MeeztaFabulouz:
It is obvious from your post that you are depressed. A depressed person can easily resort to suicide as a quick fix because such a person sanity is already impaired. I suggest you visit a psychiatrist or clinical psychologist as soon as possible. Once you commence treatment/psychotherapy, you will get better as time goes on and become less suicidal. Don't be ashamed to visit such health professionals, kindly take care of your mental health. After taking care of your health, you can decide the way forward as regards your family situation. As regards those that are castigating you for contemplating suicide, don't dwell much on their castigation. If they had experienced untreated clinical depression, they wouldn't have talked the way they did. Concerning those who suggested you should just pray, make their suggestion part of your plan but not the totality of your plan. If there wasn't a need for ailing people to receive treatment at hospitals, hospitals wouldn't have existed from the outset. Wisdom is profitable to direct. Farewell.

7 years of struggle to cater for and build a decent home, I have spoken so many times and to no avail. Since I was born up till this year, I hit a woman for the first time in my life. The reason is just because she did something stupid, I didn't want to get involved in any argument or fight, I just went to book a hotel room and had a quite time to myself that night till the next morning and on getting home she just attacked me saying I went to sleep with another woman.
I have given her the options so many times to go her way if she is not happy being with me but she won't go. As am writing this, I have not eaten her food since yesterday and I just got home only to see her serving me food and trying to make up but this is not the first time. I practically made her not go to the shop today and I was expecting to see that she went to the shop. When ever we talk, she listens and behave herself for a while but its like there is a spirit that comes into her and when it does, she forgets everything and only tries to bring trouble and more trouble.

Go back to your fathers house, she will not. Ok go and be with any other person that will tolerate your attitude she will not leave my house. All she does is money money money this and that. Even with her business, she does not use a dime for anything in the house aside her own stuffs.
Can you imagine she had a fight with me some time ago because I personally went to pay my kids school myself? All because I didn't give her the money to go and pay herself as I normally do?

Can you also imagine she had a fight with me one day all because I bought a jeans and slippers for myself without buying anything for her and the kids because I had bought some nice stuff for all of them including her like a week before then.

This is a woman that has never bought me even a boxers since marriage and has never gotten me anything gift for my birthday or anything but I just ignore all that and focus on making the family happy. Yet I am not happy in my home because I know what I go through especially this year that corona made things rough, I have passed through hell just to ensure my family is fine and we are not put to shame yet a matured thinking lady does not even care about anything.

Those saying I am a fool for thinking of suicide because of a woman, it is not because of the woman I am thinking of such, if you really know what depression can cause, knowing how hard you struggle to earn your money and spend it on someone who cares less for you, you will understand.