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HealthRe: Who Has Heard About Turbo Max Blue, Does It Truely Makes Penis Bigger by amfinishedhelp(op): 8:11pm On Mar 02, 2018
ennyj01:
No problem bro
How much did you order it?
Please give review after using it
Product price is 12k, transport is 1,200 because it's pay on delivery so the extender + transport is 13200

HealthRe: Who Has Heard About Turbo Max Blue, Does It Truely Makes Penis Bigger by amfinishedhelp(op): 4:35pm On Mar 02, 2018
ennyj01:
There are nice reviews on it
Check for Review on Google
But if you ask me I will ask you to stay with your natural manhood
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My man hood is too small, not even up to average likewise both length and girth, i thinks about it all the time and it's getting me depressed, i don't really bothers much about the length the girth is my problem, 3years back i was on the side of what they calls "very small p.enis, i was 4.2inches in length and 3.4 inches in girth, for more than two years i don't sleeps each night, i always wakes up in the middle of the night when everyone is asleep to do penis exercises, am now 6.1 inches in length and 4.4inches in girth, the length is somehow okay for me am really not that concerned about it all the time, the girth is what is really giving me sleepless night, i ve seen penis mostly of those urinating by the road side, but all my life i ve never seen such thin dick like mine...it's really getting me depressed daily, i really don't know what to do with my life anymore. I ve already ordered the pro extender but i don't see it helping me in girth department, but at least with the little length it might give me it will make my manhood a little bit bigger mostly in its flaccid state.
HealthRe: Who Has Heard About Turbo Max Blue, Does It Truely Makes Penis Bigger by amfinishedhelp(op): 9:55am On Mar 02, 2018
ennyj01:
try "mk pure enlargement oil". it is a chinese oil for penis enlargement which can add up to 3.5 inches to your original length. you can google it and also check it up on jumia
Sir!!! Does it really workshuh??
HealthWho Has Heard About Turbo Max Blue, Does It Truely Makes Penis Bigger by amfinishedhelp(op): 6:50pm On Mar 01, 2018
I saw an ad link on xnxx today about making your penis bigger so i clicked on it, and it was something called turbo max blue, they claimed it can make the penis bigger, but i searched on Google but could not actually find much details of it, i really don't wants to be scammed again as i have been scammed severally before while purchasing something for penis enlargement before, so who has heard or known someone who has used the turbo max blue before?? Does it really works and how effective is it? Please i really needs responses.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 11:34pm On Feb 05, 2018
egopersonified:
this life sha. you mean you have boobs and you are hiding it? if you know how most women hate flat chest eh?

apart from work, please look for other activities to get involved in, can you register somewhere to go swimming, here it's 1k per session. if you are registered, you can pay weekly or monthly, and please don't tell me about people seeing your boobs while swimming
Thank you very much ma'am, but even at gun point i don't thinks i can take off my shirt, even my younger brother that is just 11, i hides it strictly for him, i always avoids camp like a plague, i no longer take my bath at anytime, i always observed if there is anyone at he backyard before rushing into the bathroom, and if after bating i will start peeping if there is any, all because am on shirt coming from the bathroom, and if there is eventually any then i will be there no matter how long it takes and wait for the person to leave before coming out, this has been my experience all my whole life.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 11:26pm On Feb 05, 2018
LadySarah:
You are not finished,you can ovrrcome it.

Dunno what to say but you are in my prayers,for the sake of your mum dont llook back.
Thank you very much ma'am, i appreciate this. Thank you
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 11:24pm On Feb 05, 2018
Maychang:
Hm. This is a big shocker.

For those that are upcoming A.Q patronisers or you have it in mind to go there, learn from the OP today and know that just 1 night of pleasure can turn your life into a complete mess.

As the OP talked about 460. I was amazed. Sex is like a soul tie. Imagine your soul being tied to 460 persons.
Lets look at it this way.

OP's first contact was a prostitute who had probably slept with about 500 Men (depending on when she started her trade before OP met her). So OP was joined to 500 souls instantly. Lets say Olosho number 2 has soul ties with 300men. So lets add 500+300= 800

Then the List goes on and on SOtey Op reach 460 (lets assume he repeated the same prostitute 2 times) that would give an average of 230 women who each of them has an average soul tie of 100 Men/Women (each (which is more than 100, but lets use this figure not to scare you)

230×100= 23000.

OP you currently have nothing less than 23000+ demons. Let me be truthful. It would be very Hard to break. But here is good news.

