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loco somewhere , in the world 01/19/2006

I lost my virginity to a single mother. She was just so hot and goodlooking. Imaginethe best looking woman you ve ever seen....Shes a top person....Wonderful personality, good heart and very humble....
He little daughter who s 11 is very sweet and kind...At first I also didnt wana go for her, but she persisted and I honestly couldnt help it and guess what...She got pregnant of me! Now we have a gorgeous little girl whom I love to death...My life has been turned up side down though...I found out lots of dark secrets and stories I didnt know about her having slept with heaps of guys...Abortions and other shit...It s been so hard for me to accept so much shit...I was the typical born again clean virgin guy and have never been the type of sleaze who takes advantage of women...Like all the men she slept with....After having talked to her I realized she s been only a victim of her upbringing. She had a very difficult life...Her father ran away her mum s a drank and very negative type of person....I feel sad forher...Cause now I c that she actually ran towards those men as a puppy needy of love would run after u.....I haven t married her yet...Its hard for me to take the desition...I feel that not matter whatI do there s gonna be pain...If I marry her I will always have a bitter taste of life after finding out all about her past....If I dont I will become a single dad myself and have to know my little daughter will be far away in another state..Besides who would now take a single crhistian dad? My reputation has been completely tarnished .I frankly never been so confused....She wants to start going to church and have a beautiful family..She s not a bad person,Ilove her ...I adore her little daughter ...And I would give my life for our baby....I tried breaking up with her a few times but I cant bear her crying desperately..Her dauughter s also so attached to me...I feel they re so vulneralble and are so alone in this world...It s so bloody hard ....Please I need help ....Im going crazy ..email me...I need your advice urgently....Sometime I feel like killing myself

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