TherapeuticJeny: Let me tell you a real life story of when I was obsessed with my school's Head Boy prefect.
When I was in secondary school, SS2 to be precise, I had a crush on one boy. His name was Steven (not his real name). I was so obsessed with this guy. He was, and still is, a fine guy. Although I am no longer obsessed with him. Back then, I thought he was God's gift to this earth. I always made sure to pass where he was passing and buy the same sweets he bought. He was in the same class as me.
I was not a greedy girl. At that time, I was okay with seeing his face every day, at least once. It made me the happiest when our eyes met “accidentally.” I made sure that every time our eyes met, I would look away so I wouldn’t stare at him for too long. My heart raced anytime he talked to me. I remember this one time our maths teacher put us in the same group. I couldn’t believe it, I was in the same group as Steven. It was such a dream come true. I thought it was a blessing in disguise.
No one knew I had a crush on him. It would have been embarrassing. How could I, the “fat girl of the century,” have a crush on the most popular boy in school the Head Boy, for that matter? Impossible. I would have been mocked and bullied, so I kept that secret to myself.
It wasn’t hard to keep it, as I didn’t really talk much to people anyway. At that time, our maths Teacher put us in the same group, I made sure to stay close to him as close as I possibly could without raising suspicion. After all, I “couldn’t hear his voice well.” He must have felt uncomfortable, as he always moved a little when I came near. He would always make sure everyone’s opinion was heard, and I liked that about him. One time, I got called out for making noise with some other classmates. We were told to run laps. I couldn’t believe that Steven was part of us too,he was there to supervise as the head boy, so I was happy even during the punishment. We started running, and I tried to give it my all. I was running like my life depended on it, hoping that he would see me.
Then it happened, somebody threw water on the floor, and I didn’t see it. I slipped and fell, and the whole class, who were watching us run like it was a movie, screamed, “The mountain has fallen!” Oh, how embarrassing. I was so embarrassed. No one tried to help me up. I got up on my own, and I sneakily checked to see if he saw me fall—and alas, he did. But he didn’t laugh at me. He asked if I was okay and told me to go inside, saying he would explain to the teacher for me.
There were so many scenarios of us together. Obviously, I was paying more attention, I’m sure he didn’t even know I was there. But I will never forget the day Steven told one of my friends that he liked her. Since then, I had never been the same. Well, I’m much better now, but I really wasn’t at that point. I tried to sabotage things a little, but thankfully, I snapped out of it. God is great. If you want to hear how I nearly sabotaged my friend’s love story, please comment.
And please share your first love experience, I want to see if I was the only one who embarrassed herself Infront of her crush If this is true, then it's quite hilarious 😂 |