If Jesus could cast out "Legion" from that Man in the bible, then he can do yours as well. The journey wont be easy i must tell you. The enemy would even make things difficult for you in order not to break loose. He would fight you but you must fight it to the end.

Dont mind those telling you not to go to church. Trust me, its the fastest route. Else you would keep going in circles and may not find life worth living.

I wish you well my dear. JESUS LOVES YOU
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Thank you very much ma'am, i appreciate this, i have really tried all i could, but nothing really seems to be working, i kept going back, even yesterday i fought it so hard with all might and strength but at the end i still went, after everything i was so furious and filled with so much rage and anger, i just kept cursing my self and Wishing God should take my life, such anger and retreat and i have swore never to go there again, but i really don't know if i can hold this urge enough till weekend, i don't really knows why it keeps pushing me even when i tried resisting with all my might. Am really so frustrated
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 11:18pm On Feb 05, 2018
Luxuryconsult:
Op don't mind all those talking about one useless prayer, fasting or any mumu church. You don't need anybody at the moment except yourself, no one will save you except you. It is addiction, and you've just taken the first step to getting out of it by complaining/voicing it out.. It literally means your soul and spirit is now tired of it buh tour body is still in control.. Just give it time, you'd get there. You can get yourself a girlfriend or turn a player for fun in a bid to help controlling your flesh. As time goes by, sex will mean nothing to your flesh anymore cuz it'd have had its fill. And then try class yourself in the society, i think this will bring shame to your flesh anytime it's requesting for a prostitute again, the fear of being seen by people that respect you will help you shun any brothel around. So you don't need any prayer or any fasting or any pastor. All you need is you.
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Thank you very much sir, you were right when u said my spirit doesn't needs it but my flesh does, am tired already am tired but the urges keeps pushing me, i swore never and ever to go there again, but just yesterday i still went and i was filled with so much anger and regrets, i hated my self and wishes i should just die. But not i have made another promise again, but i really don't know if i can hold it off before weekend.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 11:14pm On Feb 05, 2018
hiroz:
op i think your problem is psychological.
from what you've written ,you are an introvert and you come from a family with problems, coupled with your
gynaecomastia, you developed a very low self-esteem and feel unaccepted by everyone around you, i cant imagine how u feel, living with a junior brother you are afraid off..
the prostitues are like an escape for u, they won't judge you, wont look down on you, and they wont belittle you like you junior brother.
Op you can't overcome this on your own, you need help, if only you had someone u could trust a confidant, that'll look out for you and help you come down from the high you feel when the urge comes..

one thing I'll advise u too do is to start body building, it'll help with your gynaecomastia..
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Thank you very much sir, you are definitely right am 101% an introvert
Always shy all the time, i mean very shy
As for body building i have done that before but it didn't really work, my ganaecomasta is not the one caused by fat, if it is it would have vanishes my now, it's two rubbery hard tissues under my aerola, in the inside of my chest, the fair colour it has really made it looks like a feminine brest, more that 6 years now, no human alive, man or woman, boy or girl has ever seen my chest.

As for my junior brother, it's not really like am afraid of him, but it's just that am just being careful bcus one thing might lead to another and fight might start between us, God forbid we might probably be outside that day, he might disgrace me and i won't be able to bear such shame, that last time we fought that was when i lost my 3 front tooth all broken into half, two f them now looks very sharp because of the way and shape it was broken, i really don't know what might happen next if we found our self fighting again, am not really sure am ready for that yet, i always ran out of breath easily even with the most slightest thing, just shouting alone i will be feeling weak and tired, i have muscular pains also, i don't think i will be able to fight a 15-17 years old presently now, i will be beaten mercilessly, the last time I played ball for not up to 30 minutes, i was unable to stand up from the bed the next morning, so much pains all over the whole of my body, i can't even stretch my hands on that next day, i was totally finished.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:59pm On Feb 05, 2018
Aashik:
Kudos to you bro, it take a strong will to type all this epistle. I feel your pain.
First and foremost, i want you to know that everyone has battled with one addiction or another. Like me, i was a chronic game addict and porn addict.
Thank God for all the beautiful well wishers i was/am amongst. So you are not alone.
Secondly, know that every reality began with a thought backed by faith and persistence. You have been unconsciously repeating to yourself consistently for many years that you have no control over it, so you mind believed it. Which shows in your moniker.
So the first part of solution lies with your thoughts.
It will be better if you to stop all the unconscious negative autosuggestion and take a lead on conciously constructed positive ones. Very sure with time you mind wil take it up. It is POSSIBLE.
something like
" i release the need to visit brothels
I am overcoming the need to be controlled by sex
I can achieve anything i set my mind on
I am the master of my destiny
I am getting over any sort of addiction by the day...etc.
You can construct more.....start with continuous tense then transit to affirmations. Make sure to write them down and read
Read it first thing in the morning and a moment before you go to bed at night .

