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So i am in the midst of rounding off my degree in this private school. I plan to try out new things and live life everyday, in doing so i would be writing signifocant moments of my everyday life so this is more like my online diary where i would come to everyday. ( not possibly everyday tho )
My hope of writing this is for my personal reflection when and also to let people who would be reading this an idea of last days in this bleeped school lol.

Note: i am not a writer i am just learning to write.
I am doing this for myself before anybody else,
still corrections are encouraged.
Gracias!

Admissionclass:
you just lost form it happens to anyone go back to the drawing board go back to the dating drills and read more of Dan bacon articles and videos.this is happening to you because alphamales are scarce if you have alphamales as friends you wouldn't loose vibes but since you are surrounded by betamales it is bound to happen their mentality will always rub on you.

you are so correct bro. I have too many beta males as friends and no alpha male.
My loss of form is so bad that it is making me confused.

Davash222:
Lol.
What happened to your self esteem?? E lost

Boy, all these happened cos you met wrong friends.

"Then i began to make mistakes, made friends with the wrong people i e toxic relationship with guys who would later ho on to kill my vibe and all that"

This is where you got it all wrong. Don't blame Ubunja's work for your wrong decisions.

The easiest way to lose your self esteem is through cultism.

No i am not blaming ubunja. I am just trying to find solution to my problem.
I am not in a cult. The thing is the friends i have in school made be take up a stupid belief that i need money to get girls, thereby i have to leave girls all together till i make money.
That mentality is making think like a beta male right now.

Davash222:
You cant be, boy. Trust me, you can't be.

bro i need help to get myself back together. My self esteem. I just want my old self back.

Davash222:
That's good. The gods are proud of you. The forces are with you.

Aswear it is not all
Like am bleeped up right now

Around this time last year was when i surfing nairaland and i came across Ubunja's mis-educations and Harddon's teachings. But before i came across their Red pill teachings i was just a normal teenager 17yd, i was between extrovert and introvert, i wasn't an all that social person tho naturally i was attractive.
When i came across Harddon and Ubunja teachings exactly the time i was preparing for admission, at that time i was taking extra lessons and extra lessons gave me the chance to sociallise and practise the new found teachings. When i started the lessons i was practically just one normal student, by the time i left the lesson and got admitted i was game. Then i could approach any girl without a second thought or fear no matter her status, whether she was my league or above my league i treated them like babies or the way i would treat my younger sister.
Lolzzz.. It was crazy. It was as if i had gotten a super power to attract girls even grown women, like i made older ladies even crush on me, people i could call aunty and i would not even feel any iota of fear.
So i got admitted in university and i started from where i stopped in lesson i was vibing with everyone and was making friends and was making quality friends.
Then i started classes before i knew i made friends the first day everything was going well, it was a private school so we had people who had resumed long before us. We were divided into two groups, i.e the 1st group and the second group.All through this i was feeling like a boss.
From there i took up made friends with everyone in class between the first and second day, before the week ran out i was talking with almost everyone in class.
By the end of 1st semester i had handful girls who would have wanted a relationship with me.
Like i began to Harddon's and Ubunja's teaching was so real, most especially as i was in school then.
Like the good girls being attracted to bad boys and the rest, so it was as if i knew girls weak points/ mumu bottons.
Lolzz..I even at one time left my crush/ everybodies crush do my assignment.
Not long i began to notice guys getting envious, you know i was 17 then, just clocked 18 by june. I am the youngest if not one of the youngest in class
So my success with girls made guys begin to evny me.
Not long i began to notice evny. It was so much a guy almost 4 years my senior would tell me to my face he hated me.
You know in every class we always had the Alpha male or the most social peson in class, this was the guy who hated me.
Then i began to make mistakes, made friends with the wrong people i e toxic relationship with guys who would later ho on to kill my vibe and all that.
By the time we were merged together both first and second group by 200lv I noticed my vibes began to die gradually.
I started getting stupid beliefs that would go on to affect my self-esteem, such as i need to make money to make girls like me and all trash.
Not long my self-esteem became so low.
Gradually i began to lose the respect girls had for me, like me that wouldn't take any girls bullshit. It was so bad a girl told me am agemates with her younger brother.
I felt so bad, it was as if i lost my super powers. Girls words and manipulations would begin to have effect on me. Not long i began to see myself as bullshit that i began to needed highness and alcohol to do stuff i could do with just the teachings of Ubunja and Harddon.
I feel so bad right now!
Like i have lost all my confidence socially and mentally.
Like i have lost my balls and i need them back.
Now i feel so bleeped up, i rushed down for holiday earlier than normal just to come home to fix up myself.
I really need help.
I need a refix. Brothers help
How do i get my balls back??
Any advise?
Ubunja??.
Harddon??.