The ops story is very similar to mine. My dad is even starting to notice.

The things we do for love

What I would add is that everybody should do what brings him peace #innerGod

I was born into a christian home. A pastor's home. As expected, I was born into christianity. Normally also as I grew older and began to think for myself, I hear stuffs like "the righteousness of your parents can't save you", "you need to be genuinely saved", "you need to give your life to Christ" etc. I was like fine, and I gave my life to Christ. In fact for like 3 times I responded to altar call. Recently this year too, you know what next na, I was baptised in the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues.

But then, the problem started when I looked around and I began to wonder If I would be a christian at all if I was not born into a christian home. 2 of the best people I know(that are not my family) that I admire very much are strict muslims. I began to wonder what would have been if they had been born into a christian home. If because they were not, they will go to "hell". Because they followed the religion they were born into (strictly too). These two are close to me, and though I pretend not to notice they also think I will go to their "hell". But that's just 2. I began to look at the world in general and I realized that if what I had learned about hell is true, up to 70% of the world population is going to hell. I mean, lets not kid ourselves more than 50% christians that believe in the christian God will go to the christian hell (if its the real one), not to talk of christian sects that believe there is no hell. So many different doctrines, faith, religion, believes; It was all just overwhelming when I really thought about it.

Well, I began to lose my believe. Recently I've been spending time in the religion section of nairaland, and let's just say I've lost it completely. Now I don't hate religion, in fact what I've concluded about it ( I've done serious thinking ) people need something to believe in. If you've been paying attention at all to my write up, you'll notice I hadn't mention there is no God (even if I might think it); I've just lost my believe.
The one Question I ask myself is "Why Should I Believe in God?" Maybe someone can answer that for me. Why exactly? The only things I know about Him is from the Bible (why should I believe that) and from people (why should I believe that too).

I love my family and I would never disrupt the peace by making my believe known (I still go to church, participate in family devotion, read the bible, pray etc). If the nature of my words surprise anybody, I want to add that I am less than 20 years of age too.

I'm not an atheist and I don't want to be. I don't want to be anything, I just want to live my life!