Also, PRAYER...i mean fervently. You need it the most

Fasting...pray when you wanna break your fast

Avoid FRIENDS that do the same like abomination.
Mingle with righteous ones. This will go a long way

CHARITY...GIVE MORE and MORE and MORE alms to the needy... THAT'S a SHORTCUT

Help and satisfy your mum, make her happy and Make your Mom pray for you everyday...it works like MAGIC smiley

Someone had advised you on money.. .heed.

On gynaecomasta...(abeg no comot my teeth grin ).
It is curable, seek medical assistant.

Why did you sentence yourself to prison....tomorrow wear no shirt to bathroom and bath at the normal time you used to bath before. People gossip the dead.
Set yourself free. Be brave, take the bold step.

About opposite sex.... You can get any girl you want bro, it all down to your confidence erase the thought that because of gynaecomasta you can get girls. You will find your missing rib. Carry yourself above high. Get out of your shell, stop finding excuses

Lastly... Follow the various advices given and HAVE FAITH! HAVE FAITH!! HAVE FAITH!!!. You need it, can't emphasize it enough.

From a muslim
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Thank you very much sir, i will try my possible best to do as you commanded, but wearing no shirt to the bathroom?? That is definitely the last thing i will ever think of, even at gun point i don't really thinks it will ever be possible, you won't really understands.

I can avoid friends
Fasting and praying, this will hard me a little
Meditation, am okay with it
Giving to my mum, hmmmm will be hard also
Giving to charity will be hard also, but i will try my possible best

Am just being honest
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:50pm On Feb 05, 2018
mastermaestro:
I won't condemn you. Most addictions are learnt at the dawn of youth years. You picked up a very bad habit that has entrapped you without mercy. Hey bro, you were deflowered by a marine demon-possessed prostitute. The demon now lives inside of you. You cannot break free by any human efforts. Only a supernatural intervention will be able to destroy its grip on you!

No kindergarten should quote me senselessly on this matter. Op, just look for a spiritually sound pastor to help you intercede through prayers. Try all you can, you cannot break free by yourself! You are dealing with a resident sex demon.
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All this year's i have tried all i could but no way, the sexual urges keeps coming back, last week i swore never to go there again, but this week alone i still went yesterday and a day before yesterday am presently regretting it now and feels like killing my self for my foolishness , now i have swore never to go again with all seriousness, but am not so sure if i will be able to withstand the urges if it arrives again. Thank you very much sir, i will do as you commanded, thank you i really do appreciate this. Thank you
CrimeRe: Fulani Herdsmen Attack Yogbo In Benue State, Kill Policeman And Others. Photos by amfinishedhelp: 12:52pm On Feb 04, 2018
tasteofcash:
fool. u are a result of a rape between a murderer and a prostitute, dats how u sound like. useless bastard, u are a disgrace to ur rapist father. u need medical attention urgently, ur madness is overwhelming. poverty-stricken stupid murderer like ur master. u will cover ur face in shame come 2019 i.e if u will still be alive cos definitely dis fulani mayhem created by ur master will directly or indirectly fall on u and ur entire family. fool
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My guy that girl is really something else, really so pathetic i can't really believe this. God forbid... Spits
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 7:06am On Feb 04, 2018
blessedvisky:
Op, contact the pastors of all those small churches around your area. Just tell them to refer you to a prayer mountain. Be careful about sharing ur problem with them Tho, b4 they make you a permanent member.

You can break after the setting of the sun. I recommend 7 days fast in top of the mount. You can come down to break and buy stuffs or package them b4 leaving. Make sure you take time to plan this trip. If you work, then a Friday evening - Sunday evening will do so as to not miss work. Also don't eat anything fancy, just light food and/or fruits.

Prayers
God should break the yoke of addiction to prostitutes
God should restore all you have lost
God should make you a brand new man.


