able to proffer solutions, so the best thing is to start with the actualization of my plans without delay. Then I must be focused on my new found strategy that has brought back a little of my sanity. Practice, they say makes perfection. If you are able to be consistent on this newly found method, you will even forget you have troubles. Sometimes, the mind reminds you of your troubles while in a happy mode. It is normal and alright, but remind yourself of your plans and how you believed you have already got that checked and solved. If the thought comes a hundred and one times in per minute, be ready to remind yourself two hundred and two times per minute. In no time, you will be free from this deadly and hard grappling thoughts reminding you of your
*Guilt
*Debt
*Loss
*Condemnation
*Present and future failure or
*Damnation.
As long as you give it some room to take over, you can never be in control.
So, stop being in bondage of these killer thoughts and break free. Take a step today and be consistent with it. You will be surprised.
Thank you

www.acmesuccess007.
Christianity EtcMust Read!!! How I Overcame The Major Type Of Depression by acmesuccess(op): 6:53pm On Dec 16, 2014
Good evening everyone, I hope your day has been fine?
I am posting this story in order to help many others who are currently in my position. The real purpose is to help those who are currently depressed to know the best way, without spending much on medicals, to overcome major depression.
Please read along as I post the first part.
Thank you.

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It reallyly didn’t come so well for me back then, as I wake up every day asking myself why I woke at all. Wouldn’t it be so nice if I just slept off and didn’t wake up and everything causing this depression wouldn’t have a choice but to whisk away without I doing nothing about it? But hell, I kept waking up each day doing nothing but thinking about this huge debt I found myself in.

And of course, taking my own life comes as thought as often as I allowed it. And I couldn’t just find myself a better means of suicide. At the point of death, I’m sure I would regret hanging myself and wish the rope just break. Same goes for drowning, taking poison and maybe running into a moving truck. What if I just lost my limbs or go slow and didn’t die! Gosh, that will be going straight into the fire after thinking the frying pan is too hot..lol.

But yet, in this complete state of cowardice that has enveloped my whole being, I realized it’s almost 4 months now since depression has taken over, and I didn’t stop living. It means I have taken my time to eat and stay alive. Why? Am I not willing to die? Why eat again? I could just stop eating since nothing matters anymore. But, that’s not me. I don’t joke with my stomach! But yet, my health is gradually failing and drugs stop working. You don’t need doctors’ headphones (stethoscope) to listen to my heartbeat. And I got so lean that doctors don’t need an x-ray to count my ribs. I got a compulsory six packs because my ribs clearly count, and my head becomes big that my neck complains of the weight. Yet, I eat, but food doesn’t work for me anymore. It has also conspired to work against me just like everything else in my world. My good clothes received a compulsory holiday and my foods smell like nothing but prison food. I will go to jail for sure. I kept reminding myself. This time, my world wasn’t crashing; it was a witness against my living!

I wasted every second as they come. I started forgetting things and this got me angrier. The little things I could have been doing started suffering due to negligence, lack of proper attention, and inability to think straight. I became obsessed with nothing but my state and an easy route out of it. My reasoning was beclouded with this obsession that I didn’t realize there will never be any easy route out of this. My reasons focused on how to escape, and not how to solve this problem. In fact, I stopped believing I could solve this issue and started wishing for miracles. So, every day of my life was wishful thoughts and absolute nothing! I was badly hit by this major type of depression than I ever imagined.

All my life, I thought I was psychologically strong, but I was shown the other side of the coin. Business going down faster than a Ferrari, hope getting fade like the steam, cash avoiding me like I’m a plague, and my relationship wanna quit itself. Everything around me screams for attention; they all needed money. Money that wasn’t even available. Thoughts of suicide are now justified. It became a sweet option. In fact, my spirit agrees with me that that is the only option out of all these.

But somehow, I overcame this. I came out strong. How? I will gladly reveal how easy I achieved this as this write up continues.
The next part will briefly explain how to identify depression.

You can read the rest at www.acmesuccess007.. Or wait till I post the second part later this week.
Than you
FamilyRe: How I Overcame The Major Type Of Depression by acmesuccess(op): 6:51pm On Dec 16, 2014
Yes. Been a believer has helped a lot too. Through faith. Thank you
FamilyHow I Overcame The Major Type Of Depression by acmesuccess(op): 6:38pm On Dec 16, 2014
Good evening everyone, I hope your day has been fine?
I am posting this story in order to help many others who are currently in my position. The real purpose is to help those who are currently depressed to know the best way, without spending much on medicals, to overcome major depression.
Please read along as I post the first part.
Thank you.

::::::::;:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

It reallyly didn’t come so well for me back then, as I wake up every day asking myself why I woke at all. Wouldn’t it be so nice if I just slept off and didn’t wake up and everything causing this depression wouldn’t have a choice but to whisk away without I doing nothing about it? But hell, I kept waking up each day doing nothing but thinking about this huge debt I found myself in.

And of course, taking my own life comes as thought as often as I allowed it. And I couldn’t just find myself a better means of suicide. At the point of death, I’m sure I would regret hanging myself and wish the rope just break. Same goes for drowning, taking poison and maybe running into a moving truck. What if I just lost my limbs or go retarded and didn’t die! Gosh, that will be going straight into the fire after thinking the frying pan is too hot..lol.

But yet, in this complete state of cowardice that has enveloped my whole being, I realized it’s almost 4 months now since depression has taken over, and I didn’t stop living. It means I have taken my time to eat and stay alive. Why? Am I not willing to die? Why eat again? I could just stop eating since nothing matters anymore. But, that’s not me. I don’t joke with my stomach! But yet, my health is gradually failing and drugs stop working. You don’t need doctors’ headphones (stethoscope) to listen to my heartbeat. And I got so lean that doctors don’t need an x-ray to count my ribs. I got a compulsory six packs because my ribs clearly count, and my head becomes big that my neck complains of the weight. Yet, I eat, but food doesn’t work for me anymore. It has also conspired to work against me just like everything else in my world. My good clothes received a compulsory holiday and my foods smell like nothing but prison food. I will go to jail for sure. I kept reminding myself. This time, my world wasn’t crashing; it was a witness against my living!

I wasted every second as they come. I started forgetting things and this got me angrier. The little things I could have been doing started suffering due to negligence, lack of proper attention, and inability to think straight. I became obsessed with nothing but my state and an easy route out of it. My reasoning was beclouded with this obsession that I didn’t realize there will never be any easy route out of this. My reasons focused on how to escape, and not how to solve this problem. In fact, I stopped believing I could solve this issue and started wishing for miracles. So, every day of my life was wishful thoughts and absolute nothing! I was badly hit by this major type of depression than I ever imagined.

All my life, I thought I was psychologically strong, but I was shown the other side of the coin. Business going down faster than a Ferrari, hope getting fade like the steam, cash avoiding me like I’m a plague, and my relationship wanna quit itself. Everything around me screams for attention; they all needed money. Money that wasn’t even available. Thoughts of suicide are now justified. It became a sweet option. In fact, my spirit agrees with me that that is the only option out of all these.

But somehow, I overcame this. I came out strong. How? I will gladly reveal how easy I achieved this as this write up continues.
The next part will briefly explain how to identify depression.

You can read the rest at www.acmesuccess007.. Or wait till I post the second part later this week.
Than you

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