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As I responded to the account above, I will still continue. But not now.

I regretted because the relationship with the said lady took me back to the filthy activities full time and another major cause for the regret which is the most painful thing which I will still talk about very soon.

Tharmon:
Continue the story plz..what made you regret it..I'm learning from it

Thank you, I appreciate.

I will still continue, but not now. It is not just a a story, it is a journey.

I hardly use this account, reason for late response.

I'm sorry for that.

Astromania:
bruuuhh!!! I like dis ur story
Abeg continue d story.... episode 2
Please 🙏

Hello!

I love your challenge, and I will advise that you should keep to your determination and the purpose, avoid all discouraging posts and comments with all energies.

If you go through my post, you'll notice I was once like you and I got the cleanliness I wanted at a point in time. I was cleaned for more than a year staying clean without masturbation, pornography, and sex. I could count 15 months at a goal without these three acts.

But the year that made it one year plus I stopped the nonsense activities, I relapsed as a result of my foolishness on a lady that we were developing lust for ourselves at work.

Let me say few of this story for record sake.

When I got a job in the organization, there is this lady I always admire, beautiful and with good character. I started initiating talks and I was intentionally manipulating her emotions subtly in a way that was not pronounced. But I never approached her or tell her that I wanted anything sexual from her. But I always fantasize having her in my mind every moment I saw her.

I took my course of manipulating her emotions in a very discreet ways, I would advise her, make her to listen to me, I made every seconds to be comfortable speaking or being with me, and to make it worse I was very religious that I was bringing religious materials to work and distributed to staff.

Purposely for my manipulation, I was dressing well, invested in good perfume, cut my hair nicely with well pressed dresses.

I could say among all men in the organization back then I was the one giving the best look at a period, purposely because of this lady.

Something happened in the office that they did some rearrangement where my table was moved from the initial position to be positioned directly beside her desk. I was so happy. The manipulation took another strategy I intensified this mission with a daily and constantly thought in my mind to have this lady in my bed. But I was so religious in my organization that I dare not come out directly to woo a girl to bed her unless I needed serious relationship from her that could lead to marriage, because I didn't want anyone to see me as not who I claimed to be. I manipulated this lady to the point that I would even be advising her against sexual activities, I really took the emotional manipulation to grade A of the highest tier of emotional manipulation to the point that she later fell in love with me before the end of the year and as she was now seeing me as her boyfriend without me asking her out or spending a dime in her.

At this stage, she started calling me dear, she would always want to talk to me after work that any time I am unable to pick her call she would be so angry and registered her anger whenever I later picked or when we later saw the next day at work.

At this stage I still continued the emotional manipulation pretending as if I did not want anything relationship with her. This is another level of manipulation, deep down I knew she had fallen in love. I knew things I did practically that I won't want to mention here so that she won't come across this post one day and later get to know I am behind the keyboard.

Time started counting, she won't want to do anything at my back without telling me, it got to a stage that she was practically telling me everything happening in her life and her family members cutting across her parents and siblings and all men that have been asking her out including permanent staff, the organization manager, and some outsiders. At this stage I knew love had entered her, but I won't lie, love had entered me as well, but I wasn't showing it to her.

To make the matter worse she starting telling me about her boyfriend, how the guy love her, this challenges she was facing in the relationship and lot more. She showed me the picture of the guy and they were just too cool together, handsome tall guy indeed. I would advise her to do all things to make the relationship work and overlook things the guy might be doing, that whatever happening in the relationship is common to almost all relationships. Whenever I gave her advice on things like this, she's always happy and wanted to hear more from me

Anytime she expected me to say a bad comment on the guy, but rather, I advice her positively to maintain the relationship and pray, my level of respect is always added by a degree. This is an advanced emotional manipulation for someone you deeply have interest to bed without going the convectional way.

The relationship had continue without me letting her to know that I was in relationship with her, any time she called, she always ended the call with I love you, some times I replied back with I love you too, but anytime I didn't reply, she would pick an offence for not replying that I love her too.

Days rolling to weeks, weeks counting into months, this relationship was building up with deep emotional connection between the two of us.

Anytime I was not on seat in the office, the lady would practically been missing me. There was a time I was given an assignment outside of the office, where I was spending about, 30-40 minutes, this lady came to meet me that she had missed me. I pray she does not come across this line, she may be suspicious.

Time was counting, we continue this to the extent that she a night won't pass without discussing on phone everyday despite that we left same office same day. But we were obsessed with each other.

To cut the story short, she visited my apartment and we had intense romance, the beginning of my relapse. I don't want to go into details on this visitation encounters, because I regretted the adventures later on.

It will be good I also let you guys know that I met this lady as a virgin despite graduating from a higher institution as at the time of the adventures and encounters.

That ended my journey of "No pornography, no masturbation journey" . A painful experience, I relapsed woefully.

I'm picking this up again. God helping me.

My face was worse than this when I was still masturbating, but when I stopped, my face started getting clean gradually and now very clean.

If you masturbate, kindly stop. It will go naturally.

I used all sorts of medications then without any effect.

But if you don't masturbate, kindly forgive me.

Thanks