Make sure you pray with all seriousness. Avoid internet through out. Don't on data. Also don't start watching videos and pictures when you are bored. You can meditate on Bible verses b4 and after prayer.
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Thank you very much sir, this might be really helpful... Thank you
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 7:05am On Feb 04, 2018
adetoroamos:
find yourself a girlfriend. even if the one you love don't give you green light still still beg her so you can achieve your dream. if you have someone in mind that you gonna call, talk with and gist with definitely you won't go brothel again. or just watch porn during their period, trust me sex gonna pix you off
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Sometimes i will be with friends discussing and gisting, but i always finds a way of sneaking out and the next thing am at the brothel already, majority of the time of has happened is when am at the club drinking and dancing, i always sneaks out.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 7:03am On Feb 04, 2018
Acidosis:
You need to check your HIV status ASAP
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Lol, i did last 2 months it came back negative
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:45pm On Feb 03, 2018
sisisioge:
Oh dear! I sincerely sympathize with you. What you need is a new resolve, this time try to get help. You could start a platonic relationship with a sweet girl that would take your mind off sex but loving. Aids is real...your cousin sent in his write up last year too after treading same path as you. He wasn't lucky at all...need I say more? Whew! Too much fuss about sex .. It is just sex o.
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Tnk u very much for, i appreciate this
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Lalasticlala please help me push this to the front page to get more reviews, thanks.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:44pm On Feb 03, 2018
Atk1nson:
@amfinishedhelp, never say that to yourself bro, you'll fight it till you win.

I suggest you deal with factors that may promote such:

1. Completely avoid that location for any reason, take other routes to your destination. In this case out of sight could be out of mind

2. Bank you cash and don't keep an ATM

3. Avoid friends that encourage such habit

4. Consider being in a relationship and possibly settling down soonest. Once you get addicted to sex its very difficult to stop

5. Seek conselling.

6. Always remember you are playing with HIV and other dangerous STDs. There was a guy on NL too who kept boasting of his brothel exploits, till one day he asked for advice on an unexplained illness which was later confirm to be HIS.

7, pray
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Thank you very much sir, this is really helpful, mostly the part u talked about not keeping an atm, that might probably help alot, thank u very much.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:42pm On Feb 03, 2018
Oxster:
Also stop watching porn and get yourself busy

My last porn was also last 5months

Lol,anytime I wanna watch it,,I feel disgusting and rem how mny months I have been counting!

All Thanks To Happiness,She delivered ME
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Wow am surprised, 5 months is really a great achievement no doubt, how u managed to do it still beats my imagination up till this moment.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:40pm On Feb 03, 2018
Oxster:
Is not a spiritual problem,,4m Experience

In less than 3weeks I slept with 8 prostitute,,,Not untill I had a girlfriend who is a prostitute,,,I only see her,,tho @ men's I see anoda

B4 she left prostituting business,she asked me 4 a favour,,Guess whathuh....This gal begged me never to go to brothel again(it also sound as a warning,,since den,no Mata how Hot I feel,,either I have sex with a gal or I PRAY TO GOD 4 WETDREAMS)

IS not too late to stop,,,Stop by Counting Days and Weeks#

This is my 5 months

Anyway,,,Olosho sweet I no go lie#watching Porn with them was BAE then!!
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Hmmmmmmm, 5 monthshuh Are you serious about thishuh Hard to believe though, how did u managed to do it sir, please i really needs to know please.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:38pm On Feb 03, 2018
tensazangetsu20:
Op you should never have brought this to nairaland. I hope you have a thick skin for the useless comments that will follow grin
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Tank's sir, i know already that was why i opened a new account.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:37pm On Feb 03, 2018
Xcelinteriors:
This is a very serious issue. You are still young and can come out of it. But the question is do you really want to stop? Look for any mountain of fire ministry(MFM) around you and meet the pastor, just tell your story and he will lead you to God. Devil have seen a great future ahead you and want to destroy it. Prostitute are demonic and can completely destroy your life if you don't act very fast. Also let your mum know what you've been doing so that she will also fast and pray with you. It is not late my dear. Turn to God today
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Tnk u very much, i can do other things u mentioned here but i can't and won't definitely let my mum knows about this, she is really not the understanding type. She doesn't really understands things at all, she will definitely sees the whole scenario as something else.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:35pm On Feb 03, 2018
blessedvisky:
You need special prayers. Can you fast? You need to travel to a mountain for sometime and pray there. He get some kain prayers wey fit reset person completely.

