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me and my bf were dating each other for nearly two years now, though our love was full of romance and he is always there for me, caring for my need and understands me alot .but he is always so jealousy when seeing me greeting other guys unless it is a woman, he always adviced me not to get pregnant that we are still not ready for a child now, but soon i discovered that i was having his baby and when i check doc, i didn't explained to the Doctor that am feeling like pregnant but instead i told the Doctor i feel like i have malaria coz i vomit alot, so when Doc checked me he said no malaria or maybe the wether is not good with me and so he gave me some choloroquine tabs, on taking it the baby came out only two months, i was so shocked as i didnt believed that am really preg, myself i work and have all the money that i need, my intention was that if pregnancy really happens by mistakes i will care for my child myself if he deny. so i was so feared to tell him about it coz i new he is not ready for a child. one day he started to ask me all these times we were together, dont i oneday felt preg? i can't lie though a feared to say so i told him it happened once and the baby is off due to some mistakes, to my surprise, he rose into a reaction that i never believe would have happen, he started crying and saying how i lost his child and why don't i tell him on time so that he can chrieve for his baby, and started shouting i am so pityless, resortles, and shameles, he almost got sad and even missed to go to his work for a period of 3 days whenever i talk to him he dont want to answer me just keeing quiet after 3 days his anwers were just (please repeat it to me again how did the baby cames out, and why i didnt told him??) 

Oh i feel so much sad and ignoring my own self, i dont really know what to do, my emotions got so weak to the extend that i am nothing in this world why would things like this happen to me

please i need help and good advices.