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Oh no, never mind this site changes the words so they are not bad. So you can't say intimacy.U.A.L.

Why do I keep on typing intimate I meant sexual abuse.

Sorry meant sexual abuse.

I don't want to start fights or anything and I know that that is really easy to do here but that's not what I came here to do. I tried all my life to follow god. I was born into a Christian/LDS family. With a Mom, Dad, and twin sister. Lets just say I was happy and as far as I can remember, close to god. Then when I was 8 years old my father passed away. Yes it was hard for me, and I never got angry at god for that. When I was 12 my mom remarried a 56 year old man named Angel Moroni Rosales. Soon after, I was molested by him. My life was shit at tgat point, because it was sexual, physical, and verbal abuse for me, and really bad verbal abuse for my sister. Now all this time for 2 years until I finally called the cops on him and mom finally believed me AFTER he they got a divorce, I believed I was breaking the law of chastity and it was my fault. My fault that he would come into my room every night and molest me. Because I prayed time after time asking for forgiveness- I thought I was going to hell because each time I got down on my knees and prayed crying asking for forgiveness for this terrible sin I thought I was commuting, Angel would just come in and do it again and if I didn't cooperate, he would beat me. And this went on for TWO years. And god didn't even think to even try to give me the inspiration that it wasn't my fault. Now I had an argument with my mom last night because she found out I was going to become a satanist. She said she felt SORRY for me! Wow. I'm just going to the god who actually care, father Satan. So go ahead pray for me. I don't care. Maybe God will start caring. My name is Desirée Lasky, and say that in your prayers, before this I hoped to god that the Holy Spirit would touch me. Now I just need something to hold onto because I'm done trying my hardest for god if he dosent care. Thank you.

Hi, I'm 15 and very serious about becoming a spiritual satanist. I have read a lot on the Joy of Satan website already and it all comes together and everything starts to make sense. I live and grew up in a Mormon household, so it is hard for me to practice Satanism freely. I have learned so much on Joy of Satan but still am very confused on one aspect. Is dedicating yourself the same as selling your soul to satan? I mean I'm not trying to become a satanist because of greed, lust, etc. I just want to follow the one who actually wants to help mankind, and it turns out that is Father Satan. Thank you so much.