PS this is not a joke
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Tnk u very much sir, sir like how many days fasting and where is the mountain located? Is it total dry fasting??
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:34pm On Feb 03, 2018
Nellychinma20:
I don't know if u are a Christian.
You need to pray

Jer:32:27-i'm the lord ,the God of all mankind .Is anything too hard for me to do ?

I'm not going to judge but I will remember u in my prayers .
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Thank u very much ma'am, i really do appreciate. Thank you
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op):
kimbraa:
The part you fought with your brother got me laughing out loud. cheesy grin

Back to the topic, what you're dealing with is an addiction, it's that way because you were deflowered by prostitutes. The solution to your problem lies within you...the decisions you make now will determine whether you'll quit or keep going back to the brothel. Firstly, get a girlfriend since you're now sexually active...one you love. Secondly, decide never to visit the brothel and be willing to fight the urge to 'cause sex is overrated. All the hype ends the second you cum. Is that worth visiting brothels for? I find guys who patronise prostitutes to have low moral compass. Lastly, develop self-control 'cause it's important.
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As for the fight, i lost my 3 front tooth that day, all broken into half, one of my front tooth is as sharp as that of a wolf based on the pattern it was broken, i decided not to include all this on the post.
Back to your mention :

Tnk u very much ma'am, all this year's i ve been practicing how to control my sexual urges but i don't thinks it's a fight i can win i have tried all i could, uses Google searches etc but nothing really seems to be working, and lastly as for the girl friend aspects "i have ganaecomasta" since 2011 when i was in ss3 till date no body has seen my chest, "no soul" and u know if am to get a girlfriend and about to have sex u know am going to take off my singlet right?? But with the prostitutes the light is always very low, sometimes it looks like total darkness and i can probably have sex with them without taking off my shirt off, but with a normal girlfriend it won't ever be possible, because she really won't be possible and might suspect that there is something fishy. This is one of the reasons am not able to get one. u won't understands what am going through though, it's really not easy for me living like this and wearing t-shirts to the bathroom not even singlet, my compound has already started calling me "boy girl" i have already heard it more than twice when am about entering the bathroom, but i just pretended i didn't heard it, because i really don't wants the whole situation to turns to something else and the whole neighborhood knows am always wearing shirts to the bathroom, since then i no longer take my bath during the day if am unable to take it from 5:30am then am not bating throughout the day anymore till the next day or at night when everyone is asleep. No matter how much heat i feels or am preparing for church, if i can't take it early before everyone wakes then am not bating throughout that day. It's really not easy living like this.
FamilyRe: Please Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 10:21pm On Feb 03, 2018
Ajoboss:
Bros ur write up is too long,u for try summerise am
But na weytin man sew nai him dey wear..u need help seriously.
As for ur bro. tell him not to bite d hand Dat fed him
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Lol, tank's
FamilyPlease Help Me, I Can't Live A Week Without Sleeping With Prostitutes by amfinishedhelp(op): 6:46pm On Feb 03, 2018
Hello my fellow nairalanders, i created a new moniker to hide my identity, i really don't know how to begin but i will try as much as possible to make everything clear
It all started on the 13th of February 2013, after i and a friend of mine was returning from a football center a match between Real Madrid and Manchester United, there is a brothel close to the matching hall, although i have been passing there most expecially when coming from church but i have never gotten the guts to branch to see how it looks like even though i really wanted to, so on this faithful day when coming from the match hall my friend decided to branch and asked him to follow him, which i did i was still a very strong virgin then and never had sex or masturbated before, i was 19 then but am 23 now, so he called one of the prostitutes and had sex with her i really wanted to also but i didn't have anything on me and it was very late because i had the intentions of getting home to collect money and go back again, but it was really very late already and they must have closed at that time before i could make it there so i decided to sleep and go the next day, that night i could not sleep, the sexual urge that gripped me was too much that i was trembling and can't really wait for day to break and gets dark again so i could go, note : i didn't ever knew that there was anything called masturbation then or that stroking ones genitals will give him/her pleasures, so the day eventually got darker and it was night already, i went to meet my friend and told him about my plans and told him to accompany me because i really thinks i won't be able to approach one or talk to her that i wants to have sex with her, so we got there and i pointed the one i likes and we went in, so she collected 5h from me and we had the sex, i didn't lasted 2 minutes before i ejaculated, i came out but couldn't find my friend then i knew he was in, so i waited for some minutes before he eventually came out, "that day was when my problems started" next day i went selected one and had sex with her, since early 2013 up till date i have been going...going...and going, since