Nwodosis:
How old are you?

20

Please don't judge me. I created a new account to post this.

I just got into a new relationship 2 weeks ago. A week prior to that I lost my virginity to a guy I love. But I know he isn't a relationship kind of guy. He claims he loves me and even asked me out after having taking my virginity but I refused.

However I accepted the proposal of a guy friend that I've known for many years. I love him too. He is more relationship oriented. We've not had sex yet.

The problem is that I'm so attracted to the first guy. He doesn't know I'm in a relationship and he still talks and flirts with me. I'm afraid that if I tell him I'm in a relationship he will stop talking to me and that will be the end of our friendship. I've been avoiding him because I don't think I'll be able to control myself around him. I get very wet down there when he stands close to me and I fell a strong urge to kiss him when I look at his face.

I don't know what to do. It's been 3 weeks since I last saw him face to face and that was the day I lost my virginity to him.