that day till this date not a single week have passed that i had not have sex, there is a note Facebook note i have been writing which is privacy is set as "only me" the number of sex i have had, as of last two years before i stopped writing was 244, no exaggeration and no subtraction i said this because many here won't believe what am saying or might probably thinks or making this up, all what am saying here is the truth and definitely 101% true "if am lying concerning anything i says here then let God take u my life, "let me sleep this night and not see the break light of tomorrow, let me not see 2019" i started going and going, most of the time i would have sex with two different prostitutes, i always do so because i lasts more on the second round, sometimes i will go twice on same girl, last year 2017 was when this thing really got worst because i was actually masturbating daily "every morning" when bating before going to work and would still come back in the evening and go to the brothel to have sex all this sex i have been having are all with different prostitutes except for some few which i had repeated sex with, sometimes i would have sex with 2 different prostitutes, and sometimes 3, i no longer sleep with just one prostitute any time i went it's always 2 or 3 different ones the highest scenario i have done so far in the four years i was visiting the brothel was a day i had sex with four different prostitutes and during my night browsing the urge came again and i masturbated, i felt so weak the and pains all over my body the next day that i could not go to work, i have become so thin and laggy that i don't have physical strength to fight or work because of the amount of sperms i waste daily, the highest day i have stayed without having sex in all this period of 4 years that i started was 11 days, i was able to stay long because of what happened between i and my younger brother whom i am older than with 4 years and a month but he is much bigger than me, although same height but he is far more thicker than me with much muscles, "he is always fund of abusing my mum and threatening her all the time, so this particular day i can't really recall what happened between him and my mum so my mum slapped him and he returned the slap to her and kicked her, i was still on the chair pressing my phone that day, immediately i saw this i rushed him, but before i knew it i saw my self on the ground with blows raining on my faces, he held me down with one hand, i could not move after a few minutes a papa, our next door neighbor came to the rescue, "since that day up till this moment as am typing this now, i have always been afraid to confront him whenever he abuses my mum or does anything wrong, sometimes when he is finding something and shouting on top of his voice my heart will be pounding so fast" probably because of fear i really can't explain. that was when i really knew i had to quit because i have become so weak with pains all over my body every single joints on my body is paining me, so after that scenario i was able to hold the urges for 11 days clear before it overpowered me and finally i broke my vow, this past Christmas watching night day i had sex with 3 different prostitutes and still went the next day which it Christmas day, a day after Christmas day and a day after that day, same thing i did on new year day after praying and crying that night not to ever and ever step do it again, that same night was the night i broke my promise, the total of prostitutes i have slept with is more that 460+ within a space of 4 years since i started, everytime i would vow never to go again but the next day i will be the first to get to the brothel with a strong feelings of sexual urges, i really don't know how to stop this, last week i went 5days of the 7days of the week, but this week after vowing not to do it again i have only gone twice and as am typing this now am trembling with a strong sexual urge right now i for sure know i will be going this night, i have written down all the negative impact it's having on me so that when the time comes i will be able to read in and not go anymore, but whenever the urges surfaces i won't dare be able to read them all that would be on my mind that moment is to go to the brothel and have sex, i have tried all i could to stop this and also to stop masturbating but i have not been able to succeed all this while, i really don't know what to do with my life anymore as it is affecting me physically and spiritually, since this year only once i have gone to church which is first Sunday, throughout last year also total number i went to church is was not more than 6times, please fellow nairalanders help me, isn't there something that could be done to stop this powerful sexual urges and thoughts from coming every now and then, i have been unable to save any money all this years, i could remember my mum begging me one day to give her 100# that she wants to eat suyabi refused because i have budgeted the money already to visit the brothel that evening, i ended up wasting 2,700 i was so full of rage, anger and regrets after reaching home but still next day i went again, sometimes i will use the last drop of money i had on me to go to the brothel and the next day i won't have any single thing to eat, i will be filled with so much hatred and regret for my self and vow never to go again, but before i knew it am there already. the amount of action bitters i have drank can fill a paint rubber, i always took action bitters all the time whenever am going so i could last long and not ejaculate quickly, i really needs to quit please i needs solutions, different solutions am ready to try any, please help me nairalanders. I can't really continue like this, there is actually none of the brothels in the city i lives that have not gone to. Please help me nairalanders.

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